かなり.

one day, we will be remembered.

today was an okay-ish sort of day i guess. tiring. but i feel i accomplished a lot, cos so many lessons! and i managed to spam finish bio prac, only started today! skilled.

oh yes and I PASSED 2.4 OMG I'M SO DAMN HAPPY XD

haha, passed by 8s only, i know i suck, but still, i passed! improvement of like 50s from last year.

it's probably only because there's ji there to drag me along when i'm dying. haha ji/pin you're so awesome (:

identity swap!

oh yes, tmr's april. a new month, a new beginning. and it's justin's birthday! shall bring chocolate or something xD

hooray, i'm happy! even though there's heckload of things to do tonight, and i haven't started, got home at 9. i need to study physics, do the econs reflections, and....oh yes. physics project report. then tmr will be an awesome day because there's mediaaaaaaaa. and we can kick balls.

scored today! and assisted 2. even though i'm still lousy at ball control. png also scored, his shot hit the post then hit loo then hit the post then hit loo again then go in. epiccc.

too good to be true to me.

russians.

oh yes, today is martens' birthday! i think. hahaha i wonder if he'll see this. but he has fb so he should right. anyway,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRADLEY! (and all those epic names of yours xD)

i think there's like at least ten.

colour change.

after all this, what happens? i mean, there's so many clouds and then they congregate and then they release water, and then what?

i guess, the question i want to ask is, what's the point of all this?

i'm sorry, i'm just feeling desolate, lonely, let down, tired, pissed, no mood right now. can't believe there's napfa tmr..fail le.

i'm a failure. i can't even run 2.4 within 15 minutes! seriously, how hard can that be. there are people who can do it in 9. or 8. what the heck.

oh, cell bio quiz was utter bull. as usual. i give up on cell bio already. i just anyhow answer, might as well right rubbish while i'm at it. since i'm not sure what's right and what's wrong (rong) so just right.

omg. seriously!? you saw the mistake right. i put right instead of write.

oh, the doorbell's ringing. they can open it themselves..

it's like phone calls. the phone rings maybe 29-34 times a day? and about 0.0234 of them are for me. so i don't want to answer. but if i don't answer, i get scolded. how fair is that?

i need to be more positive..

i would also like to apologise to everyone i was screaming at just now during 230-300. i mean, it was pissing because i hated chinese because i don't even know what i'm writing, and then everything i don't know, and i don't have translator cos russian took my ipod and bazabakaboomba killed it!

anyway, yes. i was screaming and swearing and cursing uncontrollably and hitting the wall even though it hurts. it's just that, stuff's so messy! and i don't get anything and you're behind throwing newspapers and flicking uno cards around! wtf. we didn't buy you those cards for that okay. all of you.

anyway, i'm sorry.

let's start over, shall we?

last kiss.

my head feels heavy. and all of everything it's not supposed to feel.

i think today was productive, but it wasn't, i think. okay, that contradicts. i don't know. it's just not right. it's wrong.

i hate cell motility and cytoskeleton...so damn confusing. like, i'd rather study chem! but it's on thursday...i'm still clueless about hess law.

why do people come to conclusions that easily? i admit, i do this too. but, it's like they see a certain thing happening and then they just judge you. but then when you explain they don't listen, and then when they listen, they don't concede they're wrong, they don't apologise, and they still insist they're right. in some way. seriously.

unbreakable, like nothing could go wrong.

here i am, once again.

i'm torn into pieces

can't deny it, can't pretend

just thought you were the one.

but apparently you weren't.

i don't want to do this anymore.

so overwhelmed. so many things to do.

everything's lying there, waiting for completion. but i just don't have the heart to do it.

i don't want to do it.

so much to study. so much pointless shit to study.

bio quiz

phy test

chem test

cell bio project

bio diversity project

phy project report and presentation

english advocacy

english oral presentation

bio prac

chinese paper

what's the point anyway?

we'll all end up in oddball professions in the end. it's just to get a cert so we can get money.

what life?

i'm awesome.

Before you start, tag 15 people.

seriously. okay then. i tag.

chee. (create a blog!)

wong ( i know you're reading this)

dion

your mum.

now that's out of the way,

you've

1. smoked.
2. consumed alcohol.
3. slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex.
4. slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex.
5. kissed someone of the same sex.
6. had sex.
7. had someone in your room other than family.
8. watched porn.
9. bought porn.
10. tried drugs.
what is so far: 5

1. taken painkillers.
2. taken someone else's prescription medicine. (who hasn't. heck just take, as long as it helps xP)
3. lied to your parents.
4. lied to a friend.

(sometimes, lying is unavoidable and it just makes things easier. sometimes.)
5. snuck out of the house.
6. done something illegal.
7. felt hurt.
8. hurt someone.
9. wished someone to die.
10. seen someone die.
MY TOTAL: 11

1. missed curfew.
2. stayed out all night.
3. eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself. (hell yeah xD)
4. been to a therapist.
7. received a ticket. (i will, soon..)
5. been to rehab.
6. dyed your hair. ( no need for that haha. it's natural.)
8. been in an accident.
9. been to a club.
10. been to a bar.
MY TOTAL: 13. wow, i'm good.

