and the clouds above move closer.

i was going to post 30mins ago, but got distracted by bejeweled, again. still can't beat the current high score.

anyway, woke up to find that they made waffles for breakfast. cos my mum recently acquired a waffle maker. but it's square. not circular. and i think the batter's a bit wrong, it's quite chewy. but other than that it's awesome heh.

finally can sign in to msn....it died on me yesterday. not that i do anything on msn anyway. i just sign in and be there..

my dad's ipod is kinda screwed, it charged the whole night and it's still like 60% battery. it's the 5th model apple put out i think. this one.

and somehow apple gets sued cos ipad overheated again. it always happens....a lot of apple stuff overheats. they really need a cooling system.

i really have nothing much to say. hopefully the coming week will be a nice week, it seems nice. do we have tingxie?

today will be a happy day.

oh, and people reading that line please don't get mad because you've had a really rough day. listen to music, think, and if it helps, scream. works for me.

magical interference.

forgot to say happy birthday to john huang and hema, who just had their birthdays.

loads of birthdays coming up, well, it's august, of course. people who have their birthdays in august are awesome okay.

in a general sense.

no i'm just praising myself.

well, vbye.

friends.

one step at a time.

i've been addicted to it for 2 days already.

today wasn't bad, surprisingly. i like fridays, kinda, cos the lessons are like packed so much there isn't much breaks. and it was cold so perfect lesson environment. 1.5h break only...but who's counting. i read wiki a lot during lessons...it's strangely interesting. then chia's extra lesson...he just went through stuff. we all hate him for adding lessons, but the thing is the guy's really nice, it's just that he teaches slowly so he needs more time.

then media, at least me and lee didn't have to go for the ndp thing. did the final cut pro workshop again....the place was like empty, people started coming in at 420 only, epic. then halfway through i think yeo pressed the ' speak whatever you do' function, then the com started talking, saying whatever he clicked on, it's damn epic. i remember doing that before...it's damn annoying after a while..

then soccer. haha i sucked, 1 of the goals was my fault. but i defended a lot harder than i did in the afternoon. it's better. it's like defending against jookee russian dion all at once, but hema is pro, he saved almost everything haha. then we won cos lee kept scoring, like he usually does. seriously, the guy is brilliant, he just keeps scoring and scoring. then i changed socks, haha i'm weird, bring socks instead of shirt, but whatever.

i want my media shirt! haha it's epic, the sizes li wei brought today all super big de, 3 Ls and one XXL. that one's crazy, i tried it, even on me it's massive. but super comfortable haha. so have to wait till next week.

ba. internet's fogging up again.

i feel like i've been a better person today, even though others don't think so. especially dion, he just makes me want to hit something. it's so frustrating talking to him haha. it's like, whatever he's saying makes sense. it's a bit like : you shouldn't curse people or hit people if you olfnuasidupas;do i can't remember.

basically it's just super annoying but he's still an awesome guy.

i'm in the mood now where i don't really hate anyone. and yes, people, i do sing a lot even though my singing's terrible.

hw this week is chem ws + math assn + suibi. i finished half of the first two already. mind you, i'd probably take one whole day for each. sigh.

but can't. got to go IMM buy shoe. shoe's falling apart. i blame soccer.

if you're reading this, you have a good life. do you know why? you're lucky, because you have friends. we all have friends. and that's very important. friends and family.

know that someone out there is always believing in you.

oh and geog earthquake thingy.

i'm changing.

it's like, i try to be nice, but i feel that with everything i do, everything i say, i'm becoming a big jerk.

and tmr's not going to go well either.

i don't really know what to do now, math assn, chem ws or filing?

i don't know what's happening. it's just wrong. i hate this.

tell me, did you notice a change?

further and further away.

hatred, everywhere.

everything's screwed okay, soccer is taking up too much of my time. and it's making me tired. and it's wasting my time. but i still want to play. crazy right.

heck, i shall go home early tmr. and by that i mean at 2. cos got bio quiz. shit. my eyes are burning. like literarily. i don't know why i'm still here. waiting for the sun to fall so i can do work i suppose.

forget it, i'm useless.

kit.

the valiant is down.

and i'm sunburnt.

waking up and see that everything is okay.

and i'm pissed at media, and i need more sleep, can't get enough sleep. i keep sleeping through english, i'm sorry, i can't help it. and plus i feel we soccer too much, today was spam again, that's why i'm sunburnt. soccer is bad for health, i mean if you do it in moderation it's okay i suppose, not too much. too much is...you get angry, you shout, you become bitchier. actually that's just me. i don't like playing with some people, that's the thing.

i prefer a balance of lessons and breaks...tue there's too many breaks. well, tmr'll be hectic, so no time for soccer. good. today played too much already. netball will be nice though, it'll be a change.

a change for the better.

in other news, a 15 year old guy in new zealand has fallen 16 stories and survived. how amazing is that. and he only had minor injuries wth. that's really incredible.

it's dinner time. what. the sun isn't down yet. i realise i wait for night to fall before i do any work, it's just habit now. day too hot. and to everyone out there, stop littering on the field okay. is it that difficult to find a bin? they're everywhere. sheesh.

i sound like one of those environmentalist idiots. no wonder everyone hates me. i don't know. i've changed again, i can feel it. i'm louder. i hate it i don't like to be loud, it's not good. quiet is better. i think i should go live in the countryside.

i want to run away.

ignore that.

i think i'd better go, oh yes yesterday some random kid waved at me and said hi to me from the 3rd floor as i was walking into my block, made my day so much better haha.

thank you, random kid.

indifferent.

watched half of g-force just now.

it potrays the fbi as epic douchebags. i wonder if humans seem that way to animals. i bet we do.

i mean, we eat them, we hunt them down, we destroy their homes. we completely just take their entire lives away. and if someone did that to me, i'd be seriously pissed. but with animals it's different. they can't do anything, you see. and then there's all this crap about humans being superior because we're smarter. but the thing is, animals are kind. they don't go about blowing each other up. well, with smartness comes destruction.

okay, forget i just said that. it's pointless...

plus, i'm just as bad. well, probably not as bad because i don't promote fighting, but you get my drift.

today's been...slow. played a bit of frisbee, then walked to white sands with edwin and jingmin. ate bk...i can't believe the thing is 6 bucks. but they're having another promotion, which is quite cheap. whopper jr meal + free ice cream and only 4.95. not bad.

and the facebook thing is screwed okay. i clicked on this thing which says : analyze what you think about! then they do it via your name okay. it's damn stupid. i thought it's a quiz or something. sheesh.

that reminds me, i have to clear my nus email. again.

please let us do soccer in pe...we're stick stuck on bball. it's damn boring, considering i pretty much suck at bball. okay i suck in soccer too but whatever. it's more fun. as in, i hate soccer less.

also, on a completely unrelated note, ms exchange can go screw itself. i can't believe i have to delete one by one then delete one by one again from the deleted folder. what? i'm not that free ok. even if i was, i'd be bored by the 50th one...

actually i think you can select all. can you? i'm not sure...

