stellar performance.

hi. it's me again :D just realised there's no point being so unhappy over how i'm a bad person, so i'm just gonna heck it and enjoy the moment.

quiz. stole from fiona. the quiz spammer...somehow i like reading people's quizzes more than doing them..i almost didn't do this one. i think it's like my 3rd quiz. bad.

Coke or Pepsi?
Pepsi, hands down. Coke's so strong..

Regular pool or heated pool?
i want a purple pool. like, purple water. that'll be so cool. oh, or those special water that changes colour when you move your hand through it.

Hot tea or ice tea?
if it's non-milked i prefer iced...if it's like milk tea then hot! so awesome.

Sunflower or daisy?
sunflowers.

Red rose or pink rose?
red./
Salt or pepper?
Saltt.
Red or Green Apple?
Red again. Green seems unfriendly..
Red or Blue?
they're both very nice. depends on what context.
Christmas or Thanksgiving?
well, doesn't really matter as long as i get nice food xD
Pink or Green?
Green. (i'm a guy okay)
Hamburger or Hotdogs?
ham.
Music or Movies?
music now, movies at random times.
Heaven or hell?
Heaven! haha but the man in eatpraylove says it's the same thing, so ya
Comedy or horror?
Comedy. No horror please i'll just get nightmares and then can't sleep.
aol or aim?
no one uses those anymore la please! msn? or fb chat lol
Ipod or mp3?
iPod people. it's cooler.
Purse or backpack?
Neither. i wanna be free....
Myspace or bebo?
wth's bebo. FaceBook! got bejeweled
Parisian or Sears?
Is that where people buy babies or sth...confused.
Paris or France?
haha. Lyon .

Milky Way or Sneakers?
milky way as in the galaxy? wait what? no that's joined, as in milkyway..then it must be the chocolate. but sneakers are shoes. unless they mean snickers omgwtbs -.-
Vanilla or Chocoloate?
Chocolate! but mix is good. vanilla is pure..
Phone or Internet?
haha internet. skype ba. or video chat, better.
Steak or Shrimp?
shrimp. i want shrimp cocktail! actually never had it..sad life

School or Work?
school! work sounds bad, really bad.

-end-

glad that's over. now my sleep cycle's like from 1am-10am haha. then my meals are terrible. i eat at like 12, then again at around 4, then at 7 probably. a few days back was worse, much worse. but i'm back in sg on thursday, 2nd. a lot of things to settle before i fly off again. forgot to do a lot of things before i went...it was super rushed. then i think i offeneded a lot of people so i need to start mending relationships! that sounds so cheem. okay byebye i'm off to read eatpraylove and sleep.

it's such an awesome book. really.

either i'm retarded, or this is just insanity.

hi, it's 5.40 now. woke up like an hour ago, then couldn't get back to sleep because of the freaking frogs/insects somewhere near the place. super loud. so sent aunt to airport with mum. it's awesome to drive in the night okay. it's dark, and the streets are empty. here anyway...singapore whenever i look outside at 3 am always got tons of cars de -.-

okay it's probably some random insect which sounds like frogs. bejewled is awesome. i just jumped from like nothing to like 10th. which is good. 305k and 10th though. what is this..


i would say, disgusting, but i'm not cheh.


forget it i'm sneezing like crazy i have to go.

and some people really blog too much. like, seriously. addicttttttttt.




it's nice to say hi at random moments. even to people you've never met. it's crazy. craziness is good. but not too often, because that will make you seem annoying.

warm./

the sun's shining in. my mum's been trying to clear up the crap in this house for the past 2-3 days. and so far she's less than 40% done i think. now they're talking about rice. (i was gonna use bitching but it's kinda vulgar. and vulgar's not goood.) oh wtheck i keep hitting ENTER instead of the ' button. they're beside each other, and i don't really know the anatomy of this com



s keyboard yet, so, it happens.







i'll just leave in the mistakes so it seems more natural.











