okay, i give up on math. and now there's drums, and indian music. wtf? i thought they're supposed to be malays. i wish i had a sonic screwdriver. i'd ruin their amplifiers and send their wires going fxzzzzzzzzzzzz-kaboom!

we just have to soldier on...can't believe it's spelt that way. by how it's pronounced, you'd think there's a g in it.

we're going to the end of the universe.

well, my "studying"'s going to pieces. there's like two malay weddings downstairs now. and you know what that means. well, if you live in hdbs you will. it's just mega epic blasting of music/drums the entire day. at least it isn't at night...then can't sleep zz.

also, i'm not concentrating at all. math sucks, i think the only part i know well is the inequalities number line part. and integration and binomial super fail, everything i do is wrong! hai, so confusing.

yes, i know. you're wondering : why are you even studying math?. i know, it's the last paper. still, i'm worried. actually, i shouldn't be....the CA's confirm A de..everything upgraded. but i can't bring myself to study chem again. it's like so boring le! and physics i feel confident...but i know i'm overconfident.

i shouldn't be overconfident, it's not right. it's like, arrogant..but no, they are too different things. you can be overconfident yet very humble, because your original confidence is like 10%. no, you don't know what i'm talking about.

seriously, their singing sounds like some cowishwoman spiralling random puffs of vocals out. like, wind. should have gone out, stay at home also do nothing de. i like my mum's attitude, she's like, fail then fail lor, not the end of the world. she heck care de.

i think my dad also can't be bothered le, cos i told him i study chem a lot le, then he's like heck also. he says i should just go work for an energy resource company and specialise in chem, then i'm "set for life". big words.

time to go...study geog? maybe. maybe.

well, at least chelsea won :)

it's over.

no, it's not over. it just seems like it's over. i think i'm gonna sleep early, then maximise my energy for tmr. nice time to sleep now. bye.

it's the journey that makes us all want to give up, but it's actually more than worth it in the end.

350k and i'm second now. but it won't last. well, it's certainly good enough for me.

need to stop slacking..i just slept the morning away. bad, bad and very bad. and my holidays are super packed already, mum wants to go back to msia and also to somewhere else...so my only free week will probably be like christmas week.

need. to .study.

okay, today's phy and geog, then tmr i guess i'll attempt to study chinese. i think i need a haircut, mum just mentioned it...hai.

and there's an O level briefing after bio...well, at least it'll be nice to sit somewhere and rest. 445 in hall..come to think of it, i don't know where the exams are.

so screwed for everything. especially geog, math, chinese, english...etc.etc.etc.

goodbye, need to study. i'm really slacking a lot, hope it works out fine.

face the music/.

it just, exploded.

spent the afternoon slacking, not good at all. shall plan my itinary? wtheck i can't spell it.

tmr : math and geog.

thursday : bio...and chinese maybe?

ahh i'm screwed. completely not confident for anything. math and chinese are the worse, i think i'm gonna die. well, i'm probably gonna die for most of the papers anw. then english and chinese the CA's super low already...

i don't really like music that much now...that's just sad.

should i take econs? maybe i will, it sounds interesting. but i heard that you die when you go into the later years. all the people i know all fail econs de..scary. it's like chinese lol. but geog's really...bad.

nothing's ever completely forgotten. if something can be remembered, it can come back.

the theory of relativity.

actually, i dunno what to say...it all died again. can't believe i'm on com.

needa go study math, bye.

slacking/insanity.

no motivation to study ahh. this is really bad. last sem i studied and i screwed up...this sem i sorta feel more confident (except for geog) but somehow i still think i'm gonna die cos i'm not studying.

need, to study.

okay my words just died. let's start from the beginning shall we?

geog was....slackish and not so slackish also. she just told us what the questions were on, that's the good thing about humans. the bad thing about geog is that most of the time you can't actually do the question. or if you can do you actually think you can do and your point is wrong. and 5 questions 2h only...can die. they should give us the 2.5h for geog instead of chem. now that's a thought.

math's boring, rather. i can only do like 30% of the questions i realised, gg le. then png go consultation i just go soccer, i'm lazy..hai. not good. today's soccer was good, and bad. the first one was good, but then again mid-day soccer's always nice, mostly laughing at zheyuan's epicness. clean sheet yay. but the afternoon one was just a waste of time, was at fault for like 3 goals, then sprain 4th finger somemore. hopefully it recovers, i need to write to study!

ok, then it's chem. super long post for today. to make up for the midweek hiatus cos i banned myself from com. shall do that again over the weekend. it does increase productivity. slightly.

chem was awesome, kong gave us mamee...then we were like arguing over random crap, it's damn fun. then i discovered i forgot to bring any chem stuff, except the stuff in my file which was in my locker.

epic elaboration fail. i feel like a douche. then chinese is basically just spam filing and laughing at cheh's expression when we do the pointing^^. and then watching junwei do basically nothing, and go toilet to eat my mamee. typical.

soccer afterwards was tiring...just not right. and the haze! wth is wrong with the sky. we just play, heck le. we were saying hopefully it hits 200, then cancel exams hahaha. kong said it's possible. well, probably not, but it's expected to persist cos indonesia is giant and singapore is tiny.

burn, lousy internet. yes i'm slacking now and watching dw, again. you should get some sleep.

ahh my sprained finger :(

another blatant afterthought.

problems are popping up all over the place. and feeling ever so dissatisfied with myself.

i think i'm gonna decommision my itouch. what do you think? i'll wipe like 80% of the games off.

school tmr. formal with a snoffy tie. i wonder if it'll be classroom. well, in office either ways which is good. but i really want to sleep. after doing like nothing all weekend.

don't you realise? today's 17th. tmr will be 18th. exams are 29th. that's less than two weeks.

