Frustrations.

busying of business.

I guess I did ask for this.
Okay fine then there's nothing to complain anymore actually.

I'm just very miffed about not being able to go to KL with my family for the weekend. So i'll be spending Christmas alone.

shit. Pre-O camp starts at 7am.
We need to meet Joyce Ng for ARP on that day ahhhhh.
fuck.

I just swore on this blog. I told myself not to.

okay forget it the others are still in school. I have no right to complain.
Shall do SSEF report tonight, after Dion hands it to me.

Bye.

the holidays are ending.

I wonder if I'll be bothered to do a 2012 appreciation post.
think i'll probably be too busy doing Orientation stuff.

On that note, the last 2 days of filming were quite decent, but slow.  Next time, need to make sure all the stuff that we need is brought. because I guess Galen's the one in charge, and he's good at doing the story and the scenes, but he doesn't really prepare adequately because he doesn't have much experience at doing videos i guess. and also, because he wont be able to imagine how it'll look behind the camera.

and they want lightning bolts and explosions and glowing and -.-
yeah. super unrealistic demands lol.  and rehearsals for the skit on Tuesday..thank goodness we have Adrian and Weiren back for that. I think.


anyway, Yahoo! also says that Jennifer Lawrence is the most desirable woman in the world.
Disagree.

So I've been working. At NUS. It's been tiring. but then work is always tiring, there's no such thing as free money, because I wasnt able to get those kind of do-nothing-but-get-paid jobs.

I realised I've stopped cooking now that most of my family are home. I used to cook like everyday for every meal for that week's period, but now it's back to slacking. And it shows. I slept the whole day today. Well, almost.

I still detest Instagram..
bye. I've procrastinated enough.

nearly at twenty thousand.

I was going to attempt to memorise the Katakana chart.
because my katakana is utter rubbish.

and, here's a restaurant review which provided like almost zero information and has no conclusion at all.

http://sg.entertainment.yahoo.com/news/good-see-good-eat-091034652.html





we'll see how monday goes.
screw this, new post. I can't post while starting bane in the face. even when it is lego bane.

squirrels and hedgehogs.

I don't know as well.

Anyway, went out today to get new specs. Since mine are falling apart. I swear Paris Miki is a cool name for a spec shop. Anyway, I got one. but it's not red and it's not flashy and you won't understand any of this unless you're in the shop with me. which you weren't because my dad doesn't know about the existence of this blog. I think.

or else he hardly reads it. Stalking me on twitter is enough for him.

Rushed back, then met Dion and we bought Png's present, after destroying half of Tampines' shopping areas (yes, I admit that's the real reason we were late :P) I'm glad he invited us, it was fun. Although his sister did make us completely deaf by blowing that....idk what it's called. Played bridge for most of the time there with Dion, Junwei and Andreea. and his cake was good haha, and there was steak! I don't have the photo though, it's with her.

Also, we bought poker cards from the shop there for $3. andreea tried to bargain with the woman and failed lol. so Dion paid the $3. and appparently I now owe them 6 cents for folding a crease in one of the cards.

that apparently has 3 p(s). haha

After that we left, and then I went to buy dinner for my dad, and went grocery shopping at NTUC, and then Dion and I came to my house, where we watched really really weird PVs. and drank sparkling juice.

we were supposed to go meet jiamin at the airport, so that I can get his 18-55 and Mononoke, and that he can get Dion's battery and my 18-135.  but then we walked past each other, and Dion took a while to recognise jiamin due to his shirt lol.  So we walked like right behind him for around 20seconds and he didn't even notice hahaha.

and then we stalked him and I waved at his mum. yup.
I am going to co-op with Dion tonight. If it actually works.

Gotta shower now, bye!

その目誰の目？

I have to say, I'm still quite affected by that line. can't believe they actually took the reference that far.
well, it's not even a reference anymore. it's just direct placing.

anyway, i'm here. in Kuching. because it's the December holidays.
going back in a couple of days though :/ no more good food.

also, I realise I need money for food when I go back because the house is going to be empty so I'll have to go shopping. Need to buy onions, at least.

so far, the holidays have been kinda :/
at least I'm not having an emotional mix-up like the previous years.

orientation planning video progress : 0%
japanese learning progress : 0%
life lessons : I climbed a cave.

yes, I went into a cave. all this was because the previous week I got dragged along with my mum's friends to go be tourists because they somehow think this place is a good tourist location.