oh right, i still need to copy songs for debb. life is sad. but she gives me food which is awesome. but then the last time chia realised i was eating he made me answer 3 questions. at least they were easy. and i was watching tv just now, some home makeover show. the kitchen was epic after they did it up, it's like epic kitchen, epic breakfast table, nice dinner table, nice view of grass. i shall design the mansion like that. but that's for the future.

and in case you're wondering what the fb thing i mentioned said, it said i spent 82% of the time thinking about sex and about 4 % about food. and the rest i can't rmb. doesn't make sense, should be the other way round. i mean, who would think of sex more than food. that's just freaky, considering i'm hungry most of the time.

i'm always hungry.

this week's gonna be spammed i think, gotta get started on chem imf, we havent even decided what to do on. and english advertising thing...die. we're doing on tissue apparently. well, i suppose we could severely injure dion and wipe up his blood with the tissue.

running through the monsoon, beyond the world, to the end of time, where the rain won't hurt. fighting the storm, into the blue, and when i lose myself i think of you.

through the monsoon.

and life awaits.

five hour sleep, i'm wide awake now but probably gonna feel super dead later.

that's all i suppose...lost my blogging passion.

bye.

second chance.

we're heading for someplace, somewhere i've never been.

sorry, couldn't post last night cos i was too tired. i just literarily knocked out, slept 11+ hours. awesome. haha i was really dead last night. cos of soccer lol. moving to field wasn't such a bad idea after all, i scored. same kind of goal again, but from shorter distance. and there were a lot of random people playing, and they were all nice, so it was fun!

okay that doesn't sound like myself. the last sentence.

heck. this will be a happy post. too many sad posts already.

yesterday was good overall, only media was boring, cos the aircon sucked and we basically didn't do much in those 2h. and the woman's teaching us final cut pro 7, the one we have on the school coms is final cut pro 6. fail. and lee's copying kept failing, his hard disk got problem....

lessons were good, even though i know i screwed up math/tingxie/phy. math was just a mess, i couldn't remember what's surjective, so i left that blank. then behind calculation wrong, -4 become -2, had to change everything, it was just hectic. chem was...the usual. and i thought tingxie was MONDAY so when shini told me i literarily freaked out, then spent the rest of the time learning, and somehow i only got 4 words correct. what's more irritating is that at least 70% of the phrases i know like at least 3 words in them, yet the whole thing's still wrong. they should divide up the marks into separate words, fairer.

and phy quiz was like 1h, i couldnt do first question, like everyone else. then our answers for the last one all diff de, i guess that's what phy's about. there are a million methods, you just have to find and use the correct one. and the woman extended time so it's like greet her, quiz, say goodbye, break!

and i'm happy for yesterday, i got to run a lot, i was literarily running forward to attack, then sprint back to defend. did that like about 7 or 8 times, in the end i just collapsed on the grass, ran out of energy. that's how bad my stamina is...

lunch today is like a lot of vegetables put together into a pancake sort of thing i think. it's supposed to be korean pizza, which is bloody awesome if you've ever had it. i had it in japan...not korea. weird.

coincidentally, that's the furthest country from here i've ever been to.

oh, and huang's awesome, he was sitting down using com on the train, then his stop and he just got up and stood in front of the door, forgetting his bag. i seriously think he would have left without his bag if we didn't tell him...

element manipulation.

you're lucky all my pissedness has dried up already, or you'll be getting an angry post.

i don't know what to say, today's lessons are basically pes + sleep + lesson. that's a very good combination i realise. but me and png fail de, we took half a day to beat russia. they're good okay, keep getting pass our defence. spain sucks in the game..

well, the most annoying thing was that it rained until like 130, when we started playing soccer. so i came home with wet socks and shoes again. stupid right. then afterwards i got pissed cos i felt like i should have gone home at 1. it's like epic waste of time. the match wasn't that good...to me probably, because i usually fail at almost everything. and it wasn't that funny either, my earphones broke, the left side fail again. and those that we bought werent that good, a bit muffled, but okay i suppose. well, 12bucks, what do you expect.

i'm not going to talk about how much i fail at everything cos you've heard that already, so i'll move along. and screw the bluetooth connection okay. i was winning hema 4-1 at halftime then the thing died. it's the first time i've been ahead of him in a long time okay. sheesh.

so i basically stoned/slept the whole train ride. until simei, then i didnt feel sleepy. was sleeping standing up...it's crazy. it's like 70% sleeping 30% awake mainly cos i was blasting paramore. then i walked home from the station...20mins. not bad. but my shoulder hurt. from the bag. and i was still listening to paramore. listened all the 3 albums haha. but didn't finish all i suppose. still nice.

and my grandma's evil okay. she stands there with some cover as a shield while the maid fries chicken wings and the oil hits her and she just laughs at her okay. that's damn jian.

ah whatever. she's had a tough life. they all have. it is true that our generation have a way easier life than them...even though they kill us with studies.

well, that part's true for me, most people can cope i suppose.

need to do journal and chemws2. i think i'll just do chem in school...do a bit at home ba. maybe.

and i can't find a damn journal article again. balls.

i'm tired. oh and alice gave lee 10bucks cos he won a pes match. a difficult one. that's stupid, i want the $10. i won the match too..zz. i think i'm only saying it's stupid cos i didn't get the money. yes i want it. it's ten bucks okay.

the rain's endless, i want an article.

i wish all this would just go away. and i wish i could have my old earphones back.

never happens.

and don't get me wrong, i want the mansion, it's not that i don't want, it's just that i dont think it'll work.

but we'll make it work.

somehow.

we're all screwed.

preferably i would put " FUCK" as the title, but i feel it's less vulgar putting it in the post itself. see, i'm trying.

okay, here's how it works. i get home at 8, freaking tired, stuff myself, and sit down to do work. and my eyes are already misty and closing.

so after a while i realise i can't do anything, and for some reason i can't do chem prac as well which is due first thing in the morning tmr cos for some reason kong is like pmsing and she's deducting marks if we hand up like 5 mins later. but the problem is i realise that when i did the experiment nothing happened, and they're not supposed to be soluble, but come on the DAMN FUCKING HYDROCARBONS ARE DAMN COLOURLESS, LIKE WATER. EVEN IF THEY DON'T MIX, HOW ARE WE SUPPOSED TO SEE THE LAYERS DAMMIT.

and, of course, i think i screwed up the experiment somehow, and didn't get the desired result. and then, some smarter person is going to be nice and try to tell me, but then i'll feel pissed off at them so i'll swear at them and tell them to go drown in goat's cheese or something. that's how the world works.

also, since i can't do anything for some damn reason ( which will be explained later), i spent the last 10mins or so cursing loudly, smashing my hand against the table and screaming for the damn violin noises to stop. also, i realise i can never spell against correctly. oh and DAMN YOU AMERICANS REALISE IS THE CORRECT SPELLING YOU DON'T UNDERLINE THE DAMN WORD WITH YOUR DARN RED DOTS UOQWEBFA9

okay. deep breath.

damn my mum just popped in and read this. i'm so screwed.

and....i still don't have chem results. i think i'll just hand in late tmr. can't be bothered anymore.

of course, if anyone wants to offer help, you are welcome.

