i'm not crazy, i'm just a little unwell.

you are awesome if you know what song that's from.

but then, yes, i am a bit sick. nose was killing me all the way since the morning. but should be better, because i am tumblr-ing! tumblr (and panadol) is the key!

everyone should get tumblr.

it's so amazing.

well, tomorrow's friday! so awesome.

today was okay i suppose. but long, very long though. sli wasn't that bad i suppose. sat with andreeeeeaaaa...that woman. she disabled my ipod! oh crap. somehow i can't get it to go away..

argh.

and i can't stay here long! there's loads of work to do. there's

chem prac

bio prac (do tmr?)

zuoye

suibi (do tmr)

physics (heck.)

english press thing (i'll do in msia.)

english journal

i don't know lah. i just know got a lot due on 7feb and i'm not around. shitz.

oh there's geog assignment too. hai wtf. i'm bringing homework back to msia. that's really screwed. lol i remember the last time i was doing the chem about ionisation energies in kl.

argh, mum. it won't work! apparently have to restore and i'll lose everything! all my apps noooooooooooo. andy, you die. tmr, you die.

you will all perish.

this is really dumb.

i shall go.

wish me luck. hopefully tmr will be better.

so devoid of emotion.

it's like i'm cut off from the world. inside my own head, everything's just mushy and cloudy. like i'm on drugs or something.

all my homework's done exactly halfway.

mum. i hate all this shit. why do people have do be that way? why do i hate them? because they're so much better than me? that's so screwed up, what kind of person am i?

sigh. i don't know what i want anymore.

actually, i do know. i want to turn time back.

and i want it to stop raining.

it's never anyone's fault, the problem is that we're all so different. how many times have i said this.

maybe this was just all wishful thinking.

two days on a winding road, and it's taken me to places that i didn't want to go.

we've all moved on, and everything will soon be over.

bad. bad. bad.

you might not want to read this.

sometimes i just freaking hate myself. i mean, i haven't done anything with my life. it's been 16 years and for what? i'm just here, spending my parents' money and failing at life and doing nothing. nothing. i can't do anything well. i can't play any sports well. i can't get people to listen to me, i can't even do something freaking simple. i can't even believe in myself to do things. i can't complete even my homework, everything's half done because i don't know how to do them. and i can't even do a bloody journal article dammit. i just end up ranting. it's like, i look at the questions there, and i go, what's a concept? what's a bloody issue, what will happen? i can't link things.

but mostly, i hate it that i'm lazy. i can't correct myself, even though i state about five thousand times that i hate myself for that. i'm so lazy that i can't even get myself to go for a -insert profanity here- run, to lose weight. and even if i do, i just eat it all back at the next meal. i can't even run a km without stopping, and i'm 83 kg so i'm going to die at NS. so for all of you people telling me i'm not fat, i suggest you don't. i know what i am, okay. if there's a huge chunk of fat at my stomach and my thighs, i'm fat. maybe i sleep too much. maybe it's because i can't even get myself to do things, i'd rather sit/lie somewhere, like now.

that's probably why things have got to this stage. look at what i have. i have so many things that i don't deserve. a good life. i can't even learn my guitar properly, for crying out loud. i'm just too lazy to practice. and when i do, i take like 2h to get through 4 lines and for what? i just forget it awaytt.

this is pointless.

sigh.

neefded to get all that out of my system. fingers are freaking tired.

oh yes, did i mention that i hate hackers? hackers, as in, people who can do everything well, know what to say at the right time, and they never do anything wrong? they're funny, they're good in studies, they don't have to care about anything, you know those people.

i want to escape. from these thoughts.

never mind, i blogged already.

it's tumblr morning! i love it when i manage to wake up early. then can use com without feeling guilty at all. actually, i woke at 6. bad dream, but, heck, it's over. again, i had that feeling where i was unsure of reality cos now both lights in the kitchen are screwed. we really need to replace them man. wtv, yesterday sucked. so i shall not talk about that and post pictures. long overdue switzerland pictures. they're freaking huge so i do screenshot..

wait for it. there's tons so give me a while! i think it'll take an hour xD

btw, that was mordor on top.

giant fork in vevey! so awesome. it's like in the sea, and freaking big.

mountains.

the long bridge in luzern.

this is...after we got off the mountain. i took it okay, so nice right! haha my camera skills still needs improvement, this isn't that nice actually. and too bright.

luzern riverbank.

as the ferry leaves for the grey havens.

bern! the river's partially frozen, this is taken from a bridge, very far up.

circle of lights. the full, hq image is on my tumblr. 6.6MB, crazy.

snow messages. jian de.

up in the mountains. wengen, the -26˚C place.

my bro, with the ferrari. in geneva.