1. been to a wild party.
2. been to a Mardi Gras parade.
3. drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night.
4. had a spring break in Florida.
5. sniffed anything.
6. wore black nail polish.
7. wore arm bands.
8. wore t-shirts with band names.
9. listened to rap.
10. owned a 50 Cent CD.
MY TOTAL: 14

1. dressed gothic.
2. dressed girly.
3. dressed punk.
4. dressed grunge.
5. stole something. (from where?)
6. been too drunk to remember anything.
7. blacked out. \sounds cool. but no, scary.
8. fainted. (same thing lah. isn't it o.o)
9. had a crush on a neighbour.
MY TOTAL: 14

1. had a crush on a friend. (nah, i had a crush on your mum xD)
2. been to a concert. (odyssey counts.)
3. dry-humped someone.
4. been called a slut.
5. called someone a slut.
6. installed speakers in your car.
7. broken a mirror.
8. showered at someone of the opposites sex's house.
9. brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush. (haha when i'm damn tired i just grab and heck care)
MY TOTAL: 17

1. consider/considered Ludacris your favorite rapper.
2. seen an R-rated movie in theater.
3. cruised the mall.
4. skipped school. (oversleep then i fake headache. primary school mah.)
5. had surgery.
6. had an injury.
7. gone to court.
8. walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping.
9. caught something on fire. (loads of things)
10. lied about your age. (i think i should. people just get amazed when i tell them i'm 16. T.T i look old..)
MY TOTAL: 21

1. owned/rented an apartment/house.
2. broke the law in the police's presence. (hey, jaywalking counts.)
3. made out with someone who had a gf/bf.
4. got in trouble with the police.
5. talked to a stranger.
6. hugged a stranger.
7. kissed a stranger.
8. rode in the car with a stranger. (cab drivers hahaha)
9. been harassed. (hema? lol)
10. been verbally harassed. (you know who.)
MY TOTAL: 26

1. met face-to-face with someone you met online.
2. stayed online for 5+ hours straight.
3. talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight.
4. watched TV for 5 hours straight. (i've done way longer...and i bet my brother can do 5 days.)
5. been to a fair.
6. been called a bad influence. (hardikkishorpatel! your fault la.)
7. drink and drive.
8. prank-called someone.
9. laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex.
10. cheated on a test.
MY TOTAL: 34

- Analysis -
If You Have Less Than 10.. write [im a Goody Goody]
If You Have More Than 10.. write [im still a goody goody]
If You Have more Than 20..write [im average]
If You Have More Than 30..write [im a bad kid]
If You have more than 40..write [im a very bad influence]
If You Have more than 50..write [im a horrible person]
If You Have more than 60..write [i should be in jail]
If You Have more than 70..Write [i should be dead]

i have a feeling this quiz is kinda mundane, so yes. i'll make up for it by giving you an awesome view. enjoy.

flux.

i think i've used that title before.

can't be bothered to check, heck xD

i shouldn't reuse titles...because everyday is different! but yeah, i'm kinda running out of nice words.

so today was mainly training to school on my own (boring), sleeping in chinese, eating, and then was geog in the com lab which was kinda fun because - wait stop! my posts are getting boring. and i kinda feel i have loads to elaborate. let's do it section by section.

i feel so bad for sleeping in chinese! but no choice lor, i think i had like 4+ h of sleep the night before..so just crashed. i was going to do the paper, which is just copying since i did the compres before, but then didn't even complete! sad. damn, so unproductive. then went down to eat jap with png. dion epic, he sees the chicken rice store suddenly open then he just rushes there, heck care what he eats, as long as short queue can le xD

did i mention that i love avril lavigne?

like, i love her, but i'm not in love with her. it's hard to explain. it's like, i love you all, but i'm not in love with you all. get it.

phy was okay, we set consultation slot le and i sorta understand. then geog..was kinda fun this time because we went com lab! but the com took like 1h to start up, seriously. wtballs la, the school needs to replace them, seriously. they're damn rich. replace all with imacs...that'll be awesome.

so yes, i blogged, tumblr-ed, and did geog. quite productive, just that now i have to wrap it up..essay outline only thank goodness. if write essay i die.

math was...distracting. quite fun, just that, well, sitting with fiona, dion, hardik, jordan, you end up talking about other stuff. like infatuation. i just reminded you, haha.

then photoshoot! epic messy, and we couldn't get into the art room cos apparently the guard lent the keys to someone. seriously, you can't lend keys to students! that's like giving away a plate of macaroni cheese and expecting it to come back. in the end we removed the window panes and wong climbed in and opened from the inside. skill.

finsh, bridge home, blablabla.

oh yes, speaking of bridge, here's amelia's hacker hand. damn gay, nothing above an 8 xD

that's not possible...haha. worst hand in the history of hands. thank goodness can reshuffle. if there's an ace it's damn sad. well, at least you get one set.

elearning tmr! we only have english, which counts as nothing, econs, which is okay ( ihope), and physics, which should be okay. i think.

okay, i go do stuff now. byebye.

you were everything, everything that i wanted.

we were meant to be, meant to be, but we lost it.

some things weren't right, so she just gave up, packed up, and walked away.

don't give up so easily. if you do, you'll never know what might have been.

windows and the school com failllll.