right. and i do realise that usually when i bring home hw, i can never do it myself. i go completely clueless and i can't do anything so i get pissed. and there's nothing wrong with getting pissed okay, i just feel stupid. i'm really stupid, i can't do most of the things, usually i have to copy, or ask someone else to explain to me, or ask my parents. i mean, in class i feel i understand, but somehow i don't. and this means my future is dead okay. my results will be like shit which means i can't go to a good uni. but the thing is, even if i do go there i'll probably die, so no point. but the thing is that after my six years here in NUSH have to go NS, where i'll probably die again since i'm fat and can't run and other random shit. but back to the point. it's all screwed okay. the thing is, i want to go overseas but i don't want my parents to spend money on me cos it'll be like a hell lot if i do. and i can't win scholarship of course, i'm fail. and no one will care so i think i'll just spend my life rotting in this country and dying of some random disease which i probably contracted by eating too much cheesecake. i need to stop eating, i really do.

on a completely unrelated note, soccer today was good. i mean, i defended like shit but at least i scored. for once. it was mainly yos' fault...and i had luck. we still lost 3-2 though. whatever, the outcome doesn't matter, it's the path you take.

did i just say that? yes, it's what i'd like to believe, but in today's world, it's not. it's just results, ruthlessness, and the outcome that matters. what a terrible place.

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oh, and to anyone out there worried about transcripts, it is important, but you shouldn't start worrying about it yet. i mean, for weird people who worry about it from like kindergarden then you're weird okay. no offense. but, if you want to worry about it, do it in a positive way. try to get involved in more things, but not too much. actually, to me, basic CCA is already enough.

but, hey what do i know, i'm some kind of 15 year old who's opinions won't change the world. so don't listen to me, and listen to the rest of the world, or else you'll die in the future.

actually, aliens should just invade and wipe out everyone. that'll be easier. but, no, that means death so death = not good.

galifrey.

forgotten.

forgot to upload pics, if you're reading this, there is another post for 20th july below. read that too. thanks.

basically this is debb's brilliant thumbdrive which is basically just the usb technology. it's epic. and it went in the washing machine. so bow to it.

gosh i sound like jm.

and here's a comic. if only everyone's dad was like that.

if only.

blue curtain.

and, hello.

today's been a mixy and mashy day. well, kinda. lessons were okay...english we went west coast, got half of chi only, and bio was hot. i mean hot as in literarily HOT. cos we were doing the experiment, which is like damn simple btw, then have to off fan. so i sweated like all the way, my shirt was like wet after the class, as if i played soccer or something.

okay, maybe not that wet.

then break...soccer...we were pissed at first, and acc to lee i'm bitchy cos i didn't care about cheh wetting his shirt using a mop. hello, i'm pissed and trying to get the game started here?! so we played, yr 3s against yr 2s, battle of the -insert whatever word you want here-. then it's like me fiona alice jm just stone at the defensive place there, just in front of the goal, and kick away any loose balls. adithya super calm in the goal, he just picks up everything shot at him..and people who are damn serious about soccer are not good okay, they don't have fun like we idiots do, slacking around and talking crap. but the goal's stupid. and it's the hot guy's fault amazingly. he mis-kicked a clearance and it flew like up vertically for like 2904382m. whatever, just super high. and it came back down and some year 2 headed in, game end.

then we played again, those who had 1h break, then went westcoast, there's a bus lol. and it took the long way...went through so many roads...i bet you i can run there faster than it.

okay probably not. but still. the driver was some indian dude who reminded me of hema's dad. and i think he's like bored, when he heard us groaning about putting on seatbelts ( yes, there are seatbelts.) , he came and shouted at us lol. it's like steadily getting louder....but murali's probably still louder. and the seatbelts are fail, i had to stretch the one in the normal seats to get it to fit, back row can't fit at all. they must hate me.

so like almost everyone bought subway....then went back to school. oh yes loo damn you for losing my little black piece of thing that covers my itouch. i'll probably be mad at him for a week, even though it's probably not his fault. i think it just got sick of living there and dropped out. on a completely unrelated note, i am so not lending it out for long periods of time unless it's to anyone in 07 cos it's close.

by that i mean 307. it's close to my class, just beside. yes, physical position. and, of course, hema, as per usual. actually what i say here probably won't happen. i'm too easily convinced. it's like, they say some reason and i feel guilty, and i feel i'm a jerk for not lending them. sigh.

i need to learn to be firmer. but sometimes i feel that if people are too firm they're not fun-loving and nice anymore.

don't know.

okay, then after that it's chinese ( which is basically nothing much), and soccer for around 30mins, even though it felt like 15. the wind was epic, you can read about it on fiona's blog...you should know. so i'm not going to say again.

chinese lc was crap, we went in at 215, plus i was pissed at first, started barking at random people. but kianwee made me happier, haha the guy he's awesome, he's like a distant friend but still awesome. and we went in at 220 the paper start at 3. so 240-3 is like sleep. and it's so nice, they play super nice classical music mainly cos it's 92.4 fm. jian de la they, put the lc thing on the radio. and i don't like the indian woman who is the invigilator who keeps talking on the mike. her accent is just...wrong. sorry.

i realise i'm wasting hw time by doing this, i cut into it by an hour already.

never mind. let's continue.

where was i? oh yes, after that we went to soccer again ==/ but this time the weather's nice also, no rain, not much wind. but it's cold, like winter in foreign countries. that's like singapore's winter, which is 5x weaker but still awesome. so we left at around 440 and went home met debb fiona nicole along the way blah blah blah beat dion in pes 3 times blah blah blah.

oh and lee is addicted to pes now, amazing. he should play with loo sometime. jm managed to own him on the bus...just run pass everyone and score. and somehow lee missed a penalty...

on a completely unrelated note, the singapore flyer got struck by lightning, muslims have been praying in the wrong direction, RIM hates apple (mainly cos the iPhone just outsells any phone they make), and arsenal and spurs have banned vuvuzelas in their stadiums. smart, i say.

those will probably be the only quiet matches all season. all though i'm not sure if i get to watch it or not, i dont think so, cos i think starhub lost the rights as well. they're fail, lost f1, now this....

oh birmingham did that too. smart.

arsenal should just sell eduardo, and play rosicky more often in place of walcott..just saying.

i know you don't care.

chem prac tmr, and some random talk again. i think maybe i'll skip and go home.

at least it's in audi. and the sports nutrition ppl get to skip...dammit. they have makeup..

stay the lights.

shita[spir-3qra

of course, it's like, tonight, i plan to do this, this and this.

then i sit down and i realise for some reason i don't know how to do anything.

great. just great.

i'm hopeless.

darkness.

it's early morning in spain now.

just another one of those useless but utterly fascinating facts.

anyway, i got home early. earlier than usual anyway. so i think i'll post and slack now and do work after dinner.

speaking of work, there's chem ws, zuoye and english compre to do.

and tmr's chinese lc. should be okay i suppose....i reckon i'll sleep through the repeating passages part again. like i did today.

i'm on the oatmeal again. it's freaking awesome haha. the person who started it is a genius.

something just crawled down my leg. what.

never mind. i shall retract my legs and keep them on the chair.

well, only the left one, cos there really isn't enough space.

