it's christmas.

so the day just started with waking up and going to SMO late. but there were quite a few people late and it isn't really official, so no one cares.

it was tough, anyway. for normal people. i'm sure lim jeck found it easy, but still. we (the people sitting at the side) were freezing like crap. even though i had my jacket, it was still cold. like, artificial wet cold though. not the normal european dry cold. which is cool but much worse. so i tossed my packet of tissue to bradley beside me, and somehow made it through the 2.5h without dying.

then finish, run to toilet xP

afterwards just stoned on the concourse waiting for dion to finish doing the SMO paper (yes, he solved a few afterwards), and then went to vivo (actually habourfrontcentre) to eat KFC with loo, hema and dion. 4 of us only. but loo disappeared at the start, he went to giant to buy stuff apparently. we took like 1h to eat hahaha, because after me dion hema finish eating loo shows up, and hema buys another burger, so we have to wait haha.

seriously, who buys zinger and spams it with ketchup to neutralise the spicyness? (actually spicyness isn't a word, the proper one is spiciness. but spicyness looks nicer. so there) you might as well buy something else, that isn't spicy..

then went home. dion spontaneously wanted to go airport take pics, so we went. and he has never seen the airport from mrt...like, where the mrt takes you and the path you take to get into the airport. took a few photos, but they're not that good..there was one bit where we kept going up and down the escalator cos he wanted to take some random shot of the stairs but there were always people. so we just did it like 5 or 6 times...i was afraid security was gonna come arrest us hahaha

went off to catch 53, and play badminton. i think at the start it was just dion playing with my bro, but then people started streaming in. wenxi that woman la, she booked and she was half an hour late. somemore we had to impromptu call random people in, because original was like 4 people only. and i brought dion to make up for numbers. spammed for 2h, whole shirt was wet (completely expected). dion kept attempting drop shots (sorta) though, and the rest of us just kept spamming. high and far..

i'm sorry, the photos can't be uploaded. blogger having problems again. cow.

oh nevermind. you can see them all on facebook. only 60 anyway, and mostly lousy shots :(

so after playing badminton with wenxi, jingmin, cyrus, desiree, edwin, renda, dion and my brother, we went back to my house. and dion showered and stayed for dinner....without his parents knowing. mostly he was just being himself and playing beyblades with my brother again.

there you go. i used the webcam, tilted the com and pointed it downwards.

hold it, i can upload individual photos!

ahh, but that'll take forever. nevermind, you go facebook and see.

link here.

you should be able to see, if you're my friend. i think.

so he stayed, i gave him some clothes which i didn't want (still epicly big for him) and we ate a lot of food. he helped my mum drink the herbal chicken soup. and polished off my apple pie....there's no more left. sadly.

all the ice cream's gone too.

i read about one woman who was this habit of eating ice cream every night.

oh, that's so awesome. i'll do that when i get old.

talking to mr alvin tan on facebook now! ha, you should see this.

it's amazing, that i still keep in touch with people from primary school. most people that i know from school don't even talk to them. good, more friends. more awesome friends (:

i mean, you all are awesome.

even your mum.

i'm off to write the script now (yeah right i'm totally lying) and play some pes. can sleep late because not going to school tmr. i'd rather go to school though, but the media thing got cancelled. sad.

dion! if you see this, let me know if you have the video tripod. it's going to be terrible getting that..

i noticed i used brackets like super often in this post.

outing on sunday people, check your phones. but that means i can probably go for only the first hour of frisbee. i'm pushing it to 9, so we can start by 930..

stumble around, in the night, in the pouring rain.

had to adjust exposure.

can't wait for A Good Man Goes To War.

the only water in the forest is the river.

there's a hundred references to river song in that.

okay, maybe three.

sorry, i've been putting off this post since 2 hours ago.

yes, i'm bad.

first i went to watch doctor who (again), then i've been handling my schedule for the next two days. and solve the problem of : "how am i supposed to obtain a video tripod"

SMO tmr. time to flunk completely lol. i just stared at the prep paper. can't do any of the questions. and i don't know my index number. oho, good job..

basically slacked around trying to finish work (failed) this morning, then ate, ate again, and finished reading the book (handle with care) and made apple pie. it sort of failed though, the book lied to me. and we put too much butter in the crust. oh my mum's home. you get pictures. just hold on for a bit, while i explain how the book scammed me.

so basically in most shows i watch they cook the apple with all the brown sugar, butter and cinammon first, allow it to soften and carmelise, and then bake it. but this book tells me not to cook it at all, and i was like going, "what?" but it's a book, and i thought maybe it's a new method. well, it's not, the inside still failed. but it's okay, not bad for a first try.

it is now 10:42. i hate not concentrating and finishing the post. well, i clicked "new post" at around 7. but i have photos now!

unimpressive photos.

that's my brother by the way. sorry, it's extremely difficult to take a slice of pie out of the dish, as you well know.

goodbye, off to sleep now.

come along, pond.

smiling but we're close to tears.

remember, everyone needs to be loved. no one ever wants to feel like they're not wanted.

reading jodi picoult's Handle With Care now. it's kinda nostalgic, and very sad, because well, the world is sad. it's difficult to get in touch with emotions. so easy to completely fall apart and no one on the outside realises it.

today was basically doing nothing and completely slacking. i didn't even get to bake that pie, because my mum didn't go ntuc until this evening and it's too late already. so i'm doing it tmr instead. morning was frisbee...until my entire shirt was drenched. somehow there's dog crap all over the freaking grass so that's damn annoying. had to use random newspaper to cover it..

