I feel like I'm a kid again.

Just got back from soccer with like, 16 people, and I'm completely burnt out.

Well, we did go to the BGC, and then I decided not to go for the class dinner because I'd totally die tmr.

Then it turns out that I remembered the date of the EAGLES presentation wrongly, and my student cancelled on me. So my tmr went from being completely packed to flipping empty.

which brings me to the point of this post.
Sometimes I like being alone. sometimes socializing is tiring and perhaps the way I do it is wrong.
I mean, I like to go out with my friends, but

I'm worrying too much, okay.
I worry that I'll piss someone off, even though most, if not all the people I associate with are understanding as hell. and the fact that I always operate on a "If you aren't going to be reasonable, that's your problem" policy is making this really strange.

I still care.
and that annoys me to no end. because my general method for dealing with outings and friends, no, mindset is a better word, has worked damn well for the past few years.


I wouldn't do things that I don't see a point in.
It's like, I wouldn't wear a jacket if it wasn't cold. Makes sense right?

Similarly, I wouldn't go to an outing where I would feel uncomfortable, or I feel isn't worth my time, or if I could be doing something else which I felt benefitted me more.

Blogging helps me think, so.

I guess that straightens things out, lol. It's nothing much, just me overthinking as usual.
People fall apart even after a while, anyway. This is trivial.