today wasn't a bad day, i suppose. pe was okay, just that i sweated a lot. again. as always. it's getting annoying, my whole shirt is wet even before we start the damn lesson. but i wore the thing until like 3...it dried by then. then i changed back into formal and went home.

i just saw hayley's comet she waved...

the lessons okay bah, no english haha. so nice. 2h break man. so went to take penalties. we failed, again. then went back to class, got wallet, went down to buy the polo shirt..my mum's crazy. but heck, it's her money i suppose, i just buy and bring back for her, make her happy.

math was the usual it's okay it's boring what why do you do it like this oh i get it oh chia asks me something i answer him he daos me and continues staring at me so i shout louder and get it correct but he still hates me cos i can't really do much then fall asleep for the last ten minutes then the moment he says lesson ends i'm wide awake.

want. sashimi. we. must. go. out. and. eat. sushi. buffet.

the good thing about sushi is that it's not actually that fattening. and plus it's fish, so it's healthy.

reasons to make me less guilty for eating.

although tonight's dinner is some potatoes i think.

po-tay-to.

imagine that in super big font. blogger can't do that big fonts.

actually i think you can copy it in from ms word but i'm not bothered since my ms word takes super long to launch so you can just imagine it. plus, it probably looks better in your imagination.

anyway.

actually blogger probably can do bigger fonts. and you'll be laughing at me right now saying i'm noob.

that's a stupid word. really.

so we were watching happytreefriends on justin's com during the breaks. it's damn bloody, but fun to watch. and cg's sad, he's never seen that before...then he was like hyperventilating cos he loved it so much.

yeah.

hmm. what else is there to say.

oh yes for once we didn't play soccer. sorry loo. he wanted to play but most of us didnt want to and he can't play tmr...it's sad. sorry! otherwise it was not bad, we went to canteen to eat random food until like 345 , then left. lee was trying free kick challenge, he fails at it, but loo is pro haha. he tried it on the way home, he went pl. he just blitzed through everything...at kick 14 or 15 le haha. and he's using almunia somemore.

i guess there are some things some people are better at, and some things they are not so good at.

i still don't know what i'm good at exactly...sigh. maybe there is nothing.

but no, there has to be something. there can't be nothing. that means i'll be useless in the future.

also, i hate those people who always go like : you're trying to do this right? haha, forget it, you'll never make it. no, don't deny it, i know you're trying, but don't try, it'll never happen.

it's stupid okay. those people are like people who really should go jump off a cliff. with no parachute. or cord. why bring other people down? it doesn't help yourself, so why do it? isn't it better to encourage people? balls.

and there's a compulsory talk on wed again. we'll probably just go there and talk crap again.

also, loo broke my earphones when he threw them on the ground just now ==/ but can be fixed back, and the music on the way home was awesome okay. it's like shuffle awesomeness, all the songs nice, and i discovered a lot of songs i used to listen to that are freaking nice.

the earphones arent that spoilt, it's just....i think it'll die soon.

and i'm sorry, hema for depriving you of your music. i think i'll get you earphones for your birthday.

i'm pretty sure he doesn't read this.

glory, the skies have cleared.

run, don't walk, the sky is falling through. don't talk, tonight is so confused...

dry.

i think that's the word.

getting that sinking feeling of i can't do anything well again. and i'm pissed at myself. okay, correction, i was. cos was playing bmt then the shuttlecock keep hitting the frame. i mean like 90% of the time it hit the frame okay. magnetic attraction?

i'm supposed to be lunching now. but i think i'll finish this post first.

now i'm like emotionless again. and it doesn't help that i'm listening to valentine's day. i need stuff to do, i'm better when i'm occupied. but when i grow up and start working i'll probably regret saying that. but the present is the present.

i hate this, it's like i'm doing things that i really don't want to do, but i'm forcing myself to do it cos if not there's nothing to do. it's just not right. everything.

and i'm dreading school again tmr. i think it'll be a disaster. and chinese lc on tue..

can't believe it's so soon.

do people of the opposite sex really make better friends? i don't know, it's probably not true for me, i suppose. but sometimes it's hard for people of the same sex to just talk. sometimes. with several people. some people there's no problem.

but times have changed, everything is super complicated. it's like one false move, and it will collapse.

also, i talked to a cockroach just now. success haha. i've been wanting to do that for a very long time..

we've all changed, we will all change, but what do we change into?

it used to be the centre of our world, but now no one gives a damn.

i'm in that kind of wandering mood again.

it's horrible, it's like i don't know what to do, i don't want to do anything, i'm uncomfortable. uncomfortable as in i feel this body is not mine, my back feels off, and it's just not right.

so i'm trying to do chem pre lab, but it's like i won't know any of it unless i google it, so i'm here.

an excuse to blog.

i feel like all my posts this week is just making anyone who reads my blog depressed. but i still feel like crap and i keep telling myself not to eat outside the three meals. but it doesn't work.

actually usually i just eat twice per day...breakfast and lunch is kinda linked together. i don't know.

and i don't know what to listen to either. nothing sounds nice. like really, it feels as if everything's plain and dull. the best thing is like whatcha say. currently. but that song isn't even nice to begin with. ahh i'm going nuts.

i think someone sucked out all my emotions and thoughts.

or maybe i'm being possessed by aliens.

i'm thinking of putting THEY WILL BURN! for the last question of chem pre-lab, dunno what kong will do.

Q : why it is not allowed to dispose organic compounds directly into the sink? give two reasons.

A : THEY WILL BURN!

wait. i failed. they said give two reasons. i knew something like that would happen.

and kong's english failed again, it should be why is it, not why it is. not that it's bad, it's nice to see mistakes in the questions, makes life more bearable, knowing that teachers are only human.

the tap tap server's dead again....i need to dl the new free tracks, but can't connect, dunno what's wrong. it's like i can load everything except that, zz.

espace was dead for like 5 min just now, i wanted to see if the organic chem naming thingy was up yet, turns out it's not.

i think i'll just type as i do the chem, since i have nothing better to do.

you are the thunder and i am the lightning, and i love the way that you know who you are and to me it's exciting...when you know it's meant to be. everything comes naturally (x about 9012348).

now that was just plain stupid.

aromatic = benzene ring? never knew that..

it's confusing, there's so many things to rmb in organic chem, especially the structural groups and the naming..

okay, now the wind's so strong that the curtain's flying, i can't even see the keyboard. typical.

and now it's gone..

i need to stop eating those lemon crackers...they aren't really that nice.

thumbs up for national day? or not.

what is this year's ndp song anyway...i have no clue.

it's like they havent chosen one or something.

it's weird having wq sms me then i realise it's loo...who's being stalker-ish and all.

i realise i'm just googling and copying everything. but if not otherwise i can't do, cos i'm not bothered to trace the thing by the nomenclature thingy we learnt.

i still feel like i'm cheating.

i've said too much already, this is like a post which flows with time, not an instantaneous one though..

have a nice day.

sonic pulse.

today will be slow, i think....nothing much to do. there's only suibi and english journal..

and then i think i'll just slack around playing tap tap. and i'll watch doctor who again.

there's a new episode out.

so.

i need itunes 9.2.

someone help me.