damn. i really want to watch f1. monaco grand prix seems so nice now. i used to hate monaco because ferrari was rubbish at monaco. but now alonso's made like 2 stops compared to vettel's 1 and he's less than half a second behind..

doesn't make sense.

in the afternoon i basically just ate lunch (my dad was in one of his @!#@! moods again), read the book, slacked somemore, read more, watched an episode of doctor who, and poof! it's like 6 already. in fact it's nine here, going to be ten soon.

whatever.

you know that thing about whether you would choose if you would rather have something bad happen to you, or another person? like, if you would rather get stabbed or have someone else get stabbed. it's kinda sad that we'll all pick ourselves. unless you're selfless enough. people who are really in love would probably be, i suppose.

really don't know about anything anymore.

have a couple of weddings to attend this year apparently. august 20sth is like my mum's cousin...so our aunt? -shrugs-

but have to go KL -.- and it's so close to my birthday! they can't do that, august is my month haha.

november got my uncle's wedding..that i don't actually mind because he's nice. actually i just want his 600D. but still. i want to stay for convocation! my name's already down for duty...urgh. we'll work something out.

and they have just red-flagged monaco. race over.

time for me to go too....gosh i hate script typing. tuesday will be busy. first SMO then probably going out, and then i'm rushing back to play badminton with the usual people, then rush for tuition...

rush.

sometimes we tell ourselves we are doing things for others, but in actual fact we are doing it for ourselves, to push the blame to someone else or to make ourselves feel better.

abstention.

oh no, i'm blanking out in front of the com.

suddenly all the ideas all gone. T.T

typing script is so hard..

i think i'll just give up. but that's bad.

no, i must persevere. if not nothing to do this june holidays anyway..

oh well. i know you guys probably don't care much for this post. because it's not really related to you, and you can't connect with it. aha. that's important.

time to go force out some lines.

relax.

oh, stop saying relax, because you're not achieving anything.

i hate it when people go, relax. and they just don't do anything. i mean, the word relax is good because it is good to relax, and it calms people down, but still. it's like, don't say and not do. that's not good.

fail trying to make the rest of the world better because i know i'm no better.

i wished i had my own laptop. then i'll just camp out in my room and do stuff. here i have no peace at all, with my brother and sister asking me to explain everything they see on the screen and wanting to see it all the time. i mean, even if i know who that person is, i'm not going to tell you because you won't know at all right. sheesh.

and i can't even tumblr because they exclaim at all the gifs. don't get me wrong, it's good to have siblings. but sometimes...yeah.

it is now 11:24, and i need to finish up this post, write the script, and play some pes. champions league final tonight...heck i don't really care to try and track it/watch because it's kinda obvious who will win. and i don't care who wins either. unlike some people, who

lost my train of thought. i switched tabs to read fiona's quiz blog..

oh right! now i remember xP

who are going to the airport Macs until 5am to watch the match and are insane.

sentence completed.

anyway, today was just one massive day of going out, which is kinda weird for me, but i was very very high the whole day. except now actually. drunk on highness and laughing uncontrollably at nothing in particular. even finishing the popcorn before the movie started made me happy. but it's okay, happy is good (:

been listening to happily ever after the whole day! here it is, to make you happy. it's such an awesome song. the singing is nice, and the guitar is nice too. will try it soon..

there you are.

okay, back onto today. morning went to school for the boarding open house thing..saw a lot of people. most important thing was probably talking to yawen and getting tips for filming..and audio recording. briefing nothing much, i was just craning by head around to see who was there. and then dion walked in halfway, epic skill. and when we walked out of the theaterrete saw chee waiting there! it's like sudden happiness, you see him and you start smiling and everything's awesome haha. he does have that effect on people :D

then the tour..yongkiat was our tour guide lol. super epic. the most epic quote was probably

" This is the path to the hostel. It's a long path, but it's very near."

all the parents laughed out loud, like seriously. they lol-ed, haha. sorry, i'm getting very high now while recalling the very high day. i shall infect you with this happiness!

there. you're infected. now smile.

so apparently chee's mum knows dion's mum because they are colleagues lol wtheck. so basically we just ate food, then we went..and after i got home i went straight up to get my wallet, and then my dad was nice so he sent me to downtown east. met up with wenxi yinzhi and da, we went bbq chicken for lunch (stuffing myself again), then watched pirates of the caribbean 4. i'd say it's not bad, it's good, but not as good as the previous three. it's missing something, once they axed orlando bloom and keira knightly the humour's just not as natural anymore...you just have johnny depp doing epic stuff which just isn't as nice.

and yes, why is everyone playing maple again lol. apparently the rest of the schools, and with that the rest of singapore, are getting into it too.

i wonder how much energy i expend from blogging everyday. finger power.

then after that we ate icecream, and walked home hahaha. walking home is damn fun, just that feet kinda hurt a little after that. and we walked a lot of random routes, just detouring for the heck of it and finding like epic dead ends and walls. it was fun.

got home, showered, slacked for an hour or so then off to guitar..which didn't actually accomplish anything other than allowing me to practise a bit. need to work harder...still got 3 pieces i haven't touched. strumming i'm okay, but plucking.....#@!#@!#@!

i just end up screaming at everything, according to my dad. that's his observation. when i can't do something i just scream at inanimate objects. especially the fan, because singapore's weather too hot...

it is still too hot.

i can feel my body internally shutting down...off to type a script now and be off. well, at least a third of it anyway.

baking apple pie tmr hopefully (:

you'll get pictures.

happy with my achievements in life.

right now i'm happy! because everything just falls into place, and i feel loved. currently editing photos from the outing just now, and tumblr-ing! 20 followers now, i love you all for following me yay.