yes, we're in school now. the com just took about an hour, to start up and get into the account. epic skill. geog, we're supposed to use something called diigo. reminds me of diglet if you ask me. the pokemon. that's like the only few pokemons i know. trying to do this without her seeing, and she's like behind me. so difficult. okay now she's in front le. phew. i can hear dion like every few seconds, talking about irrelevant stuff. typical haha. later got photoshoot. wong's scouts. that will be a future cca, and then he'll teach them to cheat at bridge. the usual. oh, turns out dion's wow-ing over the population pyramid of italy, because there are like heckload of females above 75 compared to the males. hardik says it's because they had war and all the men went to fight. which makes sense, i guess. but dion was jumping to conclusions and saying they werte reborn. haha. okay, i need to go do work now. must submit essay outline in an hour. gg. jordan says : foqewg6yg6y9o yeah, he's just weird that way. i'll post later when i get home, safely, i hope.

canon melody.

can't be bothered to practise what i'm supposed to be practising, i'll just spam songs that i like and anyhow play xD back to december is awesome..

uhuh. and life's like this.

that's the way it is.

lalalala.

chill out, what'cha yelling for.

lay back, it's all been done before

and if you could only

let it be, you will see

ahh forget it i'm too slow. cos i keep making mistakes and then have to go back to correct. this keyboard too thin for me xP

all i did today was cut hair, did a paragraph of chinese, eat, read more books, get sad, eat more, finish tuition work, spam com because i love music. and then did a bit of chinese, then realise i did the compres before in tuition! so i just have to spam copy tonight...yay i'm so happy.

mood swings again? i was sad just now. i was sad that henry had to die and that clare was so lonely. but still. that book is the best.

time to go spam my chinese. shower first actually x.x

what does that mean actually? i'm having a hard time keeping up with emotes nowadays. i just use (: :D ;D xD

that's it.

i didn't touch bio prac at all xD actually i can't remember where it is hahaha

and it goes on and on and on ~

remind me never to drink coffee on an empty stomach again.

yes, that's all. this is bordering on twitter and tumblr already.

cya, off to do work ):

oh yes, the f1 season has started. haven't been following for a long long long time.

café

coffee for breakfast.

tokyo and paris.

up, up here we go.

i like the feeling when you're so happy that you hold your hands up, like a bird, and run through the night. it's so awesome (:

all i did today was wake up, sleep more, eat, read the time traveller's wife, eat more, read more, do q4 of math, go to tuition, eat more, come home, went for guitar, and now i'm here.

ahh, the life of productivity.

(i sound like yawen. don't you think.)

anyway. i realise this week i'm mega-epicly screwed because i spent all the free time this week on rehearsals so i only did the bare minimum. well, i probably would have done anyway. live for the moment, man. that's just a nicer way of putting the word slacking.

stuff to do tmr :

your mum.

just kidding.

tuition hw

that chinese paper.

phy proj report.

sleep.

find research articles for dv

stuff to do in the following week :

study chem

study bio

study physics?

basically, screwed.

stuff to do after that :

film bio-di

edit bio-di

do cell bio game ahh damn this i don't want to type anymroea3

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yes, so that's how my life works. i want a dslr! still. 600D so ex. but i don't really like 550, it's kinda small. but small is light, and that's good.

okay. imma go watch the imovie tutorial. cya.

oh look, it's that fork again.

where we go we don't need roads.

of course, it's easier with roads. less hacking your way through jungles and slipping into the sand.

yesterday was the concert, and playing soccer at the netball court, then epic coming home by taxi. final bill was $33, crazy. got night charge, that's why. nevermind i go get reimbursement. haha if not i would not have taken taxi.

but still, it's damn ex.

enough about the past. it's so tiring to reminiscence. another big word. actually i've not much to say here.

okay, later will be tuition, and guitar. so i must edit the phy vid clips and do the report...and practise guitar. i think none of that will happen.

i'll study tmr, week 2 is crazy. there's chem test, phy test, cell bio quiz. insane.

i didn't even know the f1 season started o.o out of track with the world..i blame school.

whatever, i'll go. no mood :(

you won't find faith or hope down a telescope.

okay, i shouldn't actually be here because it's already 830 and i should be studying bio-di.

porifera, cnidaria, ctenophora, something. nematoda (i think), mollusca.

is it? lol. i'm screwed for lecture 6, didn't actually attend the lesson haha. was at research congress.

lessons today were just balls, slept through half of them. because mainly it was just ENGLISH, and we don't do anything in english, she talks until no one bothers to copy notes anymore. but i'm nice, i copied half. well, it was more like 30%. but still.

i believe it's better to just sleep for half of the lesson, then the rest of it you're completely awake. that's definitely better than being half awake-half asleep and trying not to fall asleep for the entire lesson. seriously, that's epic torture okay.

oh yes, dion and i and fiona were discussing about people's life prospects just now. i mean, it's like some people are better than others, it's just unfair okay. everything should be equal, we should all start out with the same qualities!

categories considered are :

1. richness

2. fitness

3. looks

4. studies

5. erm, can't rmb?

but life's not fair. i need to be happier (:

in and out of love.

i'm at this point in time where i can't decide whether i should start to care or whether i should just not care. but anyway, all the feelings and the anger will surface sooner or later.

but what the hell, we're all still here.

