falling into oblivion.

memories.

saving a shot is pointless if the rebound goes in.

but is it? is it really pointless?

i dont think so. i mean, statistically, it is pointless, you're just wasting your effort and increasing the risk of getting injured but at least you tried i suppose, you stopped them scoring for that amount of time, at least you don't concede a goal for a longer amount of time.

like around 2 seconds.

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anyway, today was rather boring and meaningless, i just woke up, had breakfast, refused lunch, read book, got angry with everyone, ate curry puff, watched tv, ate dinner, and i'm here now.

i want some hw to do. like a little bit...at least i won't be bored, cos i really don't have any programmes, and don't go out much. getting tired of reading books too....i realise most of the times i imagine and try to feel the frustration and anger the character is feeling even though it hurts me. i dont know why, it's like, when i read the book, i feel for the character, who doesn't even exist.

okay forget about that. i'm just like that somehow.

shall go now, hopefully tmr will be better.

my internet's been pmsing all day, like stopping and going, maybe it's feeling the heat as well..

sometimes we say the same thing, not because one of us has copied the other, because we had identical thoughts, irregardless of what the other thinks.

our love would be forever.

good morning.

yeah up there, you see, it's matt bellamy playing the piano.

link's here....

it's neutron star collision (love is forever) by muse.

damn nice.

but it's in the twilight soundtrack for eclipse so there's clips of vampires, wolves, and people in there.

haha muse rocks.

especially their live performances....freaking nice.

anyway.

today's my brother's birthday, 10 june.

at least he managed to win a bowling game. which i will never be able to do. haha i'll get like 4 again.

okay fine my sis wants me to tell the world that she also won.

besides that...today wasn't that good. as in, it was good, satisfactory, but nothing out of the ordinary. well, kind of.

other than the fact that my left foot and leg was like hurting so much for most of the day, dunno why.

so. today...went clementi to meet them, lee was on the same train as me, then cheh and alice were hiding at the back doing dunno what...so we waited for 196, took it...and reached school? met fiona and junwei...argued about who should be captain..then it started raining and jk came so we played....then hema came...and loo was super late...and i sucked, cant defend much cos couldnt run much, hit the post twice....but junw won it for us..so we won..and it was like raining throughout...sometimes it got smaller and sometimes heavier...but it wasnt like that heavy that we couldnt be there..so we just stayed and played...and i managed to own goal...yeah. terrible.

then we realised our bags were soaked, went to canteen, changed, bought drinks, met foo, argued about where to eat...in the end went sp...me cheh alice fiona hema jookee went into pizza hut again, the other 3 ate outside...subway i think. then we were originally sitting at the table for 6, cos got 6 of us, then ordered, then before our food even came they finished le, so they came in to look for us, so we moved to the giant table for like 14 people or sth..so i shared with hema...he kept stealing all the garlic bread la, even though he said he wont eat! hmph haha i was quite full in the end so it's okay. but he only takes the tops, it's weird. anyway the auntie there so nice, haha, gave lee junw loo drinks even though they didnt order anything, only there to wait for us. then gave us a pitcher also, we spammed, but still cant finish haha.

then cos it's free flow, we were saying behind the counter it's like a pepsi factory, there's like a giant pool of it with people swimming in it...then we saw there's like 8209379320 bottles of it under the counter too haha. that place is awesome.

then we stoned a bit outside the place, then trained to lee's house, it's like just outside the mrt station la, come down escalator, turn around, cross a road, and it's there. and it's on the 22nd floor. there were 38 lol. when we were leaving fiona was like saying they're rich from making the place. oh yes and they should definitely jumble the numbers up! makes life more interesting, especially for visitors. i mean lift floor buttons of course. imagine 38 numbers jumbled up...you can die trying to find the correct floor.

one moment, gotta go cut cake. actually, eat cake. but i'm full. will get fat.

(is arl fat :):):))))))))))))))))))))

that line written by some woman.

anyway, yeah i'm back, and it was a false alarm, cos got to wait for another woman who isn't ready yet.

so, after we hit lee's house, we just sat there, they played poker, i played psp. oh i managed to lose 4-2 to man city as chelsea in pizzahut...which was actually what happened in real life. but anyway. then i proceeded to own man u using arsenal in the first 10mins then i just defended all the way...2-0 lead...then it died. so played blackjack with them, then cheat, which was epic, cos hema was being retarded, then alice won the game 5 times, and i ended up with like half the deck cos my expression gives away everything.

then we watched tv, but not much to watch sadly. then went to find a place to play soccer or bball, which failed and all that happened is that we discovered the neighbourhood. and the government apparently has some probably with people playing soccer. those " no soccer " signs are everywhere. i wish i had a vaporizer..then just go around vapourising stuff hahaha.