it's not. it just has rather good food. go to australia or something.
damn, I really want to go to Japan. and I want to start work when I get back to Singapore, but the prof won't be back until 13th. From then on it'll just be the whole day spent on work/shooting the orientation video/arp i think.

at least our arp's rather okay. the device has been made, and dion's testing it now. I hope you are, dion.
also, I have made it my personal mission to eliminate all the Williams in this world.

my fingers seem kinda tired. haven't typed this much in a while, haven't blogged for a while. I do apologise. it's just that everything I think, "I shall blog", there's just things I want to say that I can't say here.

so I don't blog.
but there is nothing that I'm saying here that's exactly sensitive though.

also, if anyone wants to pick me on Tuesday, i'll be arriving around noon.
more useless information.


need to go eat breakfast now, if not my mother will murder me.
so there we go.


re;

prom is over.

not mine, fortunately.

I'll do a more lengthy post after I edit/post the photos. Currently I'm starving so I'm going to toast something, drink milo, pack and sleep because I have to go back to Kuching in around 4 hours time.

bye.

未完成／みかんせい／unfinished.

holidays are about to start.
well, they have kinda started. it's just that my holiday doesn't really start after convocation, and this year it doesn't start until after prom.

after which, after I exhibit my shitty photography skills, I'm going to fly off to Malaysia the following morning. I predict like no sleep at all the previous night :D

I think I have enough anime to last me. The problem with following series' which are still airing is that it's absolute torture to have to wait a week. Anyway, I have K-On! (all the seasons), Code Geass, Clannad and Fate-Zero to clear, so it should be fine. I'm not my sister, who finishes one anime in a day.

I seem to be deviating a lot and being unable to post about what I originally intended to blog about.
I mean, it's been a year. Shit's changed, for the worse I believe.  That's mainly because, I took no action because I was unsure of myself, (I still am), and everyone around me was just, well.  I know everyone can't help it, but sometimes, when you say it too much, it becomes something you want to get away from.  it becomes something she naturally wants to get away from.

yasashisa no riyuu's playing now. it's still the only song that I know completely.

also, that night was a terrible night. nah, the night was fine, it was a terrible day.
forget it, i'll just spend the rest of the holidays distracting myself with music and anime. it'll be fine. I keep telling myself that lol.

Damn i'm being dramatic again. jiamin always tells me that I'm super depressed on my blog, whereas in real life i'm fine.  Seeing many of the others tmr though, Convocation and prom briefing!

also, jookee's going around blocking people on twitter. ahaha.
so typical of him. okay, i'm going to get some food now.

yes, my mealtimes are horribly messed up.

Anime Festival Asia (AFA) 2012 :D

my first AFA, yes. since it's only been my first year really getting into anime and japanese and stuff.
jookee's influence, mostly. that cow.

anyway, I saw jookee and dion through the niconico live stream, because jookee was working as an emcee! he got paid $100, which I totally want. Wasn't planning to go for the first day, but that totally hooked me so I rushed to expo and dion bought me a ticket and I went in!

just spent the time walking around randomly at first haha. there were really a lot of people.

tosserrrrrrr.

yeah his job is to try and convince people to be interviewed. he nearly got us up there but dion and I ran away =P

oh right, we also met chee, arif, joshua, clarence, sean seet there! of course, mingwei vivian and claire were there. and weiren, even though we never saw him..

kuroyukihime cosplay!

and yes, png, before you comment, I know it's not as good as the real her.
and yes, you can cable with her whenever you want. although she may surprise you by yanking the cable off and walking away in a jealous rage.

see, i'm a mindreader.

sadly this wasn't for sale though.
apologies, I did not bother editing any of the photos.

not for sale, sadly. I think it'll cost a small fortune though :/

I met a weeping angel, yes.
there was a doctor who booth! so cool right.

tardis! but mine's way better. it's authentic. and plastic, not paper =P

the angels have the phone booth..wait, no booth.
(yes that's a blink reference)

Kirito!
yes the SAO fans were crazy. (or SAO fags, like jiamin likes to call them..)
the queue was really really really whopping long. I didn't manage to buy Justin his calendar..

and then Dion and I (stupidly) went to maid cafe to burn money. snapped this though. May'n autograph session.

......no comment.