well, today was just trying to get enough sleep, and icecream cake! and spamming pes home with dion, and some rain.

seriously, can't believe it's raining. but good, means i can get good sleep tonight. tmr nothing to prepare for (yay!), and we're going URA (wtv that is) for econs! and we get to soccer. i heck le, i'm playing, maybe it'll help my leg recover.

yes, my shin's been hurting. i hate these injuries.

lol my dl speed is suddenly like 1MB/s. epic fast.

jiamin, you're not allowed to say that 1MB/s is slow. if you want to, you can go tell the cow over there. so there.

oh yes, as i've been saying, i'm pissed that i keep getting injured. like, my knee hurts on a weekly basis, and then that time my heel hurt (which recovered already), then now my shin hurts. seriously, i can't even get fit if i wanted to. can't exercise without feeling pain.

of course, i'm also not trying hard enough. that's two reasons. sigh.

but other than that, everything's fine (:

i hope.

i hope i'm not being a extra bastard, wanting to help out with everything and telling people what to do. i don't know, when i find myself doing that, i feel bad. like i shouldn't be there.

well, can't be worse than those orchestra people. rehearsals everyday this week from 4-8. gg

nahhh. here's jordan's epic faill. haha.

well, he requested me to post this so yes.

goodbye and goodnight people. may the force be with you. and whatnots.

here we go, come with me

there's a world out there that we should see

the battle for third place.

okay, the latest episode of doctor who just blurred me out. like, the tardis is inside the tardis and there are multiple copies of all of them because they came from a later timeline, and if you step inside the small tardis you end up inside the larger one? what.

you all don't get me don't you. okay i give you link you go figure.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=51JtuEa_OPc

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RkmiefoRcfU

copy paste please, i don't think links work here anyway. blogger needs improvements!

so, today i did geog, read some geog, and nothing much. when school starts, my productivity will increase. i heck le, enjoy the last night of holidays.

actually, i don't know what's right and what's wrong anymore.

i'm hungry.

ha. bet i got you hungry.

lonely much? heck, screw it.

been eating alot alot today.

seriously, it's a lot. let me recap.

okay, since the morning, i've eaten

年糕 (fried in egg) do you guys do that? somehow i seem to be the only person who does o.o

erm, prata. with sugar. you know, the frozen sort.

my sis's instant noodles

some chocolate toffee thing which we bought from switzerland. it's super sinful.

2 more of the above.

soya milk bubble tea? from mr. bean. it's weird, too sweet, really.

water

炒米粉

some flower thing which you will see later.

oh yes, side note. i nearly walked out of the house just now, even though there's no guitar. can't believe i forgot. i stuffed it in the bag, loaded the file and was about to walk out when i got the sms from cyrus. scary. can't believe i told him and i forgot.

zzz. old age.

blogging, is a serious business. as in, don't disturb me when i'm blogging, because if you do i'll probably give you a one-liner then ignore you until i'm done. if not the post will take 3h. i learnt that the hard way, my first few posts took that long.

today's been mostly depressing and moody, but somehow i'm happy now. it's the night, i get to blog, and use the com, so it can't be all bad. but i'm still worried. i'm worried about all the homework, all the tests, everything. i'm worried about june exams actually.

looking forward too much.

well, time for pictures. text posts are boring. but blogger's not that picture friendly..

ultimate apple advert! they should pay me for this.

that's the...yeah. go figure.

my mum's new iPhone 4.

apparently it was the best choice since everything out there is now smartphones and life is sad.

well...yes. i get new earphones whenever someone buys an iphone. -jumps for joy-

okay, the happiness is becoming fake. maybe it's just that i'm not natural at this time of day.

off to check my blog stats.

nothing to say.

hmm. my dad got this cool usb hub thing which looks like an ufo dish and it changes colours. well sort of. but i can't get a picture because then i'll have to unplug it and i'm lazy.

haven't done anything...i must study today! at least a little bit..i'm thinking bio..whichever one first. then tmr geog ba. i don't even know how to do geog, heck la.

i fail.

well, time to go shower and start the day. i bet people like wong are still asleep anyway. and dion's probably spamming com games. and my mum and most of my family are at OG. what is this, man.

blehh. my voice's too deep, i don't like it.

oh yes, how come 09 went marina square also! hackers. i was like looking through the album because it just came up on fb, then i saw the balloons, that it was a "hold on, that looks familiar.." kind of moment. scammers.

but the video of chee and junwei's good, haha. it's damn epic the way they keep raising their hands to block the camera.

i can't find any good quizzes, all balls de.

nah. there you go.

we need to go out more, it's fun to meddle with photos.

roast beef from epic long ago. it's nice okay!

side note : the first photo is kinda lousy, because i think the cam kinda screwed up or something, it ended up with ISO 80 when it was the evening. edited already, but there's only so much you can do.

you know things are bad when this happens.

reminds me of that breaking dawn chapter : you know things are bad when you feel guilty for being rude to vampires.

today's been mostly average-ish. slept a lot. sleeping is good, i suppose. but nothing else is.

things to do in the next 2 days :

1.finish geog

2.study geog

3.study bio? dunno when it is..

