dry.

i think that's the word.

getting that sinking feeling of i can't do anything well again. and i'm pissed at myself. okay, correction, i was. cos was playing bmt then the shuttlecock keep hitting the frame. i mean like 90% of the time it hit the frame okay. magnetic attraction?

i'm supposed to be lunching now. but i think i'll finish this post first.

now i'm like emotionless again. and it doesn't help that i'm listening to valentine's day. i need stuff to do, i'm better when i'm occupied. but when i grow up and start working i'll probably regret saying that. but the present is the present.

i hate this, it's like i'm doing things that i really don't want to do, but i'm forcing myself to do it cos if not there's nothing to do. it's just not right. everything.

and i'm dreading school again tmr. i think it'll be a disaster. and chinese lc on tue..

can't believe it's so soon.

do people of the opposite sex really make better friends? i don't know, it's probably not true for me, i suppose. but sometimes it's hard for people of the same sex to just talk. sometimes. with several people. some people there's no problem.

but times have changed, everything is super complicated. it's like one false move, and it will collapse.

also, i talked to a cockroach just now. success haha. i've been wanting to do that for a very long time..

we've all changed, we will all change, but what do we change into?