see, feeling loved is the way to feeling happy ~

think i'll start writing the script tonight, hopefully it all works out and we can find a camera and some awesome music to go with it (: also, i just got the email, we can submit our vid for SDMA also! coool.

do what you do, just keep on laughing.

pictures later, or on tumblr (:

addiction to bechamel.

there's supposed to be a little ` above the first e. but oh well, nevermind. i'm sure you'll google it and find out, so let's move on.

made gifs in the morning. and sorted photos, tumblr-ed, watched more youtube to gain inspiration. and fb chat with rong haha. that gif above is the awesome elephant i got from edwin for my birthday last year. i'm actually making another one now, visit my tumblr to see when it's done (:

then afternoon was mainly slacking, and cooking dinner..mac and cheese.

end product :

leftover sauce :

cheeese sauce. so awesome xD i was thinking should put it on bread, coat it in egg batter and go fry haha. but too lazy to do it. tmr morning i'll be sleeping...and sleeping more. okay, back to black now.

hello. haha. i will be cooking apple pie next! i hope. probably sunday, since friday and sat i'm damn busy. hooray no tuition on sat. but got the boarding open house..i'm going the 10-11 slot i think. anyone?

getting progress report tmr..and classroom cleanup i think. still have that epic bunch of newspapers under my desk. i must remember to go recycle them...and after that class outing! hopefully. forget planning, we shall just impromptu. dion bring camera if you see this!

which he will, and so he will. makes perfect sense.

it's going to be difficult to find people who are willing to help me, and mostly actors lol. i was thinking daryl lee how jun, but i don't know if he'll agree xP and the lighting! and the quality..audio's the biggest problem. but i suppose i've got one month. better start writing the script..

yay, i've created a project for myself.

which doesn't involve school, studies, or anything. thank goodness i chose not to do an irp. protein music using garageband..that's exotic.

and some people are going to russia and germany! i'm so jealous, should have applied :(

now i realise that i should listen more to random announcements and talks...good for long term. even though not listening and sleeping is what i usually do in the short term.

new gif up soon. go to my tumblr!

i've also revamped the links. if anyone wants me to link them please give me a shout on my tagboard! also, tag more you people, it's kinda dead. now only me and dion haha

these four walls.

like i said before, i want to shoot a video.

so today i was thinking of ideas on the way home. since we've agreed it's impossible to be funny, it'll need to be something..deep. philosophical, life, and stuff.

i need your help :/

i was thinking of cannibalising Strangers, again, but once again i think that's kinda cheap. so just now on the train i was going through ideas in my head, while i listened to the script and dion played tikilavalanche thingo on my ipod.

but in order to do something deep and meaningful to life, i need actors! this is going to be extremely hard to do..especially the audio recording. hopefully we can pull it off. i think i'll be mainly working with people from school..you guys must help me okay! especially jiamin, who refused to help me if hema's in it...that means i can't do one of kicking hema and him failing. oh well.

i don't know if it'll work out. but i'm giving it a shot. after seeing what all those people on youtube produce..i want to try it out. it's so...nice. haha vocab fail

please help. i think i'll go write the script soon. i need your dslrs and mics xP

oh and go watch this

i'll go enjoy my bacon now (if i had any).

the story of us.

sadly, there is no us. so there is no story.

i hate these epic mood changes. i was happy just now. okay maybe not that happy. but like, i feel kinda accomplished because i managed to do a lot of thinking on the journey back, and i enjoyed music. then i had nothing to do so i went to sleep, and now i'm pissed because it's too hot/i don't know ahhh screw this

\pause/

forget it, i should never have posted.

f the weather. seriously. the first chance i get, i'm moving out of this country -.-

where did that come from?

lol, was in the value dollar shop with jen just now. the stuff there is so cheap! everything's like 1 buck or a bit more only. and he was buying matches..and lighters..and poker cards. in substantial quantities. to sell at school apparently. i was thinking, are there people who enjoy burning poker cards? that's the only thing you could do with those threee.

or, you could eat the cards, smash the lighter case, pour the fuel on your hair and ignite it.

although there's not much connection with that one.

thank goodness today's over. it was just the chinese opera trip (which was...well. ) and the chinese o' level prep thing. which is basically just wujiong talking to us for over an hour. but he ended early at 4! all we did was prove that it's useless to do the paper properly, because if you tikam and guess everything you still get higher. lee and jiamin guessed, i tried to do properly. results :

me : 2/10

lee : 4/10

jiamin : 7/10

faillllll. terrible. but you can't do that for the mcq compre, you'll just die. after i checked jiamin's answers his made completely no sense.

for you.

oh well. at least tmr is slack, thursday is no school, and friday is nothing. still trying to plan class outing though. i give up, to be honest.

everyone's busy! i think we should just go bowling..money problems anyway.

okay i shall go. going to upload/edit photos and play some pes. and sleep. i need sleep, i feel kinda sick due to lack of sleep. no tuition today hell yes (:

i was going to put a picture of the silence, but i don't want to scare you. goodnight.

throwing tantrums.

that's what gerald was talking about this morning.

and no, gerald's not the bird in birdstrike. he was the guy who took us for the speech workshop thingo. left halfway anyway. for talent search :/

talent search was kinda messed up, and hectic. because in the start almost everyone was pissed because the keyboard sucks and the battery thing keeps breaking down. and people keep changing ideas -.-

and come on, if your performance gets delayed by 45s because equipment's screwed or you didn't get to do a sound check because there is no time, don't scream and shout vulgarities and blame people -.- next time, you can run your own bloody show, and you can do all the logistics, and then everything will be perfect. idiots. it's not like it's anyone's fault right.