Dion did say I'd look better with him because of the height lol.

read through all the rules carefully. haha it's so "do not hit on the girls" orientated.

now that was a horrible waste of money. 

I have many debts to collect on now, so I'm not exactly broke. but until I cash in on those debts..

so that was the end of Day 1, Saturday. they crashed my house and we all cramped inside my tiny room that night. Dion arrived at around 9, he watched his Jinrui while I finished up Chaos;Head (and complained about it, naturally.) yeah, it's total shit. don't watch it, unless you're the kind of person who thinks that an asparagus cheesecake is nice.

we got bored after a while though. then jiamin arrived, and I fed him with pork/eggs but he was demanding chicken breast so in order to shut him up Dion and I tweeted about it and i fried dion an egg with pepper. after that we had to go pick jookee because his concert ended late and he was swearing profusely about the Singapore transport system which shuts down after midnight. admittedly, it's kinda dumb, considering there are many flights coming in after midnight..

so I cooked him an omelette with honey-baked ham. with bread. because he hadn't actually had dinner.

and then I got hungry and cooked myself an egg as well.

so we basically just burnt my house's egg supply.

oh, and our breakfast was beehoon with.....fried egg.

yeah.

protein spam.

then it was time for day 2! this time I had the main stage event ticket as well ^^

this is inside hall 8, the main stage.

aimi! apparently she sung the ben-to OP but we missed it ><
after that they had diamond stage which meant all the Sphere fans went crazy. I mean, really really crazy. so, jiamin and I decided to start hitting on ferlyn yoshimi, the mc.

her hair was quite nice, okay.

from left to right : Sea☆A, May'n, Minami Kuribayashi and Sphere.
actually, it's Ferlyn, Sea☆A, May'n, Minami Kuribayashi, Sphere and Danny Choo. lol.

yeah jiamin was saying May'n was looking pissed. hahaha

uh, more kuroyukihime cosplay.
para su placer visual, png.

Dion with his May'n poster which he gave to jiamin and not me.
I got over it in a day though.

I shall end this with Sakai Wakana from Tari Tari. Yup, AFA was lovely. I'll try to go for a concert next year, I think. and I'm going at 9 on the first day to buy the Accel World stuff before it runs out.

the end of an era.

it's been nice knowing you guys.
very nice, indeed. it was a brilliant experience.

I still remember moving in at the start of the year, being a little hesitant, a little worried about whether i would be able to live by myself, and whether I would be able to concentrate on my studies. well, hostel's been very fun. and it's helped me grow. it's changed me, I would say, I think in a better light.

More importantly, it's been bloody brilliant hanging out with you guys. Thank you to jordan, jiamin, jookee, dion and everyone else (in fact almost the whole year 5) for making it so fun. I'd definitely do this again, given the chance.

lolol this is too cheesy. too emotional.
damn, my typing skills are fading. too slow!

maybe i'm just tired. oh well. slept at about 4:44, since that was the last recorded time I actually remembered seeing on my phone. and then we were all nearly late but it's fine. I have to say I am slightly disappointed with my GPA, but it is higher than I expected, thanks to the 7MC of math As. and no thanks to english/physics.

and then went to orientation meeting, which lasted round..2 minutes. and went to gym with jiamin and png. 3rd official session..2nd in a row.  I must admit that those two are hackers and that I lost like all my arm strength after like an hour.

then came back, arp-ed (tried to) and then went back to a mad rush of packing. it was crazy..I really detest packing. oh right, before that I had to accompany jiamin to the GO to talk to Ms Celestine because he didn't renew his ez-link card then didn't bother to do it for like 9months. So i was basically sitting in the purple comfy chair bouncing up and down and silently laughing at him.

also, we had a sort of mini cluster party last night! super impromptu, it was actually the 5 of us cooking fake carbonara, but then Ms Chua brought out like around 100 nuggets and chips and Bradley got out ice cream and those heavenly brownies.  So it turned into such an amazing night and everyone joined in, and they were even making milkshakes.



also, we took a lot of crazy pictures which made no sense haha.

as you can see, we're advertising products half the time, and making V signs half the time!
hahaha I will miss all these guys.

also, I took home a souvenir.

search and kiss and destroy.