i think i should just tell my dad. he doesn't really do anything on weekends anyway. he just sits on the bed and uses com/watch tv. the whole time.

except when he's out driving people around to tuitions and stuff.

got guitar later...sian. dont want to go. maybe i'll leave my phone at home so that cyrus can't get his hands on it. what a douche.

i wish i could time-lock it. or place it there, one second out of sync with the whole universe.

okay i should stop dreaming about shit that will never happen.

i need a new bag.

and my throat's clogged up with phlegm.

that is a very weird spelling. i always thought it was flam. or flame.

i'd better go, this thing will lag once i sync my itouch, which i havent done for months.

i wonder how hostel will be like. i'd die, there's no aircon. and the world's getting hotter by day.

the thing is, we'll probably soccer until like 9 on fridays. wait. no. we have to go home on fridays.

whatever. wonder what's loo doing with wq's phone now. haha.

later?/

-edit- omg awesome website. http://theoatmeal.com/

gogogo. trust me.

bye.

valiant.

i'm tired. bah.

today was okay i suppose, but the game sucked. i can't do anything. i'm useless at everything.

this is pointless. i think i'm going to fail in life.

and i think i complain too much. it's like, little things happen, and i can't help complaining. and especially when people are talking about their school life, lessons, or anything which is better than what i have, i immediately feel annoyed and jealous. it's a character flaw, it's like i can't be happy for other people. but then i suppose no one can, it's like only in movies and books. only people like adrian and i dunno who can. i mean, they're like so nice, they help out in everything, they're happy all the time.

heck. i'm boring you right. and depressing you too.

my sis going NE show tmr...p5 must go. sad. and i have to sync the black ipod nano for her to she can listen. lazy.

need. itunes. 9.2

on a happier note, i shall talk about today. it started raining like halfway through geog, about 830 i think. well, at least the heat went away. morning was hot okay. like really hot. come to think of it now, every morning is hot..

so it's like geog, math, mug chem, chem, chinese, one hour break. i used fifteen mins of it to finish compo. what kind of title is that la. yi wei ling wo -blank- de lao shi. i mean, wth? i'd rather he just give us some fixed topic. i think i went off topic...i put shang xin in the blank and said cos the guy's too good so i'm sad that i can't have him as my teacher.

gosh that is rather gay..never mind.

then after that i ate, they were trying to hurry me up, and dion eats super slow haha. he was like slow motion, damn funny. then we netballed, quite fun, it's like me cheh jm dion jordan against fiona jen lee junwei. then phy...okay bah. it's quite easy i suppose. but i still reckon the woman hates me. after that break every class has break except for 05 and 06...last time only 08 01 and 03. so they all congregated in my class to do zuowen, while the rest of us play tap tap /pes at the back. mostly pes. i and cheh got owned by dion, somehow dion keeps losing to jordan, and yx fail haha, he lost 5-0 to someone i think. but he first timer la haha, 5-0 not bad le.

that sounded evil. just to clarify, i'm not being evil okay. i mean it.

and i always think evil should be spelt as evill. when i msn, i always type that. it just looks better. evil is too short.

then after that media. total bs la, i mean we went lib wait for a while, then adrian called and my phone died and we couldnt answer cos syed was talking and it was quiet, and my phone refused to on -.- so after that lee called back and we were supposed to go audi i think. so we went there, then was about to do the pa crap then li wei called lee, then we're supposed to go back to lib cos got some video editing course. the girls were kinda pissed, but i heck care, i prefer the course actually. can use final cut pro haha. in the end it was us guys at the lib stoning with the entire video group and watching epic trailers. they jian de, cut the toy story one then put in twilight speech...so it's like twilight, but toy story video. and everything fits okay. oh and there was this one about this guy frying eggs and bacon. looks damn nice, made me hungry. i suppose i'll just bear this six weeks, shouldnt be that terrible, since can use final cut pro.

life is screwed. i want to join photo.......balls.

and there's a new film. inception. it's about dreams. the music is composed by hans zimmer, so it can't be that bad.

and the lost symbol's coming out next year. i know fiona won't like it...

where was i. talked abt soccer already...

the world's really unfair. i mean, the people who are lousy at something should be allowed to practise, play, and improve. society these days takes the chance away from them. it's like, if you're not good, you don't play. that really sucks okay.

and yes i'm referring to sports. mostly.

also, i hate people who shout criticism in the game. i mean, you should shout encouragement right. i realise i do that a lot in soccer...maybe i'm just nuts. no one else does that.

no, i'm just trying to convince myself i'm not that bad as i seem. at everything.

there's no nice music tonight. maybe it's cos i lent my earphones to hema. again.

look out for the shooting stars.

follow up/.

i think i'll go eat first, post later. heh.

but i may be too tired later.

whatever. food will give me strength.

later.

soya bean.

i'm tired. but i'm still posting cos it doesnt feel right without posting. initially i planned not to post but i'm still here.

wishing chia was dead so we wouldn't have math was wrong, i'm sorry. but ji same, terminal illness...that's like a slow death.

phy was terrible, the thing is damn hard to read, and somehow we messed it up so i handed in wrong results. and you have to do like 03219483268 calculations. and then found out initial readings wrong so all 3 tables wrong. just great.

math was okay..time flew pass...

i still need to finish up math assn and the chi paper tmr. oh yes tmr doing zuowen, need gaozhi, that reminds me.

erm, well, bye i suppose. off to bed now.

don't listen to the people who try to bring you down./

blink.

hello, blah blah it's been a so so day. blah blah blah blah.

i've had to sneak off to use the com cos i'm supposed to be doing chinese. i figure i'll spend ten mins posting here then run back.

then again, it'll probably turn into thirty.

my typing's not smooth again...bad sign.

and i think i screwed up my geog journal again. didn't really talk about the graph for the first question. and what's wrong with all the teachers. isn't the deadline supposed to be like six that day and not one or early in the morning? sheesh.

speaking of that, all the lessons are going wrong in school okay. i don't like anything. english is boring. even though lam's nice. there isn't really anything to teach. and i fall asleep. i fall asleep in everything nowadays okay. come to think of it, the only thing which i don't fall asleep in is chinese. amazing. i'm trying to be more hardworking towards chinese at the moment, cos i don't really hate it that much at the rest. i mean, i like chem, i like it a lot, but i don't score. it's like i do everything ok i suppose, but i'm cursed not to score. and just now had to redo chem ws somemore. i got 13.5. so have to go to analytical lab and basically copy/correct/rephrase the whole ws. took one hour okay, i missed soccer and nb. terrible. but at least in the end got satisfaction. kong said i write too much, but everything's there, so got 18. which is the max score when you redo.

i have a feeling everyone got that.

and yeo was there also. he was at like q8 when i was halfway, jian de. but i left before him...kong kept sending him back to correct...

anyway, enough about that. so after that soccered. we lost...mostly on purpose. so we could leave and plus fiona had tuition. then on the bus we were throwing bottles at loo cos he said png is a douche. how could he, jordan has much better character than a lot of people, i just hate him when he beats me in everything.

and there was this creepy woman on the train who kept staring at us. i think i was the only one who noticed and got affected...she asked loo which school we were from then loo tell her clementi xP. but after that she kept staring...so annoying.