actually, most people were like excellent, but i think the problem was what the judges saw or wanted. it's like, you can only be that brilliant, but everyone is good and has a different style, so you just gotta hope you get lucky. and do your best. and MINUS^2 did.

ended like around 530, we waited to eat food until like 6..reached home at 745? pissed off at the stupid bus again. the queue's so damn long la wtheck. and there are people who take 2 stops. seriously, walk. it's like 100m? max 120m.

i don't know why, there's nothing to tumblr these days. well, off to catch some much needed sleep.

it's okay to admit you don't know everything, and that you're not sure. because when you ask, everything becomes that much clearer and you make friends (:

that's no excuse.

they lied. dwarf star alloy is just some black blocks of marble which somehow seal themselves as they touch each other.

like so.

i imagined some epic white glowing substance! and they scammed me.

oh never mind.

well, i just watched doctor who again, and finally i feel normal again. it's still so awesome. but it's changing...well, things change.

why is the weather still so hot!

my mum's returning from korea in about 2 hours..hopefully she bought a lot a lot of food. i have been stuffing myself with food..it's just like, oh there's food! -eats-

over and over again. i think i eat like more than 15 times a day.

forget it, this post is meaningless because i have broken my quota so i have run out of things to say. didn't even do much in the last few hours! i could ramble on and on but i think you people won't really care/will get bored.

thanks for reading by the way. you make me feel loved. so that's good. keep it up!

cheery.

the king's decision.

it's less than 2 minutes later, and i'm back again because somehow my sis just disappeared.

you'd understand if you blog. i just can't have someone looking at what i'm typing, you know. it's private, even if it's not, in the end.

so yes, i'm pissed off for another heckload variety of reasons.

looking back, i think my teenage years will just be completely miserable because of how angry i am. that's like a waste of life. and life is just too damn short.

so i get mad at my sis and my bro when they don't eat meals. like, almost everything that is the usual rice + dishes they just stone, and they don't bother to eat. or else they just waste it. and that just pisses me off. and somehow, they were inside my room all morning when i was having tuition and they messed it up. when i walked into it, all the pillows and the blanket was on the floor -.-

and i'm a clean freak, so i got mad. the floor is dirty, people! and it's not your room as well! and you should seriously get a life and go do your work instead of hanging around rooms playing facebook games or kicking the giant blue ball around.

they are so going to die when my mum gets back.

i wonder how the boarding open house was..tell me! i need to know how the living conditions for next year are going to be..

i'm also mad at myself for not practising any guitar today, and also swearing a lot. even my brother's picked up my language now...actually he doesn't pick it up from me. he picks it up from the internet, and his friends...

i know that because i've probably said that in front of him like once, and that was 4 years ago. but i don't care really. i can't help it, he's way too annoying.

i'm even feeling exasperated at how ugly the "i"s are on this text! can't be bothered to type the capital I though. it's just unnatural. blogging is like talking, i don't capitalise stuff when i talk, so i don't capitalise stuff when i blog. generally.

forget it, it's too hot. i'm going to change my pants. since i'm already wearing the thinnest shirt i could find, there's nothing much i can do on that department..

that reminds me, i need to go shopping.

pissed off.

because, i don't know actually, there's a whole host of reasons.

it's so hot. what is with the weather. and my eyes hurt. that's probably because i've been reading and having tuition for the past few hours

gosh. why can't my sis just leave me alone to post. #!@#!@#@! more pissed now

i'll be back soon.

egg tarts.

sorry, if you saw this post before and it was blank.

well, i hit publish post again by accident. when i only typed in the title.

today is friday. and friday should be happy. but somehow, i'm not that happy.

actually, i'm mostly bitter because i have tuition tmr morning. and i haven't done the homework. heck, just hope she doesn't check. i don't want anything..i just want to sleep, eat. and i want to ..

i don't know what i want.

today was okay-ish, but after i got home it was depressing. basically we got more papers back, i was denied an A by one percent !##@!#@!

enough of that. i'm sure you're sick of that

and, class outing failed horribly, we played some cards, i slept all the way home, albeit uncomfortably. then i was hungry, again. whenever i reach home i just get hungry, even though i've just eaten...it's some kind of weird thing. like, stepping into the house uses a lot of energy so i need to eat to replenish myself!

speaking of expending energy, played netball (finally) this morning for about 1.6/1.7 hours with an entire bunch of people. really drained after that..and i think my shirt took until geog to dry. terrible. oh well. i hate geog

forbidden question to ask : are you taking geog next year?

we've all agreed, you can't ask that, or else you'll get punched in the face/the stare.

i don't know if i should take econs anymore. it's like, i kinda like it but at the same time it's tedious and apparently the seniors say next year's is lousy. but my exam wasn't that good. but my EI's were awesome. they should completely grade on that. but if i don't take econs next year i only have 3 majors! and that's slack...sort of?

anyway, jookee gets a mention!

[20:48:44] Joo Kee says:

eh pin

[20:48:45] Joo Kee says:

do you know what

[20:48:53] Joo Kee says:

do you know what that list of songs in an album is called?

[20:49:00] Pin says:

what?

