rising from the ground.

how come everyone around me seems to be working..
daryl lee. i want to know how much you are paid.

dammit why am i not in singapore now...oh well i'm going to help my aunt clear out her office tmr..5RM per hour, what to do..

just finish getting lightroom i am going to swear now. and i can't even post pictures on tumblr because there's something wrong with the thing..it keeps saying error uploading photo..

so yes, i hope i can accomplish something tmr.
i pledge to work june..

pledges fail.
this should be a happy post, actually. thank you for still believing that i will post, even after i abandoned this blog for a while. i have suddenly realised that posting improves my mood..even though it's just like me talking to no one.

yeah, i could go give my aunt and uncle swimming lessons..that would pay well. but they won't pay.

i am just discussing unrealistic possiblities here.

end.

bloomin' problems.

last night, i dreamt that i was richard hammond. and that i was driving a fiat 500C abarth around lucca, on a scavanger hunt to find gold.

that's how crazy i've become.

or maybe it's my subconscious.

anyway, i'm here in malaysia now. or to be more specific, kuching, sarawak, east malaysia..

it's what i usually do for the holidays. come back and scream and eat food and be pissed that the coms don't work.

we moved the old imac here last year, so now i've got a mac to use. brought software over but unfortunately, the hard drive i used doesn't work no matter how i smash it, so i'm annoyed. and probably gonna buy 60D, the 40D's noise control is quite bad..and because my dad wants me to spend his money and then wants me to pay him back..

actually i think he just wants to use it -.-

and apparently my shots from 2 weeks ago are quite bad. really must practise my AF..

right, going for lunch now. i will see you later.

-back from lunch-

well, it was sort of breakfast. very sleepy now..but the beds aren't comfy lol i'm complaining about everything. just feel a bit left out..and loss of confidence in my photography because someone tells me that my photos from 2 weeks ago are all blur.

right, i'm going to use lightroom now..goodnight, people.

not letting the setbacks get to you.

having a few problems with the AF on my 40D..it can't be the lens, since i've used it on jiamin's camera to take many pictures..

and also, having a few problems with bokeh. took a lot today, but the problem that i don't like to take people still persists lol. sleepy..

today was a long story. don't really feel like going into it..but the upshot of it was that i went out for a oily lunch and then came back home and crashed because my brother got bitten by a red ant on bus 21.

must sort photos by tonight..because i'm working saturday and sunday, and then flying off on monday. good news, i can finally ditch the battery grip once i arrive in malaysia. and i can get my long-awaited photos. i hope he hasn't deleted anything. it's like people destroying your work.

and now everyone's back from OBS. just wait for everything to start up..and me to fly off. well, at least there will be better lenses and more lenses to use in malaysia..i liked the sigma 17-70mm. will try out the 1.8 50mm also haha

right, this has been mostly a camera post. i am now going downstairs to practice my bokeh with the street lights and the traffic lights. good day.

hello, world.

i have just gotten back from watching this movie :

it's a bit small, but you get the idea.

went with jingmin and wenxi since we didn't get to watch on monday because of someone..ahem.

what a woman. it's quite a good show, but a little..obscene. well, it's a different sort of obscene then the normal kind..but i liked the ending. i shan't spoil it for you here hahaha

not that anyone reads this anymore.

and oh yes, old phones have better batteries.

well, actually they don't. it's just that in smartphones there's about 1023981207 processes going on at once which uses up the battery super fast. getting iPhone soon though..this phone is dying.

going out again tmr, to go eat lunch and pool/bowl. i must go out and use up these 5 days before i go to work on the weekends and then fly off to malaysia on monday. at least i've got jiamin's 18-55mm, so i can survive until i get my 18-135. thank you.

still kinda annoyed by the low light performance on my camera though. and the noise control isn't that bad..i will use this until the 70D is released haha.

and then go work some more and buy one. it's always about money, huh.

sometimes it doesn't have to be about money. look at the clouds. you can just lie on the field and admire them, so free, so floating.

and then you'll end up like the guy in that photo i took.

it's getting late. well, it's actually 1.35 now. and i lied. i didn't get back at 1.30..i got back 2 hours ago. just that i've been spamming pes again.

fingers are tired. this must be the fastest post i've ever done. well, not fastest. highest word:time ratio.

i really am going crazy. but twirls are still cool.

also, yahoo says that "password" is a horrible password. take that, bouncer.

was trying to learn how to use photoshop just now to try and add words to bokeh. but then i gave up and ran out of time because i got distracted by the swedish book. heh.

the girl with the dragon tattoo

the girl who played with fire

the girl who kicked the hornet's nest.

problem is, i'm reading the last book first..

oh well, off to edit photos and then sleep. goodnight.

you just walked past me, like i wasn't there.

you know, i feel like blogging.

even though i haven't for so long.

i'll cite some reasons below.