it's like she's pedo or sth. argh that thought's creepy.

do they do that? go on random trains and buses staring at people?

tmr got phy, i hate phy, but at least prac, so won't be so bad. then english essay test. die...i haven't written essay in so long. then 2.5h math. ahhhh die. it's so damn boring man. i can't believe how much chia can talk. i mean, he's nice and all, but he talks too much. it's damn annoying. i like him better when he's going through examples...it's better. but 2.5h ahhh still die.

maybe i'll sleep. like i do in everything. geog sucks cos it's painfully boring, phy is like boring + i don't understand anything. i mean it's like it seems as if i understand but when it's time to do the examples i'm like what is this where do you put this value why is the velocity negative why the hell do we have to learn all this argh. and why would people actually want to calculate how much energy is lost in a car crash. seriously! i've never seen csi do that, and they're extreme bastards, so why would you want to? i mean, those people isolate fibers and they go and narrow it down to one shop then they go ask the owner who bought that shirt and they catch the guy. why would anyone care?

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okay that was a bit out of topic. also, bio's okay i suppose but same, it's boring. everything makes me go to sleep. even chem...with kong's voice i also can sleep. dunno why i'm so tired, something wrong with the system i think. i mean my body system.

at least chinese can talk to jw about epic stuff, and try to decipher what's wj saying. it's quite fun sometimes actually. but shit friday gotta write zuowen i'm gonna get 30+ again balls.

yes, balls.

this is what comes of leaving your email to die and redirecting everything. amazing. i bet you it goes on for like 5 pages.

cool right. err click to enlarge i dunno why pics show up so small on the posts.

i think there's something i didn't say. but i have to go, so it'll have to wait.

uhm, bye.

oh yes i remembered what i wanted to say. most of you already know this. about the giant laser gun which can kill anyone anywhere because it works by instantaneous wormhole generation! and i'm thinking of adding a time option...then you can be killed like yesterday.

that'll be weird.

now is the real goodbye.

skylights on the horizon.

well, today was....tiring.

in both a mentally and physically kind of way.

i realise i'm very sleepy this week. yesterday i slept a lot, during english and when waiting for oral. today slept during bio, even though i tried to keep myself awake. and during the train ride from paya lebar to simei. oh yeah i met my mum there and took taxi with her. dion was chasing 5...haha. he takes 5? never knew.

then again, 5 is kind of a changi bus.

i'm sunburnt. sheesh. neck's itching. the sun just now was murder...we played with year 2s though. loo epic, alice backpassed to him then it hit his foot and went over his foot and went in. haha. then after that we kept scoring cos they failed at keeping the ball in their own penalty area, lee and dion just rush there and steal the ball and score. they're weird also, see them coming didn't even use hand, just continue trying to play around. ah whatever/.

today is my sis's birthday. 13th of july. and she celebrated it by sleeping until like six haha. smart woman.

then after that we moved to field, took penalties. before that loo kept hitting the crossbar from super far away, he pro la. then i think only scored like 4 shots. we must have taken like 20+ shots, the six of us. me cheh alice lee loo dion. nothing goes in...they just go straight at the keeper. then lee saved my shot to the right...gay la he, just run like crap then use his leg.

that's enough about soccer, it's getting boring, really.

we were talking abt phy on the way home. cos i didn't know how to play. so dion played my itouch, fiona taught me, and loo and galen argued about q4 until kallang. cos galen had to leave. loo said it was the coming together of two beautiful minds and great ideas or something like that.

the rest after that you know. anyway, i think my geog journal is too short. it's like a paragraph short of a page. i think i'll die cos half the time i'm crapping and talking about irrelevant stuff.

at least i have stuff to do later. got phy and chinese...today chi damn slack, just ting li only. but i failed at that...half correct only. stupid junwei la...he was making me laugh by laughing at every single beeping sound. you know, after they read the question then there's a beeping sound...yeah, that one. he said he'd laugh during the real exam...thank goodness i'm not sitting with him for that one. probably not. but i think i'll still laugh.

oh jordan smsed me. he must have found his phone...he told me he lost it just now but he's certain it's in his house.

like my calculator.

shit.

oh thank goodness it was in my drawer all along.

and my sis is still sleeping. terrible.

i don't know how to encourage people anymore. it's like, if people come to me with a problem, i'll offer solutions but i don't seem to be able to help anymore. it's like, i've suddenly become less helpful. oh and i was very loud today...i shouldn't be. i'm not a girl. why am i suddenly loud. sigh.

these things just happen randomly.

kanye west?

never mind.

oh and don't buy iphone 4. at least not now. the thing has an antenna problem..poor reception. wait for apple to fix it...

forget it, this post is too long already. i shall say the vital thing then go.

okay, i don't get why chia has to move the math lesson. i mean, we have oral, so what? just have the lesson and let me miss it. so on monday, i waited 2h in the lib doing nothing, then screwed up the oral, and find out on thursday i have extra 1h of math? and it's extra on top of extra okay.

so it's like 2.5h of math. and there's 2h of phy on that day. i might as well go jump off a cloud and land in a river of fairies.

oh and i beat junwei in pes during the break haha. so nice. germany 5-4 portugal. all while the class was in a noisy mess and people were screaming and shouting. and shini pro, she slept through almost all of that, like 40mins i think. on the back cabinet with her bag as a pillow. and dion, abc and felix created a bow and arrow using a chair. at first they use table, put rubber band then fire some paper plane. it's amazingly strong. really strong.

crazy people.

well, bye.

4114 points to level 83 ! or 84. can't rmb.

escape reality.

today was a horrid day.

well, actually i'm kinda tired and want to sleep. but i still need to do chinese.

1. pe sucked. got smashed in the face with a bball by either dion or jordan.

2. because of the above incident, my specs got bent like crap. and the plastic nosepiece came off.

3. oral was terrible. had to wait like 2h and then i screwed it up. the woman was bitchy, plus i talked about the wrong thing. and my reading sucked. also, i slept during the waiting time and justin told me i snored super loudly. well, this time i don't really care. do you know how uncomfortable it is to sleep in those library chairs? and it sucks ok, cant do anything at all, just sit there. cant even talk. not that i had anyone to talk to in the first place. so slept lor. whatever.

then after that i went audi to find the rest, apparently i missed the muse one and had to endure the i-dunno-how-to-describe korean one. then we left, they wanted to play soccer but failed. so we left at 5. i went to get my specs fixed, reached home at like seven. tired, shoulders hurt.

right now my eyes hurt more so i'm gonna chiong chinese then sleep bye.

i am going away for a while, i'll be back don't try to follow me.

that's how i feel now.

i hate myself.

i eat too much. it's like, i get hungry too fast. it's not normal right. then when i exercise, i don't burn much fats off. it's hopeless.

and what's with the weather? specifically, the sun. i mean, why the heck does it have to be shining like 209% all the time. doesn't it need to rest.

sheesh.

i did geog then english, both done but i feel they're both crappy. and i think i'll get the geog teacher to pass me a class list. i think it's the easier way.