[20:49:01] Pin says:

lol

finally someone talks to me on msn. yes, i'm sad. you should talk to me more often.

also, if you're feeling bored, you can go answer his query. i don't really know what he's saying, and we both agree it's not

songlist

playlist

album list

good luck.

it's probably something random, like -insert your own word here- sorry, lacking imagination.

oh and the boarding open house is tmr! take pictures, everyone..i want to see! i can't remember at all which day i ticked, but since my mum is still in korea, and my dad is still kinda sick, i don't think i can go so i'll just go on 28th. yupp (:

that just needs a smiley. if not it seems dead.

i think my com is overheating. i've never felt a mac so hot before..the sole exception being my dad's PowerBook G5 from 4 years ago. that thing literarily burnt me. and you need a pillow to use it..

that reminds me, i shall have to get a pillow for next year.

better finish this off. i had a section i wanted to talk about but i forgot what it was.

oh yes : the weather's too hot!

but that's boring already.

-abrupt end-

decisions. since you've been gone, misguided ghosts.

one, two, three, four.

i am going away for a while, and i'll be back don't try and follow me.

forget it. i can't type fast enough.

actually i think i can memorise the lyrics..but still.

lol. i'm kinda annoyed at the moment.

trying to plan class outing = epic fail

give up already, tmr just impromptu. if not probably just end up soccering and also not accomplishing much. i want to netball. i miss netball.

actually, i miss the past. i miss the time when it was nice. now there's just...stuff. unpleasant stuff. and life is getting more difficult. i hate these decisions. even though i know it's trivial! i mean, the career talks thing. it's completely irrelevant. my goal for the future keeps changing. last month i wanted to make music, now i want to make movies! like, short videos and stuff. and so everything's irrelevant.

and now i find going for those offered by overseas unis ridiculous and pointless, since i have no money to go overseas.

whatever.

apparently my brother's missing.

i'll see you tmr.

the reason i'm not doing anything tonight.

1. there is nothing to do, really.

2. it's warm.

i mean the weather, not anything else. and well, my body is warm, because of the weather i assume.

3. oh yes, i need to look through that list of career talks, make a decision, and try to find my green pen again. lost it like 4 times today and then refound it. but then during chinese i think i really lost it..

okay i need to focus. complete this post before i do anything else.

i just spent the past few hours playing pes, then eating, then lazing on my bed watching youtube videos. maybe i'll complete never let me go by today..there isn't really a sense of urgency though. it's becoming kinda dull to be honest.

oh, and i think there was some kind of misunderstanding just now, apparently dion has the impression that i'm pissed at jiamin? i am not pissed at anyone! you utter swoc. so yes jiamin, i am not pissed at you or anything lol. just in case you have that misconception.

trained back with yj just now. well it was okay. he bought bubble tea, and hid it in his bag. the usual. and he was hecking my phone all the way through, sending stuff to hema and other random people. he sent like, " i like yq too u know" to hema, hoping to make him depressed. to depress him. that's not a word right. heck, it is now.

but hema owned him for once, he's smart now okay. he sent back :

" what?!? its yong jen isnt it. pin wont like anyone, let alone yq..."

that is exactly what he said, word for word and letter for letter and symbol for symbol. he knows me too well..that's not good you know. what if something happened in the world and we set up like rival countries or businesses. he'll just destroy me flat. curses.

junwei's birthday today! me and jiamin went west coast plaza to buy cake for him, the epicly rich awesome chocolate cake. worth every penny, it's so awesome :D

then we spammed sms him all at once, because he thanked us all via sms. so we decided to be kind and lag his phone. see, we're so nice xD

i think his phone would probably have exploded.

i want to bake you a cake.

a fruit cake.

yes i'm cheap.

goodbye.

mashed peaches.

although no one understood, we were holding back the flood.

hell yes. thumbs up for take that!

well, the mv is a bit gay. but rowing down the thames is awesome. they have an epic river, how awesome is that.

anyway, just now went out with the usual bunch of people, to watch "water for elephants". it's quite nice and meaningful, okay i guess. but the downside is that i'm currently out of money. seriously, my wallet has like 10cents in it haha.

so we went bugis for lunch, then watch at iluma. hema has skill, he went to shaw, and he was damn late, so i gave up waiting for him and i left the ticket with the guy checking the tickets. at least he was nice. and apparently hema went to shaw, at bugis and he bought popcorn there, one huge bucket. so he had to leave it outside because filmgarde doesn't allow people to bring in popcorn from elsewhere. plus jookee also didn't finish his, so after the movie we ended up with like 1.5 giant packets of popcorn. seriously, who eats popcorn after the movie xD

then we walked around, stalked indian couples (i'll explain later) and went library. prada and jiamin borrowed books, and since i'd already done that on monday i didn't. then we ended up playing cards, and after that i left.

oh yes, regarding the indian couple, the guy was wearing like exactly the same colour as hema okay. so we theorised that hema ends up with shree in the future, and that's them coming back to the past to visit us xD

that means 2 things :

1. time travel is possible in the future! awesome.

2.that only happened because they remembered seeing themselves now, so in the future they have to come back to the past to make an appearance so that they'd have that memory. paradox.

i love paradoxes.

yay. i'm getting season/series 6 of doctor who from shree. the silence, the silence.

and that epic wall built out of dwarf star alloy bricks. seriously, who could even think of that?

the british.

my sis : flying without wings? how do you do that?

my bro : use jetpack la!

now they're throwing dogs at me.

okay, i'm off to play some pes, listen to more of the same song, and get some rest. good luck for script-checking tmr!

we will never dance again.

never let me go.

i'm tired. just tired.

thank goodness the tuition teacher didn't come today. i fell asleep while waiting for her anyway. well, when i woke up it was like 8.40 already, and there's no way she's gonna be 40mins overdue, so we can forget about it.

hooray.

lol tmr is finally sorted. hell yes, excuse to wear jeans. actually maybe i won't...but. depends on the moment. the world is still too hot for jeans. and jeans have lousy pockets. understatement. except the back pocket. that one is awesome.