for some reason the more i read your blogs the more i feel so distant...and left out. but it's not exactly like i'm suffering either. it



s okay, i'm here, with my fam...and they love me..but there's still a coup[le of things.











forget it.//the mistakes just look messyyyyyyyyyy. and that i don't care. but i do care, very much. how many times have you made that mistake?







firstly, there's like 213409823943298 mosquitos here. then you get the electrical badminton racket thingy(which is cool, btw) to try and kill them. but it's like they just keep spawning. never ending. and then i get bitten like at least 5 times a day. recently it's been reducing but still. last night we just couldn't be bothered so we just spammed the whole place with the sprayyy thingy. yup. and we watched toy story 3.







i can't believe toy story...the three movies all have essentially the same plot. someone gets lost, then they venture out to rescue the toy/person, then something screws up, the toy goes like "omg my owner doesn't love me anymore so should i go to osaka?" then there's an evil dude. then they almost die but are rescued by like amazing














*****








that was the remmenants of my yesterday post, which went up in flames due to windows hating me. watching finding nemo now, and it's freaking awesome, especially dory and the sharks.





just discovered my picture didn't get in...i'm bad at this. really bad. fine i'll savethe quizzes for when i get home...it's easier to do stuff on the mac. for now i'll just try to survive. and here comes the giant angler fish.





bye i hate this com. can't really do anything. and i feel solonely.

i'll make this quick, because

it's freaking hot here
the desk is super cluttered.
this is windows
and i have an important appointment with the tv.


sorry, guys. it's just that i've been really confused about everything. need some time to sort it out. and i'm sorry for hurting all of you. i find that now i'm too self centred and actually i think i care about others, but i don't. it's been a rough year. oh, and i don't know what's my CAP still.

but enough about that. i think i'll do a quiz which i'm gonna rip from andy's blog tmr, if i have the time, that is. gosh, this keyboard is noisy.so yes. if you're bored and want to talk to me, when i have the time, you're more than welcome. i need someone i can gush all my feelings out to. unless you're hema and want to talk about your obssesion with shini, then no. (cos i know that's completely fake because you're actually GAY)


well, arsenal lost. i think i'll give up supporting them soon...they really need to be stronger and not flap around. chelsea failing also...zzz man u win again. i'd rather liverpool lol. but gerrard out for 4 weeks -.-


main point : try not to blame me, because i might snap. and...oh yes. if you want to organise outings, and i'm reluctant to go, don't go around blaming me and forcing me as if i have no choice but to go. i'm not made of money okay, my limit's like $15 a week. so don't make me blow money at inconsistent times. i don't owe you anything, okay. and i'm busy.

btw, that's not actually to any of you...it's more of to a bunch of people who are trying to get me to eat sushi with them. i know, i know. oh yes, right now a bunch of people watching avatar upstairs. not the cartoon, the movie. the cartoon's freaking awesome la...whereas the movie...zz.


i hope i haven't offended any of you/made you hate me. if i have, tell me what i did wrong so i can sort it out...thanks.


trying...to get back on the right path.



ps: since the 27th thing went up in flames, i think we should go book the klp alley so we can have the $20 per hour per lane thing...then after that can go movie, since there'll be good movies in dec. what do you think?

i'm back on the twentieth.

before too late.

actually i thought i was gonna do a post about my life but i'm tired so i'll keep it short. i don't know. today has made me very uncertain...it's like telling me in the face that i'm not a good person. i know, i can't take criticism. i've known that for quite some time but i haven't believed it to be that serious. is it that serious? maybe it is. but i always feel that i'm right. it's different styles, there's just no right method. is there? maybe there is, maybe the right method is not my method, it's the method given on the instructions. and so i'm wrong.

but no, i have to be right, don't i. screw this.

i don't have to be like this, i know i don't. but what's wrong with me. was thinking a lot just now...and now it feels like i'm a complete jerk. i thought my life was going okay but now it turns out i don't know what to do with my life.