AFA Day 2 is starting soon.

the guys crashed my house last night. quite fun, except

a) I can't sleep because of someone..
b) jiamin's such an arse because he keeps demanding eggs, chicken breasts, nuts and other protein-related foods.

okay, gotta leave soon. if not we're not going to reach there at 9. bye.
i'm going to go visit the weeping angel again. and watch events this time.

emptiness.

a good word to describe how I feel right now.
it's not necessarily bad though. my mind's very clear now.

i looked at facebook chat, and all of you from my school who I care about are all on now. haha i feel like talking to you all. but i won't.

well, this past week has been, quite good actually. spent the mornings in school, the afternoons and nights slacking, and the few hours after dinner being a maniac on the netball court. fun.

I realise, I need to start listening to english songs again.
and I'm going to go learn Burst the Gravity. like, do it properly, so that I actually understand what I'm singing. it's terrible though, it's like 45% english dumped randomly -.-

but sounds so damn good.

anyway, script checking was pretty average, bordering on good. if not for the terrible physics score (which plagued our whole class, by the way), and me passing organic chem by a mere 4 marks, it would be good.

also, I sat with png and junwei for a couple of papers and they kept drawing chickens and cocks on my exam script. lol.

this method of blogging seems rather stale actually. like bread. you should always use stale bread to make bread and butter pudding, because it supposedly absorbs more custard. and french onion soup. yes, that.

screw this, i am going to the supermarket tmr.
we are out of onions and garlic. which is annoying.

exchanged anime with chee yesterday. well, i did use jookee's hard drive. and i actually made him watch OniiAi and destroyed his life. and the result is that I now have shitloads of anime to watch :D

also, I'm addicted to Borderlands 2. but I died like 10 times just now fighting skags because 1. I suck and 2. I'm freaking underleveled.  it doesn't run on mac so i'm going to play the first Borderlands which is good because I can play as Lilith and she's a siren but she's not that good yet in the first version apparently.

ah bollocks. i'm not sure if it'll even work.
right, i'm off. this post has been far too long and too formal and it just doesn't feel right actually.

continuation.

so there's school tmr.
it's been a while.

today was good. lazed around all day watching anime and sleeping thanks to the awesome weather.

also, picking up shinsekai yori and steinsgate for now. not sure if i should watch K-On! though. haha
where is my doctor who argh..

actually this week is kinda slack because we just have to get through tmr, do arp in the afternoon, then there's the outing on tuesday, script check on wed/thur and friday's a holiday.

although we will all die for script check.
i just want to get it over with actually. sigh.

okay, bye.

yeah, it still hits me. still can't forget the disappointment in myself and the disappointment in your eyes. bye.

mesmerising.

So we just got out of hostel. Just dropped jookee off and now going back to the east to drop Dion home and return the electric guitar to Yin Zhi.

Damn, I gotta get myself one of those.

The performance turned out okay, I think. I guess it's quite reasonable for a first time. But I still feel frustrated and mad at myself.

I still can't control my emotions. I can do it well when I'm in the hostel, considering I haven't gotten really really mad like even once this semester.
But it's in situations like this when it matters. I mean, I can't be so freaking rash and unreasonable. Now I realise I was annoyed for the wrong reasons and its merely my bloody ego in the way. And also, I can't seem to accept it when things go wrong. But I've been dealing with that fine all year. Ish. Why?

and there's the matter of figuring out what I really want. Maybe I'll just leave high school like that, I don't know.

bye.

the reason for kindness.

today was good :D

went to orientation planning meeting in the morning with dion and jookee, then went to music room to practice until like 2. and then went for cluster outing at Ricciotti just now and it was so heavenly.

like seriously.
the pasta. the pizza. especially dion's cheese pasta.
and the giant bowl of gelato.

haha and then walked down the singapore river. just 5 guys, being lonely and weird. and looking at pubs and laughing at the fact that png ate a whole 1.5kg chicken by himself.

okay, gotta run. gonna watch Hanasaku Iroha!
long day tmr.

no drive.

whoosh, exams.
i'm just taking it in stride you know. not pushing myself enough. and the last time i did this, i majorly screwed up and got 59.5 for every exam. well, most of them..

i don't want that to happen again.
but i just can't concentrate at home. maybe tmr will be better. i don't know.

after studying linear algebra, i feel even less confident okay. bloody hell.

goodnight. i need to sleep.

blank.

because i'm just a blank slate right now.

the singapore grand prix is over.
need to study.

but i don't. and i won't.
killing my own grades again..

forget it, this won't help.
haha goodnight.

we are tossed by waves of pain and tears.