lord of the rings soundtrack is still so awesome.

sorry i got pissed just now..it just happens. lol i hate it when the world seems to combine to turn against me. all the forces of nature suddenly attack me, and i have nowhere to run. even my brain attacks me! that's cheating..

but still, everything turns out fine in the end.

yes, i'm 60% done with never let me go. it's very good, in the sense that it does an extremely good job of showcasing human relationships between friends. like, people who are different. well, you have someone's who's nice, and someone's who...okay. spoilers. go read the book yourself xD

oh no my internet is dying. i've been spamming tumblr and youtube too much le haha.

curse you inactive people on msn. i know sometimes i'm inactive also, but still.

it's like filling a canon with bananas and then shooting hema with it.

okay i have no idea where that came from. oops, epic typo. it's cannon, not canon.

someone said that the happiest moment of their life was when they got married. it's okay, i guess, but at the same time don't you think it is kind of weird. shouldn't it be when your proposal is accepted? haha. but yes, still too early to think of this kind of stuff.

actually, all i want to do is get out there, start experiencing life, and get a good job. something that's fun. because, as some guy on youtube said, your life will only be meaningful if you're having fun! that's true, but sadly most people in the world can't do that..

sometimes i think changing the world is impossible, but that's probably because i don't have the guts, or the motivation to attempt to change it. i mean, here are some improvements there could possibly be...

1. they should stop going to war and killing people.

2. they should stop killing each other. have respect for human life, man.

3.there should be more doughnuts.

4.and i want the ability to eat bacon without gaining weight.

off to tumblr, people.

right now i feel my dad isn't that bad a person. he can be pretty nice, too. he's just one of those people who can either be damn nice, or be bloody horrid in one way or another.

digital fortress and deception point are the same damn book.

yes, it's the same thing! you see, it's some epic conspiracy, which has like the issue of "national security". that's why the conspiracy happens. and then, the protagonist is a supposedly beautiful/perfect/supersmart woman, and she's at the heart of the story. and she works for her boss, trying to solve the crisis. so, in the middle, some epic assasin comes out of nowhere and completely destroys them, but through some ridiculous epic 14h chase, they manage to survive, and escape. and in the end, the bad guy is revealed to be the woman's boss..and he dies. and the crisis is aborted.

and in between, at least 5 people die.

yes, that's the main gist of it.

and then you have the lost symbol = da vinci code = angels and demons

all the plots the same de lol.

i have revealed to the world dan brown's hacker schemes..just change the characters and the situation and make a lot of money. but it's still good though, just that after i read deception point, i could guess the conclusion of digital fortress like 1/3 through the story.

so, today i went out, brought my brother for his violin lesson, and then we went library. and i managed to get this

sorry for the oppositeness, i think you can tell what it is. you should know it okay.

i forgot the webcam laterally inverts it. but it's okay, you can still make out what it is.

awesome books. borrowed 3 others also, just random ones. hopefully tmr i'll spam that and then wed can go out.

a black wind took him away, from sight.

anyway, just now i bought 6 subway cookies, came home, and watched avatar. while my siblings demolished the cookies..and then went out again, to bring my brother to swimming lesson. i spent almost my whole day with him lol. good bonding exercise!

and i swam! haven't done that in so long. but it's good therapy, it really feels good. but after a while i realise i fail terribly. i mean, i can still maintain speed, but no stamina, after 100m die already. argh what is this i used to be able to do like 30 laps.

and i'm too lazy to train. oh well. when i get chances.

i've learnt an important lesson : you should try everything, everything that comes your way, no matter what it is. because no matter how it turns out, it's an experience. and since you have the opportunity, why not take it? and most of the time, it turns out fine. better than fine.

learning things the hard way...tough but extremely effective.

it's like once you lose your ez-link card once, you triple check your pocket/bag for your wallet everytime you're on the move..

let me finish this up, and go finish planning the outing. it's been a productive day. i hope your day is as good too (:

be happy.

really good books are different in the way that even though you've already read it through, you still want to pick it up, turn the pages, and reread it, playing over the scenes in your head and connecting with the characters, feeling what they feel, countless times over.

lost my way, just like everyone else.

good morning.

i've been sleeping around 7 hours per day on average.

which is kinda weird, considering it's sorta holidays.

later going out, to bring my brother to his violin class..and swimming.

and spam guitar in between!

hopefully.

i need to go out more, lol. actually i did go out, yesterday. sorta.

anyway, gotta get back to pes-ing and reading my book. anyone want to go out on wed? go play soccer or something..anything. really. i just want to get out of the house.

call me.

(i'm sorry, i'm running out of content. sooner or later this blog will just die, and i'll probably rely on my tumblr more.)

that sounds familiar. i think i've said it before.

wasted cds.

so i guess it turned out alright after all.

haha. just woke up, slept for like 2h. this entire morning was just killed by tuition..it's weird. having tuition, after you think exams are over. but yes, my chinese needs to improve so no choice x.x

my mum's in korea now...eating food, being cool, and stuff. i want to go. mostly for the weather. do you know how !@#!@# hot it is! crazy. apparently it's like 20 degrees there. that's like almost the perfect temperature, perfect enough anyway. here is like double that.

been just spamming pes during free time. it's crazy. and i got guitar later. but lazy to practice...i hate tabs. my fingers are too freaking huge! balls.

there's nothing much to tumblr today..and it's still too hot.

so i just end up eating, when i'm bored. that's terrible, urgh.

hopefully can go out tmr. fresh air :D

oh yes, yesterday went out with the usual people, and hema threw a freaking chalk at my mouth wtheck! seriously, completely unexpected. but pooling is awesome. we did for like 3-4 straight hours. crazy. but if you pair with hema, expect him to give away cue balls every turn and so you'll have to solo everything.