i did do a post about life. hai, i'm just confused. that's why i left early, i needed to reevaluate myself. and those of you who i've hurt, i'm sorry. really. but of course, if you want me to organise outings then don't complain so much. also, and giving ideas would work. and also reply the goddamn smses.

i hate all of you, goodnight.

dance dance, like it's the last last night of your life.

midnight.

dance floor.

picture post, because i've lost my words and i'm quite dizzy right now.

dinner...nice right.

and i finally got a decent shot of the tardis. well goodnight.

the club can't even handle me right now ~

nice song. but we have to be wary, to avoid being overconfident. if not, calmity will befall you.

basically, don't be too optimistic. be optimistic, but not that optimistic. like me when playing cards. i was actually 1st just now. for once. usually last de..haha. as long as i'm not last i consider it a win! awesome.

and then there's the insane idea of going out right before i fly off. absolutely crazy, and i think my mum will hate me for it. well, it's all systems go omg i'm going insane.

hopefully next year media won't be as boring, and we can use the big cam! and i want to use the dslr heh. so nice. and you look cool also haha.

tmr's bad. nothing for an entire day cos obviously didn't sign up for anything. bad, bad mistake.

well, bye.

swan lake.

sometimes, we feel bad feelings. fear, darkness, and pain. sometimes, it's good, and we try to make sure all these good feelings stay forever. happiness, joy, the sense of satisfaction. but no matter how much we journey, we must remember one thing : pain and loss define our lives as much as happiness, and it helps to shape the person we are today.

fail attempt at a nice quote. i'm rubbish at this. and yes. i don't want any more pain. why can't it all just go away. maybe it's just the consequence of past laziness. and a combination of other things. just goes to show, most of the time a person may seem okay, but beneath the surface he or she's actually struggling with a conflict and full of worry.

watched a lot of tv this weekend. harry potter, walking with dinosaurs, mtv, random cooking show, more harry potter, star trek, more mtv, top gear, more walking with dinosaurs, and then shrek. spam, haha. usually i watch zero tv. oh yes, and the 2 episodes of doctor who i did on the com..

it's the last week before it all ends. actually, it should have ended already, a long time ago. by that i mean friday. super busy this hols, travelling. oh yes, i'm not coming to school on friday, 19. the flight's friday morning. so it's like

tmr 15- crap

tues 16-crap

wed17 - crap

thur18 - hopefully go the cck stadium

fri19 - some people want to ask me go eat sushi -.-

then 19nov - 2dec in sarawak.

2dec -10dec in sg.

and then i'm flying off again. it seems to tiring. sure freeze de.

so, dead. formal or informal, what's the choice?

an eulogy.

to the snail who i stepped on this morning. i think i killed it, probably did, hopefully i didn't. well, it was a complete accident, and i'm truly sorry, snail. i never meant to do anyone any harm. hopefully i never get around to deliberate harm. it's just, an accident, simple as that. really. i hope you're in a better place now, snail. maybe a parallel universe with loads of nice and chewy grass! you probably don't really like grass, it's just another stereotype. well.

RIP.

it's strange, when we are trying not to hurt other people, we try to do what we think is best for them, but sometimes all they want is to be left alone, to rest. sometimes, what we must do is to stand aside.

what's the deal with interactive videos anyway? they don't work. they're messy. oh yes, i'm reading a book now. it's okay other than the part about it having too many damn main characters. and also, half of the characters are super messed up due to the fact that they actually went through A LOT previously. and i have no idea what really happen cos they just give vague explanations. and most of the time there's this woman who's just pissed at everyone and barks at random people. oh, yes, and she's "incredibly talented", is a hacker, can fly aeroplanes, and has a ferrari 599GTB. i think the last point's the most annoying. oh yes, and she's a lesbian. not exactly that relevant though.

it's : the scarpetta factor by patricia cornwell anyway. i seriously doubt any of you have heard of it.