(i don't know why it's underlined i can't get rid of it..)

we all know what that is.

geneva harbour. the epic fountain.

and, finally, the only half-decent picture of me i have. i should smile more. this is in the transport museum, in Montruex.

i don't know whether to put the captions after of before the pics! i wonder which one is better.

back to black. i think i'll go tumblr more now xD

seeya around. or not.

bring on tomorrow, world.

i'm ready. just take a leap of faith. like this guy :

actually he's just freaking insane, jumping into the cold ocean. for all he knows there are whales down there.

betrayal.

copying switzerland photos now. there's like 2k..so it's like a few gb. not bad haha.

today so tiring! for some reason. i reach home then i feel super tired and hungry! then after eating i'm so sleepy. balls. and the rain was epic. seriously, at clementi, it's like switzerland all over again. the wind literarily blows you backwards, while hitting you with tiny droplets of rain. should have taken a photo, but me phone died. it died right after i discovered it was 0% batt.

whatever. plan.

tonight.

-study for math

-fail at doing chem pre lab

tmr night

-something.

-study for chem quiz

-study for bio quiz

thur night

-chem pre lab

-media club treasure hunt prep (basically get shree to print everything.)

tmr night gg le. completely screwed. why 2 bio modules this sem! diediedie.

yay i have all the photos! scenery damn awesome. gonna up load to the canon competition thingy lol. help us win cameras!

goodbye.

carlotta.

don't know who's that. think it's some character in some book. can't remember which. but it's definitely not wuthering heights, that's for sure.

today was..neutral, i suppose. was sick for the first part, slept through chinese completely, i feel so damn bad man. but can't help it, i was like super unwell. then my nose started running, so i was wearing jacket when the fans weren't on. still super bad! argh. the flu's going around..

but it's better now. just now was awesome cos i got to take photos of the assembly. the flash is so giant, but okay lah. even though i was sweating like crap cos i was nevous i think. also it's super difficult to move around in formal! the shirt keeps coming out, and i can't risk that, i'm in front of the whole school!

then soccered, i got pissed at hema, then went home. spammed pes with dion. sweden is one of the strongest teams man. beat him 4-3 with germany though, last minute smash in de. but i suppose he wins cos he gave away 2 penalties..

whatever. no work tonight, so happy. apparently no phy tmr! so awesome. because jaesson (sp?) yeo's on course or sth. today also no phy. but bad i suppose, we're behind time.

byebye, i go tumblr.

kiss away the difference, i know you hate this one.

you know that feeling, inside you, that there's something you missed out. but no matter how hard you think, you can never find out what it is.

yes, that feeling. it seems like there's more work/stuff that i need to do. but then i can't really remember. so from now i shall just heck, and tumblr! and do this post of course.

i admire my bro. he's been on the com for like 2 whole days, watching videos about beyblade on youtube. but then he keeps giving me this BALLS attitude when i ask him if he has work. like completely ignoring me, or telling me not to talk. typical. and now he discovered he has work so he screams at me. yay, my fault!

he still needs to learn tingxie and spelling lol. and my mum's home in 90mins. die.

anyway, here's my tumblr.

foreverpin.tumblr.com

i'm lazy to pick themes, so it's just orange, which is nice. focus on the content more, it's awesome. oh yes if you have tumblr please tell me! so that i can follow you...i'm just following random people who i do not know at all now. they might even be bad people. or rocket scientists. that's kinda cool.

right, main agenda of this post. quiz!

it's ripped from fiona, who ripped it from someone, who ripped it from someone. yup (:

1. I wish I had more....

money! money's important. and kindness.