4.erm. screwthis

darylleehowjun hurry up go post!

i'm happy!

haha. for some reason. all the work i did today is like suibi, and econs stuff. later maybe i'll go study. if i can find the motivation xP

tagging photos on fb now. think i shall start with housecarn. it's awesome. let's do it all over again...

it's amazing, what music can do to people. so awesome.

oh yes, if you want to be linked, please tag and let me know! i shall go now, lack of things to say. will post later...hopefully.

infectious grin.

intruder alert.

forever(happy)pin. tumblr.com, i smile epic :D

hello, i'm pin.
today's been wasteful, just went out, and did nothing but chem. but i guess that's useful, cause i'll never be able to do chem alone anyway. yes, i can't do anything.

oh, check out my new hair! it's flat and cool, agree or don't get muruku!
it's dion favourite snack, we use it to force answers out of him.

dion's been the saviour the whole day, doing everything we don't know (which is everything) :D
i'm like playing dinosaurs now, waittt what? no. something on my phone, not telling you. prollly pes, and you're prolly right, but not telling you :D which leaves you thinking and in doubt even if you're 100% sure, you're still a tad bit unsure. see how i'm controlling you by talking bullshit? :D hahas.

i'm beside dion, he's been saying weird comments today. like, "disappoint" and "you got pwnned".

and of course, who could forget "FRIDAY" :DDD

it was thursday yesterday and saturday comes after friday!

this could be like the ultimate new preschool song.. you know those that go ABC? now you have FRIDAYFRIDAY YESTERDAY WAS THURSDAY TMR IS SATURDAY AND SUNDAY COMES AFTERWARDS~ hahahas. epic, rebecca black. go youtube.

oh, i'm at fiona's btw, and i'm not fiona. and fiona didn't post this post. and lastly, chee, if you're reading this, leave this page or.. or, no muruku!

i like strawberries,
goodbye, let's go find koi.

singing, " here we go again."

well, it's raining.

i'm supposed to be going out soon. but i still feel bad that i didn't actually do anything yesterday. nothing at all. sigh. quite bad. fine, i'll go type some econs before i go. anyway, i'm stuck here and i want to listen to music (:

chelsea drew 0-0 with fc copenhagen. blargh. apparently they kept failing in front of goal. curse on the net...or maybe they just weren't concentrating. i mean, if hema can score, they can, right? or should that be me in the equation.

turn it up turn it up for the people that say, we're moving on and we'll be okay.

tumblr is all " news about japan now." come friday, it'll be all "fried eggs, random shit because rebecca black's damn epic to laugh at".

argh. my nose.

i will have pictures to post later! i think xD just as long as dion doesn't oversleep.

...how come i didn't know that paramore split! no one told me...now only 3 of them left. balls. but yeah, it's bound to happen when the lead singer is the main frontman(woman) and the only one signed to the record label...there's too much tension.

depressing. it's the rain's fault. i shall predict that the rain will continue until at least 3.

sometimes i feel the world's too bloody unfair.

someone to talk to.

we can't control most things.

i don't know what's wrong with me..it's like everything's falling apart. i haven't done any hw, and that's okay, and our projects are screwed, and that's okay. how come i don't care about the things which actually matter xP oh yes, and there's loadsa tests which i haven't studied for. but that's okay as well.

sometimes, i feel like my human relationships are breaking down. and i'm having these epic mood swings which make me sad/pissed at random moments. and i'm frustrated mostly when i can't do things, or when i can't get myself to start to do things.

sometimes i wonder if there's even a point in all this.

now that's a good idea. what is a good idea anyway?

sorry, this blog is turning into some kind of suicidal/depression/life sucks rant. okay, i'm not suicidal...yet. not like hardik, who openly talks about death. don't do that. death is scary. but most of all, death is sad. even though i've never actually had a loved one die. like, that close to me. but i think it'll be bad...i think i'll just fall apart or something..

music is the solution, but music doesn't work sometimes. it's like my brain's blocking me off. music block.

lol i don't know what to do. my knee is hurting again! crap..i hate this.

and you wonder why i walked away.

i love it when i've made someone's day.

it's so awesome, just to affect someone's mood in a way you couldn't imagine. i mean in the good way, not in the bad way!

F C Bflat Dm!

must jiayou. bar chords..

dion's humble abode.

in short, i am at dion's house now.

with adrian, yx, hardik and abc.

they're doing phy...so i slack first. haha. just now we went ecp. dion threw my frisbee into the sea. well, it's not mine, it's someone -ahem- else's.

so i'm dead. or at least, i owe someone a frisbee. that's not really too good.

yes, i know i'm very bad. but dion's fault la! he threw it into the sea. but the outing was fun though. we spammed food :D

and i want to marry boon chong omg his potato salad is so damn awesome. i just finished like half of the entire container xD then go play in the sea! so epic. but then we got news that there was going to be some rain which would be radioactive, so we went back quickly, but still got caught in it...no choice.

uploading photos now....it's taking foreva! and that's only from one sd card...there's still another one./ facebook needs a more effective system.

oh yes, dion's mother cooking dinner for us. so awesome.

adrian is wondering what he's here for now...it's like, i'm here for econs, he's here for bio, they're doing physics now. we nothing to do..haha

i quote hardik : "there are 2 women in the house right now." i don't know why that was funny.

oh yes, if you want an outing, go plan it yourself..you know how difficult it is to plan or not! balls la.