it's actually very easy to start a fight, a conflict, you just need the right people and the right elements. and lee's a freaking hacker, 45/50 for geog. oh yes, you see, they just started fighting. i'm good. actually i'm kinda unsatisfied with myself. i can't feel bad anymore, even after i accidentally killed the snail. it's like, empty, no matter how i try.

oh yes, and my knee's currently dead at the moment from playing soccer. the field game's epic, let in 9 goals haha. then it's like who cares, let in goal then celebrate. opposite XP. damn nice to be able to not care. sometimes we shouldn't care too much, if not we'll just hurt ourselves.

ahh my knee. stupid...can't move the lower leg via the hinge joint without causing a slight amount of discomfort. cheem terms. chee-m terms!

and that just reminds me of the morning. first time i played cards in ages. i think out of the n games i played, i lost n-1 times, and i was third 1 time. skilll.

train ride with dion was super awesome haha. first we discussed terrorist schemes, like throwing durians at the mrt people who come to catch you, or the more elaborate one where you jump up and rip the camera off the ceiling, then enter it, whack the driver with it, and move the train in reverse. then the driver of the next train sees a train in front of him getting bigger, then he goes "omg-wtf" and then jumps out. and massive explosion! haha. and pes was awesome, all the epic stuff happenning.

crap my knee feels tight now. like, the muscles around it feel tight. i think i'll go off now, bye.

since i can't get a decent picture of the tardis on bad wolf bay, here's a picture of a dolphin with a tiger. it's so happy.

i don't know who's out there, but we have to get out there, and keep trying.

dismal, forlorn, sleepy.

basically, did nothing today except get papers. i'm starting to hate soccer more and more. it's never exactly right, think i'm not playing tmr. then again, tmr's messed up. somehow we have to do bio file, and then hand it in by 9. then i gotta see ho tmr, and two papers, chinese at 10, and geog at 11. i think?

the world's so dead now. here, anyway. but elsewhere it's not, still bustling with activity. just more people trying to make more money. and for what?

well, i'm off, off to watch soccer highlights and the christmas invasion.

winx.

the song is very catchy. haha. but then the show's rubbish cos it's about fighting evil and stealing boyfriends. like how bad pokemon is now. heck, i never did use to watch all this. and backyard monsters is evil. i can't even log into my bloody facebook cos of my sis. but running it doesn't do anything right. does it? after like 20mins it goes kaput and then you have to reload the thing. that's damn retarded okay, but if i log out she gets pissed -.-

facebook is taking over the world. it will, sooner or later.

internet's screwing around again. tmr will be bad, coss i was a bad person today. i just feel it, i don't know. it's like, fake. plus there's that media thing at 3, meaning half of us can't go out. so restless, and then we'll soccer, and soccer's gonna be bad. it always is, unless the right people play. which won't happen, cos you can't just kick people out, it's not your court. so it's just bitchy. come to think of it, most likely we won't get the court at all. pessimissm.

well, bye i guess, good luck for results. off to watch doctor who, it's about the only thing that makes me happy these days. if that doesn't, nothing will. except this, of course.

blogosphere.

well, on the other hand, today wasn't a complete waste of time.

woke up at 6, spent half an hour travelling to school, then wait 1.5h. then the nric thing takes 5 mins. then spend another 1.5h travelling home. so..

time spent doing nric : 5 min

other crap : 4h.

yes, that's a ratio of 1:48. insanely dumb.

but traveling home at 10 is good, it's fun. this is what you see on the trains :

well, yes, there's no one. ooh, blue. blue's good.

so yes, i came home, and then slept about 4h. basically i woke up at 2...and it feels so good omg. and so weird, especially with the rainy/cold weather. it's like sleeping during the day, so badass. haha. okay i'm just insane.

well, basically, tomorrow will be the last hurdle, then we can relax! i wonder how many times i've said that to myself. damage limitation, damage limitation.

oh yes, i missed out entry proof in the last post. bye/

If you're interested, here are the O level timings for this wed.