2. I wish people were....

more understanding, considerate, unselfish, happy !

less douchy, bitchy, violent, criticising, open-minded.

3. I wish I was ...

taylor swift.

4. I wish my friends...

will never be forgotten. and that they will never forget me. we'll have a gathering one day and i'll buy them all pizza :D

5. I wish for...

read my goal setting paper. it's all there. oh yes, and seasons in singapore!

6. If I had a million dollars I would....

buy some shoes :)

7. If I could fly I would....

try and trade it for something else. scared of heights!

8. I dream of a better....

tomorrow. that's so cliche xD

9. The rain reminds me of....

falling.

10. I fear....

many things. (i can't tell you cos if not you'll use it against me! that would be bad..)

11. Stormy nights are....

scary and exciting at the same time.

12. The sea is like....

blue.

13. Eyes are...

nice but we should all have different colours! here it's just black..

14. I cannot stand when....

everyone insists i am wrong, without looking at my side of the argument.

15. A song that reminds me of love is....

sparks fly - Taylor swift. lovely.

16. Love is....

happiness. but sometimes it hurts, it hurts really badly.

17. Hate is....

a passionate emotion.

18. Death is....

inevitable. but you will always live on, in the hearts of your loved ones.

19. Flowers are....

roses, tulips, violets, lilacs, and freesia.

20. If I could grow....

into a healthy person, that would be wonderful.

21. I would like....

some direction in my life.

22. I need more....

incentive to be hardworking. at everything.

23. I wish I had less....

fat.

24. I would like to give....

your mum!

25. Life is....

a playground. Make good use of it.

26. My mom is....

the most wonderful person in the world.

27. Poems are...

beautiful.

29. Life can be so....

-murphy's law- ish. whatever that can go wrong will go wrong. go figure.

30. Dreams are....

an insight to your subconscious. but then, i realised that if my subconscious wants me to be chased by angry dinosaurs before realising that i'm just a projection, something is seriously wrong with me.

just be happy.

feel the rain in your hair.

planning stuff is so tedious.

well, but, it feels good to be actually doing something, rather than sitting back and letting other people decide everything.

going to library later, hopefully there's my sister's keeper. -crosses fingers-

yessss i'm so happy villa beat man city and arsenal won! chelsea will win tonight as well!

confidence.

later.

you're a bad idea.

parents are in port dickson. it's so weird. but good, there's more free rein!

yesterday was fun haha. not bad. although the place was damn crammed. i did a lot of things! super productive. did physics, and then finished math. left with chem..junwei says it's easy so should be fine. then media, i'm in photo now. kinda sad though, i feel bad for leaving lee in video with hema. cos he's VP, he can't really leave. sorry! but it should be okay i suppose, i'll be going back to help them if they need it. and jordan should be joining, dion also. i wanna do coverage for SLI ! but it's so near...like 2 more weeks only.

soccer...is just balls sometimes. we must learn not to care too much about how the game is going and whether we get the ball or not! if we don't care that much, we'll be eternally happy, laughing at crap that happens. if not...the mood just dies. but my defence is awesome, haha. all playing cards outside the field, so that jookee can score.

(btw, that was happy sarcasm. like, it's sarcasm, but i'm happy saying it. so you shouldn't be offended. get it?)

need to go library soon, my books due le. and borrow some bloody photo books for friday, i can't believe this. the school has like zero, the librarian said all in NUS central library, that's just dumb.

tumblr is so much addictive than blogger, man. i just spent like 40mins there and i want to go back xP. later gonna make pineapple tarts!, and maybe bring my sis to tuition, and see how, i don't know if i have guitar or not.

typing on this keyboard is kinda tiring, it's quite small, so i have to like shrink my finger movements a little.

the witch-king of angmar.

killed by a woman and a hobbit. fail, man, fail.

slip of the tongue.

everybody dance now.

it's so cold in the mornings. the thing is, you feel the coldness even when it's not cold, when you're around certain people. i suppose most of it is just misunderstandings, but some people, you don't get why they act like that. i suppose it's okay, and i act badly sometimes too.

but still.