i hate being sad.

and i hate this feeling, of doing nothing. this feeling of being lazy and slacking. and this feeling that my back, along with all my health, is giving way.

well, at least i'm going out tmr. i think. but still...emotionless. and i can't be bothered to pack. feel like nothing's happening.

i feel like i'm lacking clothes, bags, and more importantly, time. but actually, i have a lot already. for example, i don't have to spend every waking minute working to earn money so that i can eat. see, that's a plus point.

but we're all awesome so i shouldn't feel sad.

blasted books. and blasted holidays. now thursday is off as well because something went wrong. and it's all my fault.

i'm too lazy.

sad story.

ahh, the joy of reading.

you know those stories? yes those stories that are just so consumed with sadness that they completely change your mood, but at the same time you feel it's so beautiful because of the way the author tells the story. but at the same time, even though it's a sad story, it's so full of love. and those little moments of love, of ultimate happiness, are worth living for.

and that's all that matters.

yay. totally unproductive day again, just that i've started reading the time traveller's wife again. well, i must finish journals by today! i've found like 1 article already..which is the pig one. then can't think on what to do le..maybe i'll just do singularity. but singularity is damn scary.

i am incredibly fail at enigmo. go check it out. it's such an awesome game, when you realise how much effort the developers had to put in to code the game. the whole thing has awesome physics and it's in full 3-D. and the music is nice. very soothing.

you were all the things i thought i knew, and i thought we could be.

epiphany.

i want to post but i don't .

because i'm pissed. i shall do a table.

i am pissed at :

myself for slacking so much and not doing any work

the world for all the natural disasters

everyone for all the pressure

you for not replying me even though you probably can go you just can't be bothered to hit a few buttons.

you for pressurising me when i don't feel like it.

my back because it hurts.

my heart because it made everything hurt

the teachers for all that homework

zambia because excel doesn't work when i want to do the population graph

excel for being so different

geography for existing

myself for being so fat. and lazy.

homework because it sucks

the world for all that competition which makes us needing to study like !@#!@ and for what?

tomorrow. because i don't know what i'm going to do then. i know i won't do work..

your mum i just couldn't resist.

etc.

etc.

and so the list goes on and on and on..it's just total balls okay. here you go, some balls.

-jply carp. don't google balls. seriously, trust me, don't. -

see, the world is too obsessed with sex. point proven.

i want to get back to school. take photos, take videos. blast music. kick balls. whatever. whatever that has nothing to do with paper. and all those red marks.

mind-blown, and who cares about what they think :D

yesterday was awesome.

house carnival, all that blasting music in the hall, the epic photoshoot, soccer, KOI, bowling, back to school to soccer, pes home with dion.

nice.

and most of the time dion was actually doing his cell bio prac. for the entire day. haha

anyway, pics are with jiamin and dion, or is it in fiona's sd card? can't remember...

lol so much work. heck first, today i shall just slack. then go arrange times for projects.

oh yes hema owned us all at bowling...ahem.

shall post again tonight, if i'm in the mood.

(i can't believe this is happening to me all over again! i told myself no more, but...i suppose it happens. now i'm gonna get hurt all over again.)

You tell me i'm a wreck,

show me i'm a mess,

how could you epect anything less?

turn it up.

do you know how bad today was. well, it was pretty bad. and pretty good too. it's the usual, i don't know what i'm doing, what i'm saying, i feel immensely tired and pissed, finished heckloads of work, but there's still heckloads and heckloads of projects, rearranging photoshoot timings, worried it won't work out, worried about tmr, squeezing through people, earphones broken, ate unhealthy food, hot, blah, worried about tmr, feeling i'm too arrogant, i talk too much, lousy chinese test results, annoying bio, pes spam, deadness.

i love my jacket.

oh yes, paramore.

the truth never set me free, so i'll do it myself.

-awesome riff-

most of the time i don't know what to say, so i'm just thinking out loud.

heck, if i can't get the shirt tmr i'll just wear polo all the way. how come they can run out of size de! i thought they order according to our orders de...if it's some extra dude who took extra, i will throw a lime key pie at him.

actually, that's just a waste of lime key pies. okay, i have chinese letter to myself thingy to do, so i won't stay too long. in bio, we learnt that dung beetles are awesome because they help to rid the world of dung! awesome animals. without them, we'll be really screwed..

i must be less arrogant.

howcomethenightsaresosouless.

i'm losing my love for music! i mean, when we blast in class i feel awesome, but now, it somehow just dies away.

okay. must listen tmr morning. been bridging too much ;P

but today we taught loo to play. he's quite okay lar. except that he bids epic high. he goes to like 4 if you force him, then one game he called himself! damn epic. lee said he didn't have ace spades and dion didn't have, and i look down at my cards and i don't have also. damn epic xD

holidays are coming! and house carnival. so awesome. but i'm worried about projectsssss. got so many! there's

phy

bio di

bio cell

english

econs

something else.

hai i lazy to do work now, just do the bare essentials first. saturday i'll list all the holiday homework again..so that there's a reference.

how come i feel other people's guitar easier to play than mine. that doesn't make any sense, i'm supposed to be attuned to mine! balls. bought the wrong one i think...waste money ><

yes, it took me more than a year to realise that.