and oral tommorow. it'll probably screw up asd[prtja[0m w]-w whow the bloody hell do you spel.ll tmr.

sorry.

i hate weekends.

i want 207. i don't want this. it's too different, too foreign.

i'm going to die for pe tmr again. per normal. he'll probably be like, okay class, it's time to run! and then i'll die after like 400m. oh it's so natural. other people can go like 2+ km without stopping, why can't i?

why. that's the question isn't it. i eat too much i think. that's the problem. but i can't stop myself. maybe i shall trap myself in some glass box and abstain from food. i realise i don't feel guilty on weekdays, cos i only take 2 meals. but weekends...die.

world cup soon, wonder what will happen. aiya, heck, it doesn't affect my life.

but i still care. it's strange huh.

it's my dad's birthday today btw. and it's stupid, i felt like i have nothing to do and it's super hot. and somemore cant play soccer in the house cos of some bitch --. so play in room. stupid right. then sweat. more stupid. and we're like supposed to go downstairs and play soon. but it's nearly seven. fine not nearly. then my parents just randomly go out and dad wants to go to IMM for dinner so they do that and abandon the rest of us. frankly, at this point, i don't really care what's for dinner anymore./ weekdays are better, there's emotions. doing nothing triggers bad emotions. and hatred all over the place. and it's warm.

then my internet died at like noon so i was like using the com stupidly without internet. i dont know how i managed it, dunno what i was doing. shit.

well, at least i can skip math tmr. don't have to listen to chia. on the other hand, he's teaching inverse functions which i need to do q4 of assn.

it goes on and on and on.

the journey version isn't as nice as the glee one. actually the family guy one is nicer. i know, big surprise.

it's always better when amateurs sing. the glee one is too messy. too many words.

haha my first sms today is from voice mail. i used to sms loads last time. now i wonder how people do it...it's mentally exhausting.

just some comics which you don't find funny.

and, a word of advice, you don't want to be like this guy. unless you're the sort with no fear. not like me, cos i'm afraid of heights and i don't like the feeling of falling. i've experienced it before, in dreams and during my swimming test. but second one's like 3m only. still it's scary. but that one's heck, just jump. and the dream one's counted okay, idc what you say. it feels so real.

so yeah.

i am so looking forward to december.

oh whenever the next ice age is.

no, i'm only kidding. but you don't get my humour, do you.

oh, and does anyone think frank lampard and miroslav klose look similar?

no? maybe it's just me.

i couldn't fit them together ==.

ooh the text's purple.

hosting rights.

oh right, i forgot to complain about starhub and singtel. i mean, why can't they just both show the damn sports? then i can watch world cup and epl and f1 and anything i want to watch. now i can't even watch f1 okay. and this weekend silverstone somemore. balls la.

it's like iphone. i rmb i got annoyed that time cos it was taking forever to come here and apple are liars cos they say omg, it's so cheap, $199 only! yeah, for us customers using at&t. and for everyone else, it's like 03924879036 dollars.

i'm too lazy to erase the zero.

but i suppose none of that matters now.

bye again.

untitled.

i wish i had speakers that aren't spoilt.

well, they're not really spoilt. they just distort the sound when i go above 50%. i remember i used to stick at 35% but now i have to go to double that...it just shows how much my hearing has deteriorated.

also, my typing's not smooth now, fingers don't flow like they usually do. i think it's a sign. that i shouldn't blog. people will end up hating this post cos it's not really happy, it's like moody and sad.

and i'm not. currently i'm just emotionless. actually i am a little lonely, i guess.

i can't believe i'm bearing my emotions to the world. even the teachers can see this. they track our blogs right. stalkers.

today was extremely unproductive. so far i've done 1 question of phy and found the article for english. havent done the journal though. and i'm tired. but i'm still blogging instead of typing the journal.

at least i managed to finish the northern lights. it's not bad, i suppose. then played soccer with my bro in the house again. i won 16-11 i think. it's epic, the ball bounces all over the place..then dinner. mushroom + roasted garlic soup. damn nice haha. especially with bread. i had roasted garlic before...on the cruise, but that one was too strong. this one just right, it's campbell. no wonder la. campbell soups are awesome okay. but the powder ones suck. they just taste like milk. and i detest milk. just the taste. that's why i usually have my cereals dry. not that i usually eat cereal. gosh, i havent had that for quite a while.

then walk to guitar at cc, i was walking super slowly and moodily. is that even a word? usually i walk super fast, cos can feel the wind, plus it's nicer. but today was like trudging, lagging, whatever word to describe it. it's like something inside me died. didn't even bring ipod to listen lor. so i went toilet find cyrus, he stomachache again, so i just stand outside the cubicle smsing three people at once and enjoying the fan. yes, and the people coming in give me weird looks...as if i'm some sick guy who likes being in the toilet. i mean, it's not that bad, doesn't really smell, and it's quite clean, plus there's a nice fan. why not? sheesh.

i keep thinking vacuum can solve all the cleaning problems, i mean, the mentality is that you just pass everything over with that thing and it sucks all the dirt in. then clean le. but apparently it's not....some stuff are sticky. that reminds me, i need to clean this keyboard, it feels dirty.

also, the whole com suddenly shifted like an inch towards me. bah, the table's small anyway.

i'm tired.

guitar was okay i suppose, the guy was crapping about his hatred of snakes again, he say want to throw sulphur at them. crazy. it's obvious he's only imagining that idea in his head, like all my ideas.

well, err, bye. i suppose.

anyone feeling lonely out there?

well, if you are, here's a hug.

-hug-

okay that was just lame. goodbye.

forbidden rose.

morning, i woke up at 10, slept from 3-10, crazy. i was watching tv, first top gear, then doctor who, then family guy...i know, i'm bored. but it's like, no motivation to sleep, i didn't really feel tired. eyes started dying at around 245 though.

i'm supposed to be doing english journal, but don't really know what article to use. any article can right? as long as it's controversial...and i'm hungry. but i need to finish this off first. and i'm thinking maybe i should just go read northern lights...

and i can't do phy at all, i realised. only the first question, which is super easy. and i don't really have anyone to ask..

and then there's subway. is meatball marina good? i never tried it. but the picture looks nice.

and no, in case you're wondering, my lunch isnt subway. it's leftover chicken from last night.

you people are always making assumptions. but that's human nature i suppose.

seeya.

happy feet.

it's a penguin show. i think.

today was hecked, tiring, but satisfying xP.

i dont know why i just used xP....i usually don't use any of those.

anyway, morning, woke up at like 835 i think. used com, edited the blog template, that's why it's different now. a change for the better. it's brighter, more organised.

then took 359 to ws to meet mum and bro for lunch. ate at macs, then they went to school, and i went library. just took random books...borrowed 4. last time i used to be super picky about books, today it's completely different, i just took those i felt like taking...super fast got 4 books..

then bus-ed back home, use com a bit more, then go to school to fetch sis. walked back, then took 359 to the lib again, met jm win and brian. brian went after like 20mins, he borrowed one star wars book, then went back to msn/ do project? actually i think he's msning for the project, but that's besides the point. then we ate food, slacked a bit, talked, did a little work (i did like 2 questions of math and 1 of phy? super fail). oh and we had a drawing competition. and we were talking about who was in love with who..