1. lazy

2. can't be bothered

3. lazy

set fire, to the rain.

watch it burn, like no one's listening.

and then sit back, and watch the ship crash into the iceberg.

the titanic falls.

been feeling sad, as usual. because i have weird dreams which scare myself and give me weird thoughts. it's like my subconscious is coming out, and i'm scared of my subconscious. have you ever felt that?

mainly, it's because i'm repressing my feelings.

and i hate editing, when there's like 5000 photos. just need to buy my 18-135 now..then it'll be good. that lens looks good.

well, like the hacker lens we used today. which jiamin has a fetish for.

okay, too much information.

he also has a fetish for dion.

oh goodness, i have no idea who reads this.

anyway, convocation today. nothing much for me, but i somehow managed to screw up by leaving the thing in MF and not noticing -.- seriously, what is wrong with me.

and then just ate awesome food and sat in the hall until like 8 waiting for jiamin's parents to come. and trained home watching top gear.

and now i'm listening to a spanish song.

but it is difficult to imagine graduation. it'll be so emotional. it's correct, time flies.

and i don't want to go.

no. nonononono tumblr don't screw up i'm trying to upload photos!

for the tumblrsphere to enjoy.

(ulterior motive : try to gain followers)

i wonder, is there any limit you can go to when naming your child? i will name mine enzo. or maybe even better, zonda.

ferrari's are just pure brilliance. and zonda's are cool as well, but expensive as hell and just horrendously impractical.

actually all supercars are impractical. porsche 911 all the way :D

go to bed, pin.

no.

seriously, go to bed because you're going to play badminton tmr in the morning so you'll die.

no. i want to play pes and also upload my photos to tumblr and talk to rong.

go to bed, you moron.

no, this song is nice.

apparently someone stole ji's clothes. does that happen in hostel? holyheck, we're screwed. they are not stealing my clothes.

i need new clothes.

very urgently. and i'm supposed to plan an outing for friday but unfortunately i can't be bothered to care until tmr because my phone keeps screwing up and the others can't decide. shall we just heck the money and go 313..i'm tired of arguing

but that's like 3 out of 5 days of heavy eating.

i hate safari, it just reloads my tabs without any warning. anyway, here's an album link to some nice shots taken on friday.

https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.2690986799118.2148011.1389939266&type=1

you should be able to view it, if you're my friend. there should be more albums this holiday because i now have a camera and i have jiamin's 18-55 which is NOT sexy.

goodnight, world. i will click publish post before safari decides to be a cow again.

many happy returns.

and silence would fall.

okay, i must really start posting again. can let all all the barrage of emotions.

this week has been..interesting. new experience of post-exam week. it's been different, but more fun and enriching, in a way.

my email won't work..so i missed the email about zoo..so i still don't have a source of income.

oh well.

life is full of ups and downs. no, it is full of cows.

big, fat, orange cows. with milk bottle tops for brake discs.

right. jiamin, you better remember.

spent the entire morning in school with him. and most of the time was spent sleeping in the audi. which was quite comfy actually, given that there wasn't really any neck cramp of anything afterwards..or maybe it's just the position.

anyway, trained back home and met my mum and grandma for dinner, and then we went to ntuc..and i spent the whole time trying to power slide the trolley. when i say power slide, i mean "power slide"..it has no power.

my mum's student is playing kiss the rain! so beautiful..

anyway, yahoo mail isn't working..and blogger didn't save the end of my post when i've typed it already. why why why does this have to happen?

oh never mind. i'll get over it..

wait for my dad to get back first. and waiting for my lens to arrive from japan..

things never go the way you want them to..which is just the basis of life, plainly. but i guess i'll rise to the challenge.

why am i so optimistic. scary.

goodnight, i'm off to send threatening pies to yahoo and kick some balls.

To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering one must not love. But then one suffers from not loving. Therefore to love is to suffer, not to love is to suffer. To suffer is to suffer. To be happy is to love. To be happy then is to suffer. But suffering makes one unhappy. Therefore, to be unhappy one must love, or love to suffer, or suffer from too much happiness. I hope you’re getting this down.