seems like an emo title.
no it's not, haha.

i got inspired to post after reading dion's post, haha.
socks.

that moment was so funny.
it's strange, being wide awake on a friday night.

because there was no cca, i reached home at 4, had a nap, then went out for dinner at 645 ish.
then i came back, watched SAO, and then now i'm here. think i'll try to edit my photos by tonight, and leave the rest of the weekend for work  :/

school now is like quiz in the day, study at night, quiz/test the next day. suicidal.
messed up physics test..18/30. yeah, i know...

anyway, I've been watching Accel World the whole week. yes.
and I hit the limit on Thursday morning, just before chem honours lecture.

so now i'm waiting for the last episode while jookee suans me with his stream but apparently it doesn't work so hohoho.

actually i'd rather watch it tmr. something to look forward to.
and there's doctor who to watch on sunday again!

i love the angel beats phone stream haha. although i'd rather have an accel world one. hmm. i want a kuroyukihime one. -hint hint to dion-
haha okay that's pushing it.

but seriously, black lotus is damn hack.

yes, I'm not going for the Singapore GP. call me crazy.
bradley managed to get free tickets, curse him. from sergei alekseyev. balls.
I should have asked my dad earlier. but it's okay. think i'm getting forced to stay home and study anyway, so i can't go out. damn, i wanted to go to that japanese festival thing with jookee and dion.

today was kinda weird actually. slept through math and woke up at the end to take pictures of the whiteboard with my camera, and then smoked physics prac (where boon chong was being high and going around knighting bottles (yes, he did.))

too many brackets.
basically, he was going like, "arise, sir pinbottle."
yup..

so yeah, jordan was there sitting beside me during the quiz because he already took it, and then he proceeded to dismantle my correction tape and write on it.

we actually left hostel at around the same time, but he cheated by taking 6405 while i had to endure 196. i want a car.  then i'll just drive myself home. so cool.

then we had english, which was basically us talking about religion with dass. so fun. and then we watched michelle obama's speech and wondered why the whole audience was crying and why they only zoomed in on black people in the audience for about 90% of the time.

no cca, which was sad. but it gave me time to rest.
I will make photo side better next year.

shall go edit photos.
ciao.

Asylum of the Daleks.

my first doctor who review.

and i'm doing this mostly because i love it. this episode was so awesome. really good.

note : this is NOT spoiler free. basically, go watch it first because it's so mindblowing.

so the episode begins with a giant dalek on Skaro, where the doctor meets this random woman.

I think it's good that those of us who only watched the revived series get to see Skaro. and yes as the doctor rightly states, it's a complete mess.

thanks to him..

and she turns out to be a dalek human.

basically they are human shells which the daleks hollow out and then live inside. makes sense?

oh well, it's quite a bad plot device to be honest. but it does allow the emotional part of it to come out.

and oho. amy and rory have joined the party.

and it's the parliament of the daleks.

"What do we do?"

"Be brave. Make them remember you."

that's the dalek PM, by the way.

and.....behold the entrance of the new companion!

Jenna Louise Coleman :D

basically in the story she's Oswin Oswald, who's stuck in the asylum because her ship crashed there a year ago and she can't get out.

and all she's been doing is...making souffles.

yup.

that's the asylum. it's a whole planet, where they dump all the daleks that go wrong : the battle-scarred, the insane ones. and it's protected by a force field which can only be deactivated from the inside. so the grand plan is to send the doctor, amy and rory there to deactivate the field and then the daleks will blow up the planet.

by firing them into the planet, yes..

i just realised i'm telling you the whole story.

here comes the most action-ish bit in the whole episode.

yay dalek remains.

how fun.

this just reminds me of the scene in Journey's End, where he practically blew them all up.

and then he goes to save Oswin. but, (and here it comes), it turns out that,

yup. she's a dalek.

and everything that she's imagined isn't real. it's just a real because the truth was too terrible for her to bear.

but she lets the doctor go. and....

another reference to the scene in The Big Bang, where the two of them are, well to put it plainly, making out while they're being threatened by daleks.

and then the tardis comes into play and they all go home.

this wasn't even a review.

i basically just spoiled every single person who will ever read this.

conclusion : brilliant episode, but would have liked to see more use of the tardis. I miss it.

i'm not doing episode 2 because it sucks.

like really sucks. humour is good though. and there's a kiss.

okay bye haha