shit i'm itchy all over.

then we went back cos it was getting too cold, and edwin gave me his peanut butter cookie to eat. from subway. it's quite nice actually, dunno why i didn't like it last time...

people change. there's no reason for it, they just do.

actually there is a reason, but it's boring to hear. so just stick with that.

so we went back, then slacked at the 359 bus stop waiting for people lol. apparently jm sat next to guanze's bro on the bus, and we didn't even notice. met kwan hao, win pleaded with him to come with us to jog but he didn't want to haha. waited for huzaifi, he came all the way from bartley lol. apparently he went school gym then came here. he actually came....so then we dropped off our bags, i swapped phones with win so he could play pes and i left his at my house to charge. then we went downstairs to walk/run/play with the pull up bar. i can reach the thing without even tiptoeing == it's stupid. but i still can't do a single pullup haha. so walked like 75%, ran like 25%. some woman was blasting alejandro while walking....i realised i haven't downloaded it yet. then got bored, then we got yj's parents to convince her to come down haha. walked huz home, so epic, it's damn near la. but had to walk damn long cos it's in tamp and across the highway. and the bridge is totally in the wrong place. and there's a giant field which is creepy at night...

this is the route we took.

just click to enlarge, it took me a while to get this up cos i'm noob at drawing lines on images. i used a new word. change is imminent. nvm. anw, the starting point is my house, at the blue circle there cos i used itouch to get this...actually i realised i should have used google maps ahh never mind. this is google maps but smaller version and less powerful and i had to screenshot it. so, ending point is the house of huzaifi, you can see that because of the location of the bridge, we had to detour like siao, if not can just cross there. we can't just fly across the highway, sadly.

oh we left like ten ten i think. got home ten thirty. mum was happy, weirdly. dad got home later than me though...he went to some $3000 per table dinner...stupid SIA. he said all the people all got too much money. they should donate to charity more. that shall be my goal in life. i shall make loads of money and donate enough to charity for me to live like a normal life. actually i'll build the mansion with the futsal court and restaurant first.

oh there's a few knock knock jokes i learnt. but this is the most epic.

knock knock.

who's there?

your.

your who?

your mum.

okay maybe it's not really that funny. funny to me though.

i think i'm going off soon, tired, need to recharge my batteries, heh.

oh crap now i'm using heh.

today is a day of change.

oh btw my bro is totally pmsing now cos of something he did to the tv then my mum scolded him.

by the lights, by the silvery moon.

thalia.

i don't really feel like posting.

it's like, i felt like posting yesterday, but i couldn't, cos i was doing work. then now today i'm saving the work for tmr then i don't feel like posting.

the thing that annoys me is that, the work i did yesterday wasn't even that substantial. so i should have posted yesterday.

ah heck. maybe it's the lack of music. i -pause-

-10secs later-

don't stop believing started playing haha. it's psychic.

actually the download just finished so it opened in itunes and dragged me over to the other window, hence the pause.

i find that i like piano music, like some specific pieces, they're so nice, but i'm mostly annoyed by it. especially when anyone in my family is involved with the playing.

by the way, if you didn't know, my mum teaches piano, so....i hear it a lot.

that's one thing me and my dad have in common. we find it noisy.

i think he's home now.

haha the posting mood is back. see it's the music.

it's always the music.

am i putting too many spaces? i think so.

lol my dad wants to read my blog. i told him i swear...and he laughed. someone's in a good mood today...

i just realised my blog is ugly. as in, not that ugly...just not that nice. the main problem is that the column containing the posts is too narrow. it's like seriously narrow. i need to change it soon. too tired to do it tonight though...maybe tmr night?

having an extra day is so nice..oh and give me suggestions. like colours and patterns and stuff.

haha it's like i'm addressing probably 2 people right now.

you don't get it do you. never mind.

it's like jokes which i laugh for ages about, and the thing is to everyone else it's not even funny. it's like the up joke jm said yesterday. you know the movie, up? there's that boy right. he's like, " one day, a dead squirrel knocks on your door. it's funny cos the squirrel is dead! " somehow i find it super funny...laughed for like minutes and i couldn't even repeat the whole thing to fiona, in the end she started laughing also..

the talk was nice. kinda. the pixar one yesterday. i mean, no one listened to the guy i think, we just talked and talked...then after that this epic match at the futsal court with like 70 people...we expanded to track and moved the goals back...not bad at all. we should do that more often. it's just that it's super difficult to score.

gosh, my speakers are terrible. hopefully, when i expand the column, this will look shorter than it actually is.

i really say too much...i just type all my thoughts here. but that's good i suppose. it's one of the reasons i do this. release all my feelings into the world. anyway, i just got back from the fridge and i found out we have this giant container of nacho cheese sauce. you know that sauce they give you when you buy the super ex nachos at cinemas? yes, that. it's so awesome. but we're out of strawberry and rasberry yoghurt, only got cherry and pineapple left. pineapple's okay i think. but cherry always tastes like medicine. always.

i completely lost my train of thought again. hold on a second...

oh yes. today was okay i suppose. busy. but very sleepy. i was sleeping throughout phy...can't stand it. she released us 30mins early though, impulse nothing to say de. then i ate my pita bread egg cheese ham cucumber thing. and did chem. tried to anyway. then lee came over, we talked a bit, then he was like. " fk yj!" , cos i was telling him it's all wrong ( wrongly), then yj was standing right there, damn funny la. then after that we netballed for around 10 mins, won 2-1. i scored the winner haha. so nice.

english was quite fun, debate, they dragged me in to replace dion at the last moment...i think i did okay bah. but we should win lor, you can't sue people if you didn't apply for copyright..

math was more of sleeping + doing chem. in the end still do till 130, cos i stupidly thought CO2 is polar. was thinking of h2O..after that netballed again. not bad, just that we kept losing so we did epic stuff....i used my legs like 3 times, too used to soccer le. especially that time to take the ball away from nikki. but in the end still failed, hema threw the ball at me and i just kept on running. oh yeah, then i accidentally slapped jm. sorry, my back was turned...didn't know what was going on.

then we went down to canteen, wait for lee to finish oral, then went to soccer. stupid la, the court taken by the year4s again, then the pe teacher said we can't use the field, even though they didnt touch it at all. there's like 4 ppl over there shooting? what? and they were like slacking. so we ended up stupidly shooting against the grandstands...the ball went behind like 7 times. or more. then johnny and david came to talk to us...they were quite nice actually, we were laughing at hema not being able to understand chinese. in the end we moved the goalposts to behind the goal and played. we went to ask the teacher...which we should have done in the first place already. then we shift to futsal court, shift back...sian. we lost 3-2 i think. hema got his ankle kicked by roy...typical. and josh is jian, he's talking to me and fiona to distract us...then the ball come he quickly take and run, scheming de. and then the rest is qohr ebwdyo8as i can't be bothered to talk about it bye.

tmr got to do work, edit this blog, eat. haha. eat. there's bio, english journal, math assn, phy assn to do. die.

netball's actually nicer than soccer, it requires less skill, plus it's less bitchier. and, you get to say your mum more. it's true okay.

searching.