Paper 1, gonghan/sihan + zuowen. (2h)

8-10

Paper 2, compre? (1.5)

1045 - 1215.

wait. something's wrong. the first one's longer than the second one? but should be correct right, 2h for compos. ya, should be. oh and rmb to bring IC/passport and dictionary. that's all right.

cheaters. all cheaters. oh and roast beef^^

yup, it's all a bunch of cow, and roy is definitely bulimic.

but that aside, here's a question. why would you have a room that's completely pink?

imagine waking up to that..oh, the horror. i don't think i'd even be able to fall asleep. i need different colours.

ok, i know the picture's not that good, but if you wanna complain, then you go find me a better picture of a pink room containing a pink bed, blanket, table, etc.etc. google search failed me this time, so good luck to you.

okay, resume normality.

o levels...what to do? i'm slacking a lot..not even studying. should we? but there's nothing much to study! except format, and do practice papers. the thing is, i forgotten everything after the damn exam...it all just went poof. poof.

sleepy...but reasonable. didn't do anything this morn lor, complete waste of time. like seriously, didn't listen at all. then fiona kept laughing and douching around with alice, and lee just gave up and crawled behind to sleep. hopefully tmr's better, it shouldn't be, nric...hai. well, could be worse.

i wonder how i managed to stay on the com the whole afternoon. i wonder. and can't go on fb at all cos, guess what? yup, my sis is running backyard monsters. wtbs la, half the time the screen's white cos the thing's asking you to send gifts or sth.

well, bye i guess. hopefully i'm not back later.

requiem. requiem for a dream.

oh no, nonono my internet's jamming again.

no, no, no. no no nono noononononnono no!

oh yes it's not anymore.

just got back from orchard...the place is a nightmare. but got a new bag, plus some clothes for the trip to europe, which will be superfreeze. hopefully i don't die there. so got some epic jacketty thing which has fur but does not have fur and is small. cos can't wear big so had to buy L. usually i buy XL de lar. wait, that's not something to be proud of.

and my bro finally got his beyblade...i predict hell tmr and that i will be woken up by some top flying onto my face and cutting chunks off my nose. chink, chink, chink.

and curses, lampard's still not back for the liverpool match. he's been out for like 23 plus matches already. he should come back, chelsea need him. he's like their spark, and he's lampard. so awesome. well, anyway, man u -wolves tonight. they better win. and to that i mean wolves.

okay, enough soccer. but we need soccer, it's like our life haha. actually, it's more of lee's life. haha my sis is going " what the-" at my brother's beyblade. he's opening it now, worse than i expected.

i'd better go, i really really need a shower. but before i go, here's some really cool socks and a picture of hayley.

ex-ex-exploded.

i'm sorry, but

tell me, is it wrong for me to get pissed and scream at unreasonable and rude kids? why the heck am i even dealing with this? i shouldn't be. they should know better..not to waste food, and stuff. haven't done anything the entire day.

tmr going out to do random crap, need haircut...then going to take nric photo. then something, hopefully i am happy enough to try guitar...it's just so difficult and depressing, nowadays. we should all live near each other, so we can go somewhere and spam soccer. need to exerciseeeeeee.

hey, look, it's hayley williams! i'm spamming adam lambert now haha. totally unrelated.

smile.

don't wanna miss a thing ~

haha, the music love is back. been off track for a few months.

next week is busy. monday chinese revision thingy, tue nric, wed o levels, thur and friday script checking. full week of going to school man..for once. well, meanwhile my internet's fluctuating like, a lot a lot...must take these 3 days to rest. and attempt to catch up on guitar. i havent been caring about it much for half a year already..

i wish my holidays werent so packed. but then again it's good isn't it? to leave the country. but i feel as if something bad's gonna happen. sinkholes anyone?

