tired, sleepy, nostalgia.

sorry for bailing out on all of you today, especially dionn. totally slept the remainder of the train ride back after fiona left. then he followed me to pasir ris while it's faster to go simei. i'm so sorry ><

but then i missed the bus. so i took another one. and then i made a fool out of myself, cause i was damn sian. somehow at the end i dropped my bottle and my hand reacted instinctly, it went up and i accidentally brushed the hair of the girl in front.

but now i'm at home. reached at 4.18 i think. earliest ever, usually it's like after the sun goes down -.-

or when the sun is going down.

i feel slackish now. well, it's probably because we're all in that phase where lessons have finished, and the teachers either slack or ask us to do up our files or tell us what to study. and we're all still shocked from finishing projects. so yeah.

whatever. econs presentation on friday. that'll be the last. i think i snapped at a lot of people today too. sorry..

tumblr calms me down. a little. sometimes, i wished i had a com. i'll just bring it to school everyday and spam it during breaks. i can do whatever i like. but then i'll spoil it or something.

hostel briefing tmr. i'm not really looking forward to it. even though we'll be with friends, i like home. hostel won't be as comfortable, as nice, as..well, you carry on for me. and i feel like i'm neglecting my family. i feel guilty when i don't spend time with them. but sometimes, it's hard to spend time with them because things just spiral into one massive mess.

ignore me, i'm digressing.

i'm hungry. but i don't want to eat. and i'm still extremely sleepy. maybe i should skip school tmr. like some people, who just skips school and lessons as and when they like.

the world outside is peaceful. i like my house. it's familiar...warm, and comfortable. i don't care if it's small, it's my house. and it has my stuff.

i wonder if i can take my bed into hostel next year hahaha. they should have a buffet room. with a constant supply of free food.

somehow, wherever i go, after like an hour i feel like eating. i want to eat, eating is so good. it's so...satisfying. and happy. when i'm pissed, and i get nice food, i instantly cheer up. that's how effective it is.

i need more tumblr followers. howcome i have like 10 and nikki has like 127! or something like that. unfair.

so tired. i can't survive on 8h of sleep in 2 days. i'll just die. oh, i think not sleeping completely made justin sick. ji also. a lot of people not here today..our class was so empty. and so foreign.

but we still blasted music, and if we're unlucky some teacher comes in and scolds us. some teachers don't care though, they just walk past like nothing happens. it's the "i'm too cool to give a damn" attitude. love those.

the world.

love the way you laugh.