i wanna sync ipod! but i think can't upgrade to 4.3 yet because need to update itunes, and to do that i have to do a complete software install and that involves restarting! mum.

no open GL es on ipod...sadd.

whatever. there's carnivores! such an awesome game. i now hold the record at 5 t-rexes. nearly six but well, a hill got in the way.

apparently it's such a popular game, even the train driver was playing! and because of that, the train kept abruptly stopping and moving, and caused like half the people to fall. sorta fall.

tasks for tonight :

edit and upload commentaries.

load crap into ipod

file heck loads of stuff

make sure bio prac's done to the max so tmr can go copy

or something like that

tasks for tmr :

rediscover my love for music

finish bio prac

great.dion doesn't have the bio prac so i have to scan for him.

be responsible for your own crap, people.

i'm too arrogant.

daryodatcyl.

/

i can't find a nice picture of taylor swift with sparks and those nice circular lighty bubbles things. damn. i think you have to take those instead of ripping them off someone's website. because the smart people keep their nice photos private.

epic house shirts...i want XL then they must pian pian don't have.

oh yes, the attempt at photoshoot today failed, so hopefully we're chionging everything on friday. it better go well. the astro people stood me up today..waste my break lah.

but actually we had a lot of breaks today so doesn't matter. yeo didn't come so 2h physics turned into 2h break. so we went downstairs eat breakfast, then play cards, run up to class, go audi sit there study a bit, go back blast music. awesome (:

i feel like i'm doing everything wrong sometimes you know. it's probably not like that, but i just feel, the manner people speak to me, that i'm acting the wrong way, i'm talking in a wrong tone. and am i a bad influence? how can i be..i'm hardly an influence. maybe he meant it as a joke, but it's seriously making me question myself...

balls.

oh yes, i can't kick balls at all. missed like 4 chances today. mostly open de! mum lah, dying. loo hacked a lot in front, then at the back he got pissed because they kept shouting at him..but still. word of the day : ARROGANCE.

because right, if you're arrogant you can't play good football, or do anything well for that matter.

oh yes, apparently NASA says there is no extraterrestrial life...yet. and kesha's gonna throw condoms at people. yes, america's insane.

(of course i didn't know how to spell extraterrestrial right, i used autocorrect. think, people, i'm not that english savvy. i can't spell support, for crying out loud. always spell it as surpport.)

it was the end of the decade, but the start of an age.

it's amazing how things just lead to each other. check this out.

weather damn hot

i open window

forget to close window

rain

water comes in and drenches the entire floor so it's sick and 2#!@#!@ dirty

i sit beside that.

then

english we have a 2 mins break

yx comes over to return my bio prac

wind blows

it drops on the dirty part

end result : i storm out of the room with the paper, go to the toilet then realise there's no bloody need because i can't wash paper, it'll just die. so i dry it and return to my seat and start swearing about the fan and the stoooopid weather and the freaking water.

shit lah, i think i didn't close again today -.-

oh yes, hopefully can get in free for the concert on 25 may, haha. volunteer to take photo or do AV, scam de. media's awesome.

having a music block again. i hate it when that happens, nothing sounds nice.

off to do commentaries.

don't be so quick to accuse. be quick to forgive instead, so that you do not even need to say anything that may hurt people.

the world is very confused.

dortmund did a gay trick shot, which is probably not real. here, you can check it out. but they're all german so be prepared.

http://sg.yfittopostblog.com/2011/03/04/dortmund-team-pull-off-amazing-trick-shot/

also, some referee issued 36 red cards in match, sending off everyone. at first i was like, comeon, there's only 22 players. then apparently he send off all the coaching staff and substitutes as well. well, yes, that would make 36. nahhhh.

http://sg.yfittopostblog.com/2011/03/07/referee-shows-36-red-cards-in-a-match/

the links probably fail because blogger's like that, so just copy paste. you know the drill.

this week seems kinda fun actually.

tmr : econs test

wed : thur timetable = pe + epic spam lessons

thur : we're going science centre? the usual..

friday : house carnival! hopefully can blast music...it's so fun! and we're going out afterwards i guess. must watch the king's speech.

okay. gotta go study econs now.

later.

picture perfect memories.

well, i'm actually here to post pictures of soccer people cos i thought it'll be nice. so yeah, warning. if you're not a soccer person you can just wait for the next post :D which would be like tuesday, probably.

cesc fabregas.

robin van persie.

both injured. so arsenal's screwed. damn. i was so hoping that they'd beat everyone and win 4 trophies this season.

but chelsea's okay now, because we have lampard.

and torres.

and who could forget, this guy.

haha. guess i'm done now. off to slack even more.

epic smile.

you'll never walk alone.

nicholas sparks.

i don't know about yesterday, so i'm not going to talk about it much.

i need books to read. i'm turning evil. doing the wrong things. talking in the wrong way..

yesterday, before cca started, it was okay. i mean, then soccer, and the astro thing right, i felt bad. because i felt like i was talking in the wrong way, being very douchey. i don't know, being unsure myself is not good. but then if i don't, i'll just end up offending random people..

balls.

mass extinction is coming apparently. we're screwed. blasted humans. i'm such a hypocrite lol. when i'm the one sitting here wasting power typing this so we have to kill environments for energy.