i want to film a video. anyone?

coffee mistakes, a dozen goals, and some airplane food.

that was basically my day.

and, EXAMS ARE OVER HELL YEAH!

that sounded fake as well.

this is going to be short, because well...i need to go game. and tumblr. tumblr's far more addictive.

so yes, we played soccer, and we won 12-6! amazing, because it was mainly because somehow they couldn't get past hema, who saved like everything. so we spammed at the other end! somehow we beat the pros again..haha. it's like lee scores 6, then loo scores 2, chee 2, and then me 2! sad that jen didn't score though, he was super! haha.

and then trained home..and halfway i died because my stomach was dying from all the coffee i drank earlier in the day, i suspect. (it was bloody strong.)

my dad's worried about tmr. because it's friday the 13th. and he's been breaking stuff this whole month..stuff like : his iphone charger thing, the car, the car, the car, some lamp. and he was spamming butter at dinner..lol just dip bread in melted butter. super fattening but damn nice.

sigh.

screw this i take like 2 hours to complete a post? because people have to come by and i can't type when they're trying to read what i'm saying. they're intruding. then i have to leave it there while i game and then after that i get pissed over trivial things. it's not worth it.

you think i don't spend half the time hating myself? i'm not special, i can't do anything. and i'll do most things for myself, because it's my life.

i'll live how i want to live.

so don't go too strong on me when i've made my decisions.

yes, i'm a mess.

just make the world dance :D

oho. the sky is flaming now. like seriously, the whole thing is read o.o

red.

crap, it's too late. it's gone now and i didn't take a picture. was too busy tumblr-ing.

oh yes, wanna guess what i had for lunch today? i'll give you a clue.

it's brownish-orange, includes some pieces of meat, and some rice. oh, and carrots.

give up?

fine.

i'll tell you.

yes, i had jap curry.

anti-climatic..

-back to normality now-

sorry, i just can't post like that. i feel fake, and...it's just not me. oh, and i did have jap curry for dinner too. but a much nicer one (:

i should use smilies more. they lighten the mood. if not everything's all dead.

but anyway, one more paper left! which is econs. so it'll be okay, i hope. econs is my friend, and tong is nice, so it'll work out. i'll just end up spam writing and write like 1 booklet and overflow into the next booklet by like 2 pages only. i hate that, wasting paper. so far, bio-di is the only one where i've only used 1 booklet..

reminiscence. that's a good word. we can make a video on that. but then we need like

dslr

nice locations

some epic cool giant mic to record sound

people

money

the urge to do editing.

forget it, it's too much work. but possible.

oh yes, i had an ultra weird dream last night. so basically i was in this place which was kinda a maze, and there are like a few revolving doors and hidden switches. then i find some hidden switch which i press, and then some baboon starts ramming at the door. so, i rush there and grab it, and suddenly it turns into some pigeon soft toy thing. so i walk out of the room, and there's this british girl sitting at the counter, and i give it to her. and she scolds me for being rude.

i think that's the gist of it. good luck trying to interprete it.

goodbye, i'm off to get rid of this warmness, tumblr more, read econs, and then fall asleep.

i like your hair.

lying here with you so close to me.

yes, lady antebellum has a new song! just a kiss. go listen it's super awesome haha.

okay, it's phy night tonight. so i'm off to do the pyqs and read some stuffs. can't do much anyway. oh, and of course, i just came on the com to tumblr. if not i'll just leave it off okay lol.

oh yes, the answers are out. for phy pyq anyway...i asked him almost all the questions. the open-ended ones anyway.

whatever, after tmr only econs left!

let's go.

out of space, out of time.

the title says it all.

horribly unprepared for chem, and now i feel like i studied completely the wrong thing for geog'.

haha, i should just leave it. like my mum's attitude : " don't care le, go to sleep, don't study anymore".

i love my mum.

actually i like her food. but still.

whatever, i'm running out of things to post. quality will go up drastically after exams finish. i feel like i'm scamming you because you think i posted but really the post has no substance whatsoever.

life is a box of chocolates.

i think you're allowed to marry the same person as many times as you want.

but are you the same person?

yes, but more so.

disillutioned.

i don't know what to do.

it's so hot.

my back hurts.

and it's still so hot.

and i need to study.

but somehow, nothing's going in. and i've got that horrible feeling i'm going to muck everything up.

especially for physics. hopefully i can see jaesson yeo tmr, and then...we'll take it from there. i only know like half the stuff..

this is really not good.

well, on the bright side after today is over it'll be tmr, and after tmr is over it'll be thursday, and after that is over we can slack.

i hate exams. i'd rather do projects, now.

see. humans are never satisfied.

apparently it's going to be like 36 degrees from now until thursday. well, scrap that plan for wearing long pants tmr..

it's going to be a long long day. both days.

and i still have to burn cds and rearrange the tracks, for my mum's aerobic teacher. like seriously, do your own work. you can't keep relying on other people who you don't even know. yes, this is the second time now.

like, if they were nice songs i don't really mind because a) it's nice, and b) i can steal. but they're all about sex. so no thankyou.

later, everything later.

off to chem now.

just a kiss.

sometimes, we forget who we really are.

and then we just take it out on other people, on the world, on yourself, because you feel you're not who you should be.

okay, i'm not going to talk about studying/exams because it'll just make you, me, and the whole world depressed. i mean, it's either you feel you studied less than me so you feel depressed, or else you feel you studied more than me so you feel good and confident, but then in the exams you die and you feel depressed.

