and now,

I get irrationally annoyed at those Harry Potter x Doctor Who fanfics/gifsets on Tumblr.
DAMMIT PEOPLE. STOP TRYING TO MIX STUFF THAT DOESN'T GO.


Anyway, my life has been

teach some tuition
slack
attempt to slack as much as possible and find people to go out with
cringe at DSTA and uni essays
teach more tuition
bang head against wall
attempt to sleep well

I keep failing the last one. It seems that I've now screwed up my sleep cycle really badly.
Must fix it before I enlist, which is 6 Feb.

Anyone who knows me will know my thoughts on NS. Sigh.

I miss school haha. Actually, I just miss planning stuff for CCA. I don't really do anything in lessons, usually. No, that does not include listening to the teacher.

I see all the changes and all the new stuff happening on the Media Club wall, and well, it's kind of mixed feelings. It's nice to see the framework and everything being laid out by the teachers like that, because we actually had to do most of that in the past, but well, that's part of the fun.

even though it's technically just a lot of typing and agonizing over "OMG WHY ARE OUR JUNIORS THIS SLACK AND UNENTHU"

It's okay, the camp was good.
Right, my shoulders and back are killing me. It's good that I have tmr to recover.


NOW TO SLACK. AND WATCH FRIPSIDE.

sigh I love them too much. and nanjolno.

I feel like I'm a kid again.

Just got back from soccer with like, 16 people, and I'm completely burnt out.

Well, we did go to the BGC, and then I decided not to go for the class dinner because I'd totally die tmr.

Then it turns out that I remembered the date of the EAGLES presentation wrongly, and my student cancelled on me. So my tmr went from being completely packed to flipping empty.

which brings me to the point of this post.
Sometimes I like being alone. sometimes socializing is tiring and perhaps the way I do it is wrong.
I mean, I like to go out with my friends, but

I'm worrying too much, okay.
I worry that I'll piss someone off, even though most, if not all the people I associate with are understanding as hell. and the fact that I always operate on a "If you aren't going to be reasonable, that's your problem" policy is making this really strange.

I still care.
and that annoys me to no end. because my general method for dealing with outings and friends, no, mindset is a better word, has worked damn well for the past few years.


I wouldn't do things that I don't see a point in.
It's like, I wouldn't wear a jacket if it wasn't cold. Makes sense right?

Similarly, I wouldn't go to an outing where I would feel uncomfortable, or I feel isn't worth my time, or if I could be doing something else which I felt benefitted me more.

Blogging helps me think, so.

I guess that straightens things out, lol. It's nothing much, just me overthinking as usual.
People fall apart even after a while, anyway. This is trivial.