yes, it's saturdays, and behold! my dad is home. so, of course, it's time for him to bring all his misery back and inflict it all on my mum. and all the rest of us.
i wonder when my mum will finally snap.
she doesn't deserve this, okay. she's an awesome person. and she married the wrong person. even if i don't exist, it's better that way because her life will be better.
she's given all this for us, and you treat her like a piece of crap. you don't deserve anything, okay.
you can see how bad it is, when i actually question my own existence. i'm willing to let myself not exist for her to be happy, and that's a tough thing to do, because i'm completely selfish. i don't know what they're arguing about now.
forget this, forget that.
i need to study hard so that i can give her a good life..and be independent. that shall be my drive. no more slacking.
i slacked too much today. i mean, i started work at like 4. had tuition in the morning, then slacked. i only did like 4 chapters of cell bio. mitosis was damn straightforward but the first few were spam content. especially organelles. i didn't even do notes for that, too tedious.
must finish by tonight. or tmr morning, early morning. whatever, same difference.
forget it, i'm damn pissed and bitter now. nothing's going to help.
nothing.
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