unless you're a hacker. like wong. oh yes, i can see you here now.

broke my train of thought. again.

oh yes, i'm going to upload some pics of walnuts.

whatever, i'm tired. shall go sleep.

this has been a lousy post. and i have a feeling that it will not be a happy ending after all. you know what i'm referring to.

i love my mum.

our memories.

i've lost my inspiration.

again.

this is terrible. just now i had so many things to say and it just evaporates...like thin mist.

oh right, i have pictures. hold on, i'll go get my cam.

from last week.

my dinner just now. looks okay, i guess. i did the splattering of the soya sauce. maybe i should drop geog and take art. then the whole of today would be used for other stuff.

yes, i just studied geog today. and i don't even know if i did it properly. i don't like this feeling. it's like, exams, and i don't really care. so i'm not really studying properly and i'm slacking to the max. it shouldn't be this way...if it's this way for the rest of the exams i'm screwed..

we're all screwed. except for some.

whatever, school is screwed. i hate school. i only go there to eat egg ramen, drink strawberry tea, kick some balls, and laugh with friends anyway. friends are important.

have you forgotten.

i don't know, i feel confused with everything right now. my life, my future, right now, what to do, feelings, i don't know.

just, goodbye.

everybody just have a good time.

i'm wearing blue.

i like blue. it's calm, and it's nice. deep and calming. and cool.

blue ball. giant blue ball. blue shirt. blue background. blue box.

today was...kinda screwed in a way. but totally okay in a way.

chinese was..doable. except that i killed one pen, and my hand died afterwards. like really died. it's just non-stop writing, over 4 hours. imagine doing that, at top speed. all while attempting to understand what is going on in the passages xD

but i liked that last one. the one about romance. i think it's true, and well said. romance makes people go crazy. they'll do like anything. and that's why it's also too dangerous. too dangerous.

then math..i screwed that one up. i know i did when i spent like 30mins on one question..only did like half of the questions properly. the other half i just died..ahh there goes my math.

i think i know the problem. i was too arrogant. didn't study enough, and well, i said some things i shouldn't have. whatever, it's over. i will study hard and destroy the other 5 exams in my path! exams, you will never win hahaha.

because, yes. i am some multi-cellular organism with a brain, and you are just dead cells and some ink.

it's so hard trying to be a good person.

flying over the lake.

cell bio and english are over!

and after tmr, chinese and math will be over!

must look at it that way. haha. one day at a time..time passes fast anyway. especially when you're doing bio.

i only managed to finish by chionging..and the woman beside me said i was damn fast, finishing mcqs when she was on q27 only. oh and at the end we just watched jen kick chairs and tables with his long legs. just for entertainment. but at least people see the funny side of it. i think if i were sitting in front of him i'd like get up and hit him with the chair.

but some people managed to laugh it out!

and so did i, after seeing that.

there is a lot of irresistible food on my tumblr now. you may wanna go check that out :D

gonna study/practice math later. not much time to study tmr anyway..don't need to bring much then.

ah, i don't know. i'm sad now. mood swings again.

sorry to everyone i offended today. although i did to a lot of random dancing and swerving and running in circles in the canteen, which probably only a few people saw.

doesn't feel like a thursday.

a certain rhythm to your steps.

slacking again, as i always do. but it's all rather common now. it's like, we can't be bothered to study..

finally the matter which caused me, us, everyone so much anxiety is settled. things are always alright in the end :)

actually i just come online to tumblr. i need tumblr, it's like a drug. that's because it's so beautiful, and it just lets me express my feelings. and my random thoughts. just like this blog. that's why i blog in the first place, i suppose.

oh, and to train my fingers xP

time to go reblog more. and then study. good luck, everyone.

tom's fun ride.

i promised a picture post, so here it is.

yesterday's dinner...

dinner from like a month ago i think. the photos just stayed in the cam and rotted.

some EPIC compo my bro was doing. i mean, it's damn stupid. the guy sees someone drop their purse, so he stones and waits for the bus to go, then he brings it to the police station. a bit weird right. most people would just tap the woman and give it back.

or take the money and buy ice cream.

my fail canon in d tab. i'm only at like...just after the first half of the page. and this continues until the entire of the back page T.T

this is a lousy post. sorry, my mood's kinda screwed right now cos my dad's pissed, over something incredibly stupid again. at least he's not inflicting it much on everyone...for now.

maroon 5 is the awesome. i'm syncing ipod now..so all the songs go in. haha.

goodbye, this post is becoming worse by the minute. i'm supposed to go eat duck meat, because some people don't want to eat apparently -.-

eat your own food. seriously

there will be a picture post tonight.

because i will arguably be less stressed, and in a better mood too.

today's probably to finish up chem, phy and bio-di maybe. most of the bio-di notes are done, did them during quizzes xP

only left with mammalia that means!

maroon 5's still so awesome after this while. haha i really need to go to a concert. maybe we can plan a disco party in the audi after exams xD

still hoping, believing.

woke up at 11.25....crazy. epic waste of the morning! and now it's 1 hour later. i need to shower, lunch and study, goodbye.

hope will always come to those that require it.

there is now something to share.

i have 2 videos, all made by wongfuproductions. they're damn pro okay. anyway you should have seen this already. i published to tumblr and facebook.

these four walls :

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F7Vc4WeZQ38&feature=share

the places we should have gone :

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9xg1-dzWg3A

i strongly suggest you turn off the lights, watch this in full hd 1080p, and find a sofa. then you'll really enjoy it. it's good. hidden meanings..and it's about life. learn to appreciate it haha.

filmmaking is a really cool career.