sigh. i really need my jacket. and proper msn. oh yes, speaking of msn, here's a typical hemanathan fail :

whatever, the picture's quite small, but just zoom in, you'll see why.

i was confused.

i had nothing to say and i get lost in the nothingness inside of me

i was confused

and blah blah blah i fail.

yes i'm racing the song. still type quite slowly. i think it's the ultra flat keyboard xP

soccer's bad sometimes. bad feelings. we should play netball. it's better. also because i can score a lot a lot more...soccer each match there's like damn few goals. of course, when that cheeseng is around it's impossible, he saves everything! gay.

of course, before that we were writing that dream compo. I did inception style, and talked about that scary dream. and beside me you have junwei trying to figure out how to kill off the evil teacher and justin spamming like crazy. he did the thing on some blank paper, then copy over. crazy, man. that's at least 1.2k + words. chinese.

met them on the train just now, cg and justin. but they somehow dissappeared. then pes-ed all the way back with dion, super epic! my bordeaux beat his lille 5-2, his keeper failed, we named him " dumb shit", haha.

life is meaningful. if you do it right.

gosh i hate da vinci. stupid name, i agree with jordan. come on, don't name a research programme after a guy. it's a programme, call it something unique, like peaches! peaches are awesome.

for some reason, it's far easier to miss an open goal then one with someone between the sticks.

oh i love this one. super cool. fabregas 袖手旁观, and van persie doing the chee thing.

adieu.

sorry for leaving.

oops. haven't been here for like forever. but i now have a tumblr! new passion xDD. it's so fun! but then i'm kinda antisocial, only follow 3 people. tell me your tumblr so i can follow! i hardly know anyone who uses it, but it's damn nice.

but, i shall attempt to give blogger my attention for now. oh yes we got a new com! my dad bought the new imac. well, another new one's probably gonna come out like next week, and suan us all, but who cares. 21 inch widescreen man, 4GB ram, 500GB hard drive, 3.06GHz i3 core. it's so...new. oh yes i have pictures. this is like the base model, so it's the cheapest, but who cares. so awesome!

pics not very good, taken by my phone. but can la. beggars can't be choosers...

(damn they're taking forever.)

yay imac brilliance.

bluetooth mouse! even the keyboard is bluetooth. no wires, but electricity bill go up xP

tumblr!

oh yes, if you have tumblr tell me! school's just hectic now, so many projects, so many lessons, i don't understand physics, and it's so stressful. so little breaks! and i fall asleep damn easily in lessons, i don't bother listening, just tumblr under the table xP

tmr's just another day i suppose. well, there's zuowen in chinese..we're screwed. completely.

you know that feeling when someone you truly love leaves your life. they go, sorry for leaving, but i have no choice. actually, they do have a choice. but don't get yourself upset over these people. move on. learn to let go, and livelaughlove, enjoy life.

too bad food doesn't start with l.

207.

you guys better tag, or else it's

and i'm not posting anymore.

this is blue, somehow. i don't like blue when it's the blue as in not happy. it's not good, especially having hundreds of thoughts pouring through your head, and you have mood swings, and you hate everyone for everything. see, now i even hate yahoo. they want to delete my account!? wtf, seriously. i use that account for everything, if it dies i'm completely screwed. screw them, and screw this blue, why the heck is it even blue. i want black.

now i have black. wth is this crap. you're not allowed to just delete people's accounts. this is stupid. well, tmr will be crap i suppose. 2h chem...i reckon i'll fall asleep. and i don't want to go backstage, it's so damn hot there.

if i stop blogging it'll be my loss actually, not yours. i think it gets like 5 views per day...

later.

christmas.

yay for unwell. by matchbox twenty. it's so...retro.

yes, so i came home early, ran a few rounds, sorted my bag, on com for a bit, and it's only 6! amazing. also slept on the train, nice. my stamina is still lousy, after like 1.6km i'm completely dead le. and econs is useless, turns out we need to give another hour because there's 1 hour lecture 1 hour tutorial (like discussion), so it's just 2-3, then after that the extra 1 hour can be anywhere. hopefully we can get the 3-4 slot, if not can't, cos our timetable's super packed le. thank goodness no DV tmr, so happy! play soccer ba. maybe i should start using my left foot more, i think the shooting is killing my right knee. and i should play defense more, i'm useless in attacking, and up front it's very selfish. selfish sucks. sorry jen. stole the ball from him just now xP

well, tmr should be okay, i suppose. no need for calculator, but we somehow polished off all of the oreos and wang wang(s) we won from the orientation thing. so we're freaking out of food. remind me to go to class tmr morning...that's it.