- about 2 hours later-

okay, my post died halfway. i think i'll post this, and look forward to lunch.

delusional mess.

we live in a really screwed up world, don't you realise. humans are supposedly the most intelligent organisms, but no, we harm each other, we harm others, we harm innocent animals. the problem is that they give us too much bad imagination, too much bad feelings. and we don't care, no, we just want MONEY, money, money, so it's okay to destroy forests. why are we even using all this paper? it's not right. i mean, even me saying this is hypocritical because typing this uses electricity which is energy which is usually generated from burning fossil fuels. that's just pollution, downright pollution.

and then there's that part about people killing each other, doing bad things to each other. why? i wonder who created the gun. why would you want to make something that can specifically fire a piece of metal at someone at high speeds? seriously! and knifes should be used for cooking, and other random tasks, not chopping and slashing people. why would you do that? it just makes you want to ask, what are these people even thinking? look at animals. they don't harm each other, or do anything that would disadvantage each other. why not? because they have common sense, their lives are simple and nice. dolphins, lions, mountain rabbits. why can't we learn from them?

of course, this is all generalisation, isn't it. hopefully i won't get sued for it. and curse you, american english, i'm not wrong. i'm right and you're wrong because english is from england. it's from britain, so it's realise, not realize. it's mesmerise, not mesmerize, and there's nothing, nothing you can do about it to change what i'm gonna type, microsoft.

musicness is bad, so awesome! what's not awesome is that hema's got my earphones. and he took it without even asking if he could bring back, just disappeared. although i have to thank microsoft for correcting my spelling a lot of the time.

i was gonna crap about freedom of speech and the church and government burning people who don't believe the same thing as them, but i'm tired. it can wait.

when someone says he's not hurting at all, look in their eyes, and think again.

he didn't go back because it would have been too hard. just by the swimming pool.

it's us against the world.

the world, the world, the world.

i swear, 3 episodes of doctor who in a row is epic spam. it's tiring...too tiring.

then tmr..we're stuck. going in circles. i'm smiling. i suppose that's good?

" people always leave. after a while they just seem to melt away and disappear into the shadows. or they just leave you behind, whether unintentionally or intentionally. they just walk away, as if you're not there."

it's funny how no one takes children seriously. if you inject a little more common sense+experience into them, their creativity comes out, and with that you could do many things, even build a teleport.

hope it goes alright.

when you leave, you should at least try to say it. say it. say goodbye.

predestination paradox.

it's like, you get a signal or a note telling you to go to that place, but then, you get there, then you find that the only reason there was that signal was because you created that signal by going there. makes sense?

no...no.

math tmr, last paper. i think i really messed up geog, forgot to study disjointed rivers, can't believe it. then the mass wasting one heck la..heh.

it still seems so tiring...like planning what to do after exams. also, i feel like i was a bad person today. too loud, too loud, far too loud. and too selfish. very selfish.

that means tmr's gonna go wrong...

haha, listening to random music now...then math! i just realised you don't have to study that hard, just have to do the paper well. sometimes you study a lot but then it's not worth it at all if you screw up the paper.

that's how the world works...sadly.

wait, this is a sad post. it should be happy. after so many people died recently..not good. cheer up, world!

you'd definitely make a good doctor.

the darkness is coming. we must run, out of time and into the wilderness.

guess what. bugatti veyron's on sale..crazy man. and it's on sale in india lol. fastest car in the world, in the crowded streets.

crazy car. fastest in the world, 1000 hp, 0-100 km/h in 2.5s...the engine has 10 radiators, blimey!

blimey...that's british...is it?

nevermind.

then, the sad thing is, some guy died at downtown east. got hacked by choppers. what the hell is going on with all the people nowadays? can't they think for once? or maybe they did think, and felt it was alright to kill someone for no reason in particular. enough said, link's here, go read.

fptzz.

definitely messed up both english and chem, but don't care already somehow. left with phy, geog and math. hopefully phy's okay..but they always kill us. hai.

i'm sorry. -looks away-