then went back, cheh and alice left and we played cards, but was kinda dead cos everyone was like watching tv...the woman is damn cheng-ish. it's probably like her twin sister or something. but then probably not, twin sisters should be opposite, so then her sister will be nice. then we left...blah trained back to airport to have dinner with fam...then we left...and there was like loads of indians at the airport, like seriously, the whole place is damn full with them haha, even the toilets. it's that bad.

so now i'm here typing, the cake was like...dry...unflavourful, but had like partially oreo cream. okay lah, it's free anyway. need to sleep, and read the book. thanks for an interesting day guys, although it could have been better. stupid rain.

and we will all drown in blue.

sometimes you know you want something, even if you know you don't deserve it, and also, it will make you a worse person, but you still want that thing? yeah, that feeling.

darn mosquitoes.

yes, i'm getting bitten.

early post anyway, couldnt go back to sleep after waking up at 7:12.

shit now i've woken my bro up. and it's like his birthday.

i need to wish him, cos i'm not going bowling with them. cos going lee's house.

well, i had this dream that we were like in school after some outing, then we wanted to play soccer, but then for some reason everyone got on 196, then i waved to lee and he got them to get off at the next stop...and hema was carrying my bag...and i ran into yk..

ya that's all i can remember.

-afks-

i'm back.

stomach didnt feel well. it's probably because of the blood of mosquitoes + cold drink first thing in the morning.

i know.

i shouldnt have. forgot.

so...i reckon to be safe, i should go at like 915...

oh and can someone back me so i can sue tapulous.

all my tap tap tracks like disappeared...with all my high scores..

bloody hell.

well, it could be worse.

i can totally imagine someone screaming at me right now : " how could it be worse?!"

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also, go check out hello fascination by breathe carolina. it's an awesome song.

here. see i'm so kind, haha.

~ You build me up just to break me down

You're being loud without a sound

You paste me in just to cut me out

Hello fascination ~

ps, beware the video, one of the guys is quite gay.

the picture says it all.

sole cramp.

i can't sing.

yeah, i know, no need to tell me, people of the world.

but i'll still be singing and there's nothing you can do about it. haha in your face.

that was stupid/. but still. i suppose it made sense. like i can't run to save my life or some other shit. but why the hell is the expression i cant " do sth" to save my life? if it's my life which needs saving, i'd do it. for sure. if not i'd probably be....dunno what to say.

it is now seven 09, parents are out having dinner with schoolmates....old ones...ex. secondary ones to be precise.

sounds like something the thompsons would say. those two punch and judy men hahahahaha.*

anyway, tmr's my brother's birthday. oh yes, surprise surprise. 10 june. or june ten. wtv. same thing. actually not.

but that's besides the point. apparently our fam and some other friends of my mum's fams are going bowling tmr, and i can't go. because i'm going lee's house. actually, there's some very good reasons that it's okay to miss tmr, as listed.

note. this tmr = the bowling.

ahhh screw all the mosquitoes WHY ARE THERE EVEN MOSQUITOES IN MY HOUSE BASTARDS.

anyway.

1. i'm not a big fan of bowling. bad experiences.

2. they won't be doing anything much and i'm not really that close to most of them. sort of.

3. i want to soccer.

4. don't know.

but i still feel bad...it's my brother's birthday..sigh, guess cant be helped.

need to soccer is too great.

and i cant even do something for him like buy the cake cos the stupid insurance agent is going to send one. a cheapskate one..

i guess all this is because i'm too weak to resist going out with my friends to be with my fam..sigh.

okay enough of that.

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so, today, went lib.....i got pissed in the morning at various things, cos after i got out of the house, i realised i was like 30mins early then my mum called and asked me to join them at tm, cos they were having lunch, so i decided to go, but then it was so freaking hot and i was sweating like mad, and the shirt was uncomfy, and the earphones i have now suck, and my phone like rang super loudly in the bus cos i didnt realise my mum called again. and yeah. then i was thinking about how stupid it was cos i realised i should have went with them in the car in the first place...then stupidly took bus and train when i could have taken just bus...sigh. bad judgement. then ate, and went to meet the others at bugis....reached at 2, an hour late...

shit someone's home. who could it be?

anyway, they were saying i look terrible in yellow..

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blah dont feel like posting. it's been like three posts and i'm like that already. sigh.

oh btw my ipod's dying on me...all my tap tap songs are gone and i cant connect to internet..shit;

maybe i'll post tmr. hope it goes alright.

all i'm asking is that it doesnt rain and we get to play soccer. please?

it's all a mess.