i think that's it. actually, i am kinda starving because i forgot to have lunch, and there's jap curry cooking in the kitchen. so yes, i actually want to leap up and run all the way there and eat everything. food is awesome. like during english, we were deviating a lot. because the passage said that after some guy got arrested, his books were selling like hotcakes, then jordan points out the word "hotcakes", and makes me hungry. then, i remember waffles, because it was like 12.45, macs don't do breakfast delivery le, and then it's a tuesday, so at gelare, waffles are half priced! nearly went to eat, thank goodness the craving disappeared.

this is a bad post, i'm off. my words don't flow.

kiss him on the sidewalk.

this year will be busy. especially as i took econs. but geog seems fun, talking about population and money and all that crap. and uno! so epic. we always gang hema, stack the +2 and the +4, then he reverse we reverse back. but in the end he somehow never loses..

i need chinese tuition...gonna die for the hmt paper man. completely screwed. well, at least that's my mum's opinion, and she's willing to spend a lot a lot of money to get me tuition. here we go again...

but i should really have tuition. i feel bad not having tuition. and i wish people would just freaking reply my smses. seriously, is it that hard? i mean, we need to brainstorm ideas on chem, and it's completely not my fault that my msn's dead. well, maybe it is. okay, half. but still.

oh yes, i finished doing up the letter to excuse me from school on 7 feb. should be okay, i hope. wait a minute teachers read this right? they stalk all our blogs apparently. okay, so, TO ALL TEACHERS, I WILL NOT BE IN SCHOOL ON 7 FEB, WHICH IS A MONDAY, SO YOU CAN GIVE MY STUFF TO JORDAN. GOT THAT?

good.

yay i'm still 2nd in bejeweled. can't believe it. i still can't decide who to room with. everyone's like taken, lol. i'll probably end up with hema la..sheesh. or else dion ba, play pes all day. it's damn fun haha. time passes damn quickly. my 4% battery lasted from like commonwealth to simei, sony erricsson is pro...

other than the fact that the charging connecting thingy is utterly useless, and will start to malfunction after like 2 months. other than that it's fine.

okay, plan for this year. err don't soccer excessively, don't talk in class so much, and...ya i guess that's about it. oh yes and make the itouch last until at least september so i can get a new one! and not to be a douche. but the lockers at our classroom sucks la, most of them are like half broken.

oh yes people, good luck with CCA transfers. it took me a year to get mine approved, but whatever, i did it. so just keep trying, even though you'll probably never get into soccer and badminton or whatever, but try anyway. it doesn't matter if you try for a lost cause and fail, at least you tried.

gosh that sounds sarcastic.

i need to go, pack bag, and curse berbatov in my sleep. diver. i pity liverpool, i really do. nevermind, man utd sure lose to southampton de, i have faith.

we all need someone special in our lives, no matter how much we think we don't.

so. damn. sleepy.

it's 1 now...my ipod's acting all weird and nothing happened even though i changed the account. that's really weird. oh well. i think i'm going to get more food and then fall asleep, then going to meet fiona to go to dion's house. with his cousins. it'll be super awkward la. they better not play mahjong, i'll be left out...it looks as if it's going to rain. it rained for like 1 min just now then stopped. i think i'll just go there and eat all his food xP

yay the download finished. i mediafired speak now...illegal again. but compared to others, i'm like super unilegal already, i only dl like 4 songs a month or sth? on average. no one cares anyway, unless they catch you, then you're mega screwed. i think it's like 500k fine and prison. oh well, if they show up at the door, i'll probably chuck my whole com out of the window. destroy evidence. haha. they can't arrest me for illegal downloads when i don't even have a com..

me dad's home. he always spends a lot of time in the carpark doing up his car de haha..it's a passion i suppose. and that's all you need in the world.