later hopefully do some work...then go tuition and guitar. hectic. hope it's okay. again. most things don't go right anyway.

the theme for this month is love.

so we just steady ourselves, and move on.

my math journal really feels pathetic. but i put effort into it okay! hmph.

worrrrrrrried. bio quiz tmr. english also. but i heck english, just wring it when it comes. actually more worried about friday. phy test and chem quiz! which one to study for...zzz. gg.

okay, i promise myself i'll only be here until 830, then i off com and go muggg bio. it's really the gg week ><

lol high school musical's awesome. we must all have one night where we have some epic disco. that'll be so awesome (:

but everyone's awesome anyway, so it's already awesome. see, i'm happy tonight. weeeeird. but then ji is very high right? so it's okay.

pe tmr! mum, i don't think i can handle the running le...last week 4 rounds i died le..

you know there's that moment when things don't go according to plan? like, it rains or something. then you feel like the whole world's conspiring against you, but at least you're not angry at each other because you can't be. there's simply no one to blame. but when people don't fall in tandem with what you do, when people don't do what you expect them to do, what you want them to do, you get angry. and you're annoyed. we all suffer from this. except the nicest of the nicest people. that's because most of us are naturally selfish. we're selfish inside, in the sense that we want things to work out for ourselves, we want things to happen the way we want it, not any other way. and in wanting this, we forget that the people around us are only human beings, that they have the right and the ability to decide what's right for them, and what should be done, not what you think they should have done.

2;therainwillneverstopfalling.

He slid into the corridor. The empty corridor. Here it was white and clean, not unlike outside, where it was dark and dirty. He had lived there and plied his trade there for almost fifteen years. Fifteen years, which to be perfectly honest had seemed like fifty. That's a long time to be in one place. Fifteen years of darkness, with no means of escape. But he had finally made it. Only the strongest and the most experienced ever could. He had escaped from that prison, that hellhole, and he was ready. As ready as he could ever be. He moved on, but not too quickly, in case the alarm went off. And also, because he did not want to trip any of the lazer beams.

There was a giant volcano, with lava dripping down its sides. Just like mount doom, which frodo had finally made it to after such a long walk. A Lord Of The Rings junkie, he was. This volcano seemed so real, and he wanted to believe that it was real. Except that the lava was purple, and the ground he was standing on was pink. Tom did not know what had induced him into this dreamscape, he just knew that he did not fancy pink much. The only time he had found himself in a completely pink environment was in his ex-girlfriend's house, and that was how the relationship had ended. Him screaming about pink, and her screaming that he treated her badly. Whatever. He no longer cared for her; like everyone, he of all people knew that love was tiring, it was no longer worth caring for. All he wanted to was to sleep in peace. Let me out, he screamed inside his head, willing it to yield to his intentions. The rat continued drinking.

Suddenly, the seemingly idealic landscape was gone. The sky had changed. Instead of being sunny and full of fluffy clouds, it was now crackling with thunder and flashes of lightning were present in the shady clouds, threatening to turn the very tree they were resting under into a pile of ashes. Freaking water cycle. She was a meteorologist at the Zurich Control and Testing Centre, or otherwise abbreviated ZCCTC. As if the world didn't have enough water already. Stretching over to wake Phil, she did not notice the vermillion adorned petal that fell out of her sleeve.

the darkness is so nostalgic.

i don't know. i just feel sad. and like a bad person, for the moment. i think i'm going mental. or maybe i did really do some bad things today. but it wasn't that bad a day! sigh.

i don't know, maybe it's just moodswings :/ i can't even remember what caused this! what the heck.

[20:05:00] Jor-DAN Png says:

pin,facebook says you like me

[20:05:15] Pin says:

no it doesn't,

[20:05:23] Jor-DAN Png says:

go 408

[20:05:25] Jor-DAN Png says:

wall

[20:05:41] Pin says:

it's okay.

[20:06:08] Jor-DAN Png says:

wat

[20:06:08] Jor-DAN Png says:

what's ok

[20:06:27] Jor-DAN Png says:

oh and rmb to post about how awesome my goal was

[20:06:32] Pin says:

i don't know.

[20:06:34] Jor-DAN Png says:

on your blog,not fb

you see, i don't even know what i'm saying anymore. hai, freaking mood swings.

don't you get annoyed when people ask you how to do something? then you spend all that effort explaining to them and then you get them to understand, then they do it and they get a higher mark than you? then you feel like you're worthless and you hate them. happens all the time.

i'll never get over these feelings...i'm hopeless.

sorry, i'm just very depressed now. it's not good for health. okay, i go do math journal and find my english notes now. byebye.

ps: why the heck do you care so much if i didn't bring my notes? i mean, it's not like i did it on purpose, right. then you have to make it as if i did it to inconvenience other people. can't you be more like carefree and shit. it's only the first time. i even filed everything nicely for you, woman. i don't know where all the notes are, i'm just lost. so much freaking paper.

oh yes, i also feel like my math journal's too scam, it's too easy and shit. people will say that, and somehow i care what people think. i shouldn't. because it doesn't really matter, because what matters is what i think, and what my real friends think. yes, i value friends. but then i'm afraid i'll get low marks, because everything sucks, and i don't think i used two families of functions. screw this.

screw all of this.