—	Woody Allen

all good things have to come to an end someday.

but that doesn't have to be bad. it opens up new opportunities, new avenues for better things to start. and speaking of that, i'm hoping this is my last ever chinese exam.

i don't exactly hate chinese, but it's just so frustrating sometimes when you can't do anything. it's interesting learning about all the definitions and stuff. oh well, just had my last tuition session..she gave me chocolate, and told me to eat before the exam lol. haha and my mum wants to give me 鸡精. which i don't like.

went out just now after chinese script checking (which was so plain annoying that even recounting it will get me pissed) with weiren, jookee, lee, fiona, loo, jiamin and alice wong to city hall. we were basically mostly walking around deciding where to eat, then we went into mos burger, and went out again. ended up at swensens..ah i'll just not spend tmr, balance out xP

jookee decided to troll the waitress.

joo kee : Hi, what is this?

waitress : it's ice water.

joo kee: how come there isn't any ice?

it's like @!#@!#!@# mean but at the same time super hilarious. but i guess she knew he was just being an idiot for the heck of it...no wonder he likes restaurants.

and then fiona was counting the number of -ahems- she could find..in the end we just took it up as a sport, and we saw like at least 10 of them on the way to the mrt, and there were like 15-20 of them there in a group! you should have come with us haha..

all the excitement.

oh well, quiz time. i'm very worried about the exam and especially, getting back all the papers tmr. but worrying doesn't help..

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A Very Special Quiz (not really, no)

Are you wearing a hat?
No.

Bottled water: yes or no?
Yes...why not? it's portable water xD

Do you have a crush on someone right now?
No. Well, maybe yes. I don't really know. But I try not to. I shut myself off, for various reasons. you can guess why.

What kind of laptop do you have?
one that doesn't exist.

Do you prefer writing with pen or pencil?
well, it depends. pen is smoother, but pencil is better because it's neater as you don't have to correction tape/cancel it off. definitely pencil during math or chinese though..there's a lot of mistakes in those.

Who was the last text message in your phone?
shi jer. you should know him hahaha.

Whats your favorite season?
winter. it's cold and there's snow :D

Does your best friend have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
i don't have a best friend...so they don't have a boyfriend or girlfriend! problem solved :D

Do you like them?
right.

Favorite radio station?
no idea..anything with nice music. whatever adrian's listening to at that time haha.

Type your name into Google, whats the first thing that comes up?

Whats your favorite song at the moment?
Every Breath by Boyce Avenue :D

Coke or Pepsi?
pepsi. it has more style. coke's just strong.

Favorite subject in school?
Chemistry!

Last concert?
I don't go to concerts..sadly.

Next concert?
refer to above.

Last magazine you bought?
no...no.

Last book you read?
probably the chem textbook..geez. that's bad.

Do you prefer cats or dogs?
Dogs...apparently cats are disloyal and will kill you.

Is there someone you want to punch right now?
well, there was about ten hours ago..

Favorite sports team?
well, f1 it would be ferrari, and soccer it would be chelsea.

State you most want to visit?
i'm assuming that means U.S. state..that would be california.

part 2 coming soon...thanks fiona for the quiz but it's super long xP

good luck for tomorrow! we will conquer the last one and make sure it is the last time.

the doctor is back.

well, no. he's back in christmas. but still.

haven't been blogging much (at all) for the past few days (week). but now, exams are over! yes.

somehow, there's not much kick. i feel like i didn't study much for this round of exams and yet it didn't go that badly.

well, except for ppv..

but let's change the subject :D

been spamming top gear. that's all i've been doing today. other than sleeping and eating and playing com (a lot) and...tumblr!

let the addiction rebegin.

there was this point where i was really addicted to it, and then i felt i didn't love it as much because it got kinda dry, and then it reignited.

i think that applies to all things. i mean, really, from my past experiences most things i do as a hobby start off very high, and then there's this period where i abandon them, and then after a few years/months i pick it up and start over. and i'm constantly amazed at how amazed and passionate about it back then.

people change.

just like custard grows old.

anyway, o levels left. and then flying off for a wedding..i'm still bummed that i can't go class chalet..so sad why do they have to have it on that week ahhh burn burn burn do you seriously have to fly back once school ends why why why

see, selfish me.

so, apart from dc arp interview from tuesday, i basically have tuition for like every single day now. it's going to cost my parents a lot of money..but let's just get it over with and pass (hopefully score well) for the last chinese exam of my life (hopefully) and then focus on getting a job.

pursuance of photography. still

1. no money

2. spoilt for choice

but i shouldn't have choice if there's no money.

okay i talk too much..all words and no action.

my next action will probably to move 2 feet and fall into my bed.

which is a good action.

goodnight, everybody.

sometimes, you just want someone to listen but you don't have the courage to initiate a conversation. so you keep it all inside, and it just eats away at you, slowly but surely.