bye, i need to bejewel, to keep my #1 highscore! amazing, this is the first time i've kept it for 2 days. but only 489k, so it's bound to go down soon...in fact it's probably already down, with people like candice and nikki around...

nooooooo i'm second now candice beat me @!#!@#$@!$2.

nevermind, 2nd still good. taylor swift is very nice. and she's pretty too haha. but you can't really describe her...she's just, taylor swift.

isn't everyone..

i mean, everyone is special. they're themselves. you can't really use another person, or an adjective to describe someone. you actually have to invent a new word to do that, and that word ends up being that person's name. like chee is just chee-y, or cheesy. cheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. haha mega spam.

and gandalf rides for minas tirith.

let's make tumblr next saturday, it's a date. or not.

at least my blogger pw's not failing me ;D

sleep, is the most important. always.

today's post shall be about emotions. let's start.

so first was the morning. i was happy because i had time to sleep. woke up at about 8, then i didn't notice the mega headache brewing inside my head...and then there was that epic jam which caused me to miss chem. haha first lesson of the year and i miss it, epic. late by about 55 minutes lol, by the time i get there it was like 1040 le xD. and there were actually still people arriving after that, so cool. well, the 2h inside the car i was kinda pissed but then got happier and started smiling when i realised i was gonna miss chem. sometimes, it's amazingly easy to turn a supposed "bad thing" into something good. like that man with the horse, i forgot the 成语 le, the guy's completely opposite, but he's right in the end, he gets to laugh at the villagers. so awesome. like cheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. too bad i still can't get his phone to charge. that's like the only bad thing about sony phones, the connecting port/charger sucks.

that is a massive chunk.

oh yes, then the headache lasted till soccer..at the nb court. then miraculously gone! the game was epic of course, because there's zheyuan and leon..but i sucked as usual. actually, i sucked in all of the games today..the on and off headache also super annoying. the second game we just kept assisting (the other team) though. but then math afterwards was nice also, didn't really do much. wang haibin is pro, he has freaking epic analogies that makes everyone laugh..then at the end he just says, "bye!" then just asks us to leave..super funny. most math teachers are, i suppose.

well, then media was utter rubbish, cos we changed for completely nothing. well, at least we sort of begged roslyn to get us into photo, and we're doing planning for icebreakers. i'm thinking we get them to chase hema around the school or something xD

the end was sad actually. i was mostly confused..and pissed at myself. it's like, i keep doing everything wrongly, i say the wrong things, and the things i say hurt people. it's difficult to control myself. that's why i didn't turn around and stay. well, now i'm happy. i got the module i wanted, i got the rest, and most importantly, i got dinner! sometimes, it's better if a certain person is absent. that's how i feel. amazingly, hema didn't even bug me once during the bus ride (he was talking to william duh). he said i looked "nonchalant", that means bored and uncaring right...

aiya, wtheck, i need to do so many things. i'm lazy to go running. i left my chem notes under my table -facepalm-...my nus webmail and msn pw doesn't work, i need to adapt to school life, need to lose weight. but what the heck. everything's gonna be okay, and if it's not, we'll take it from there and sort it out. one by one.

i suppose i'm off then, to get some sleep. can't be bothered to feel miserable anymore, so i shall feel happy!

(please tag. we must outnumber the bots. or the human race will be no more.)

in the end, food is still the most important.

forgotten dream.

dreaming is scary to me now. i don't want to dream, it's bad. you may get good or bad dreams, but the scary part is the part about reality. i slept at 9, then woke up at midnight, couldn't sleep until like 1.40, then i had the dream in a dream thingy, and then i woke up for real and freaked out..and checked the time. it was 1.41. super scary.

whatever, i've been saying too much about that already. let's hope it doesn't happen again..

took me a while to get back even though got car cos first it was pouring like crap (shoes got wet urgh), and then there was a massive jam everywhere, and then we were out of petrol, then jam again..stupid la. lotsa things to do tonight, it's crazy. even though no hw. imagine when we start getting that..

1. read soccer news

2. bejeweled

3. reset nus webmail pw (so i can get into the school network xD)

4. check module descriptions again..