89th minute and liverpool 2-0 down against everton. sad.

demat circuit.

i said i'd post a few minutes ago because i was feeling happy. then all the feeling suddenly drained out of me.

friday was bad. sun was terrible spammage, then soccer was rubbish. too many people nowadays. i mean, some of the people who join are nice and random, but i prefer the old gang. let's start netballing again. it's more epic and un-pissing. to me. actually in soccer i just get mad at hema.

there should be cca. hai next year i'm just gonna fill my time with doing blah and blah.

right now parents are out, running errands (aarrons.) and they just picked my sis from tuition. they're outside the room now, and ooh my sis is home!

spent the whole day (trying) to mug phy. in the end i just did thermody. after extensive reading, i kinda understand le. but havent done the entropy + efficiency part behind. left with that. and i finished the mastering phy thing...that's what made me happy for like 20s just now and inspired this post. i can't concentrate, i end up studying 30% of the time, walking around 20% of the time, eating 15% of the time, and the rest is reading and reading internet on my itouch, since i forced myself away from com.

i'm worried about my gum. my left side, bottom. it kinda hurts but it's more of constricting whenever i move my mouth in a certain way. and it comes and goes, which is a good sign i suppose? hopefully it's not that serious.

gosh my typing is loud. it's definitely the keyboard. this one is old and decrepit. wtv that means...it sounds cool.

they are now doing.....sit ups. yeah. which i fail at cos of the fats in my stomach. which doesn't seem to go away no matter how much i exercise. i must diet.

kidding, i could never do that.

well, it's goodbye i think. well, sometimes, physics lessons can be awesome.

Ms Lim : So, Adrian, do you understand what the question wants?

Adrian : The question wants the answer.

haha epicness.

hello!

is there cca tmr? i dunno which shirt to bring...polo or media. heh.

epic physics consultation attempt with pek fail again. heck, tmr just ask lim la, i rly can't be bothered le. just did a journal, the last one, on some bball game where they fight (again). seriously, it's easy to understand why they fight.

screwed for physics. the only topic i actually get is the last one, because it's so fresh. tonight's study for chem quiz, math gct and something else. chinese sure have sth de.

sick.

or ill. whatever, however you put it. i need to stop doing bad things.

come to think of it, maybe i should have gone for the SMP thing. now i don't even know what it is. then again, i would have died from the aircon inside the theaterrette. (someone's gonna tag and tell me it wasn't on)

i hate this okay, i mean, come on. you can't expect me not to get pissed when you barge into my space, scream at me to change my plans, mess up my stuff, when i feel super sick right.

and now i'm feeling worse. which is balls. i hate everyone.

probably gonna sleep through physics tmr. 2h of lim li chen...die. i died during the 1h today already... the ironic thing is that i can't actually do any of the questions at all. i'm sure i kinda know how, but i don't know how.

i'm useless..just stay away from me tmr. i'll be a wreck,. i'll probably just make you pissed.

basically, i won't recover till the weekend i think. that''s being optimistic already. so no soccer for this week. well, that kinda sucks.

rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrra.

knee hurts again. hai, it's the same place, the muscles are tight.

so tmr can't play soccer ==....that basically means all the 3h of break i'm stuck in class doing nothing. wtf. and i can't climb stairs...argh hate this.

need to go do tingxie. will leave chem ws for tmr...that means i'll probably spam tingxie practice tmr. which is good i suppose?

things just never work out. and i know why. it's because i'm a bad person, and i do bad things, so bad things happen to me. sometimes, i think there should be a guidebook. i just don't know what's right anymore.

pesto.

toasted pine nuts, parmesan, and basil.

diet pills anyone? been thinking about it since i saw the adipose thing..ahh. bad.

it's really great when

fill in the blank.

epic unproductiveness.

been feeling like sleeping for probably ay least 80% of the time today. terrible. and then no guitar later, so more sleepiness and i can't do work or study. terrible.

2 more journals...sleepy.

2 more journals, a few more assignments, a whole stack of paper x the number of subjects i have to study, a few hours of torture where we spam our pen ink on thick papers, then we can all say goodbye and run riot.

can't believe i'm even thinking about it..gosh.

dunno what to say,.

oh yes i finally found out what's ttm! don't judge me haha

. five bucks says that rick astley's secretly in love with katy perry.

it feels like a productive night.

a quick one, need to go sleep.

okay, don't get depressed by the title, if you feel you did nothing all night. i slack off most nights, so just let me feel accomplished for once.

i think i'm gonna die for mass wasting, but the front part should be manageable. VOYL!

that's volga, ob, yenisev and lena. russian rivers.

time to go, stay happy and smile! i just realised it's a little stupid to be depressed about life, it's like wasting life.

happy birthday.

chips.

the only hope for reality is a little girl who still believes in stars.

hello, sweetie.

no motivation to blog..terrible.

actually, no motivation to do anything. there's chinese to do, studying to do, and stuff. i wake up too late...waste a lot of time in the morning. and i just had a dream that we were having a war and my dad and i were throwing like glass bottles filled with ketchup and stuff at each other. weird..

ok. goals for today.

morning : finish at least 1 chinese compre and suibi

afternoon : study something. just something.

i'll probably fail the morning one, considering i'm loading the last 2 episodes of series 5 now and am planning to watch it. that's like 1.5h.

yesterday only did like mcq portion of the chinese paper, gonna die for everything. then at night went to marina for some nightwalk. it wasn't really a walk, there were like at least 10k people, and they were super slow..zz. would have sweated more playing 3 mins of soccer.

goodbye.