5. repack bag

6. err..decide what to wear?

i know 1 and 2 are actually more of enjoyment, but still, they count. and for the modules, i think i'm taking econs. people, don't fight with me okay. you know you want to take the chem thing. don't fight with me so i can get the slot i want. be nice..

and i know you think 6 is a straight on decision, it doesn't need to be there. well, it does to me. my house tee's freaking small and uncomfy, but i reckon we need it for house games and probably the campfire. so i haven't decided. and, also havent settled the problem for transportation home tmr..i think my dad's working late. hai. if i train home i think i'll reach at 11 +

heck, that was so close to 1,000,000 coins. but then they give me 2,500 instead..scammers. unfair la. if 2 match then so little, 3 match so much!

whatever, it's time to do all my stuff! haha, cya.

oh yes i love mass dance, it's so...makes you hyper. even though i can never get it right. especially with jookee in front of you, shouting, " High School Musical!" at the end, so epic. and the random moments of zha between songs, so awesome. haha i don't care that i look dumb, can jump around can le!

just haven't met you yet.

two hundred.

wow. that was fast. and i started in july..that means 200 posts over about half a year.

well, probably slower than fiona. that woman epic spam de, sometimes 3-4 posts in a day.

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i think i was an idiot today.

spent all the time getting pissed at stuff, because we were just sitting there stoning and not doing anything for most of the day./ even mass dance was okay, it's fun to dance, to move to music, it's way better than doing nothing. it's so stupid la, why do we have to have orientation? 3 days is so damn much, 2 days enough le la. it's probably gonna rain on campfire night, so everything will screw up. always like that de.

actually it was only the end that was crappy..house meeting was fun, damn epic. i wanted them to do "the wave", and then me and lee kept laughing. imagine you're sitting in the upper audi, then suddenly the giant doors in front of you open, and then this sea of people sitting there just keep doing the wave, continuously, for 2h. haha i think you'll go mad.

tmr gonna get wet i think. whatever, i don't have any dark coloured school based tee. except the media one. which is quite warm. so i'll just wear polo. and my house tee too small, so i think i'll wear polo for all 3 days. sadded.

need more sleep. i was like crazily sleep deprived during the theatrette lecture, seriously, my head was starting to spin. but it sucked lar, and must stay awake no matter what...stupid. and they have 4 deputy principals now. 4! seriously, what do they do? actually i don't even know what principals do in the first place, so forget it. haha and it's cool to be a doctor, or have a doctorate. all the teachers all mr and ms...then your name has a Dr. in front! so cool. makes you look pro..it's all about image..stupid/

next matches : chelsea vs wolves, man utd vs stoke, arsenal vs man city. haha arsenal will crush them. awesome.

i'm sorry, i was a bad person today. but i promise, i'll be better tmr.

oliphants xD

school tomorrow.

so tired now, dunno why. well, tmr's gonna be worse. until 6 leh! crazy shit..

i can't believe we still have orientation. house stuff apparently. well, there better be free food or something.

haha doctor who's still awesome. i've gotten over the addiction though..now what to read during class?! maybe i'll read fringe wiki again..haha. i can't believe we're year 4's now. time really passes fast.

predict the future. or not.

set me free.

sorry, haven't been posting much because i was

1. tired

2. lazy

3. no inspiration

4. drowning in low self esteem.

so, went out with my parents today to run errands and buy my bed..then we went ikea. for the first part i just slept like 1.5h in the car while they went to pay bills and stuff, then to courts, where we searched high and low for beds..actually there were just too many to choose from. and then they were asking me which one was more comfy, and i was like thinking : " i don't know, they all seem damn comfortable to me, and sleepable. come on, i just woke up from a nice nap...and i want to sleep more. "

see, sleep is so awesome.

want to watch soccer..i haven't experienced that since forever. it's just an epic need, an addiction. better than drugs though, at least it doesn't kill your health. i wonder what we're doing tmr..

the essentials of life.

get a job and earn enough money to support yourself.

know how to drive well

enjoy food.

have your own bed.

be happy.

i sound stupid..it's just not me, isn't it. something's missing. but it is true, i always sound stupid.