here we go all over again.

feel a little sick now, it was probably reading on the bus, lack of water and the virus from jiamin which did it..

oh never mind, hopefully i'll be fine. just sleep it off..need to go out tmr so can't fall sick now.

sports day today. nothing much, just that we learnt that

1. hats are cool

2. nobel does random dancing

3. we all love friday

4. 60m cables are freaking annoying and hard to coil !@##@!@!#

5. there's a planet made of diamond.

you can read it here.

actually this was on quite a bit ago, but only now i feel like posting it.

i should go sleep..but not really sleepy now. maybe i'll do chem assn first and just sleep early :/

but that's boring.

borrowed a few nicholas sparks books just now at the library because i have to bring hema away from them because they blame me for telling him where i am haha. and me and foo already ate, so might as well. it's just so...weird, reading love stories again. it feels wrong.

oh well. sleepy. goodnight.

and good luck to the whole world for tomorrow.

the life and death of amy pond.

just got back from frisbee and ate lunch.

no, dinner.

had tuition in the morning, and then went out with edwin to go get a cake for his mum. and my brother tagged along...so basically we just ate food and spent half the time trying to drag him out of toysrus. that's how it's spelt? looks weird.

toys"r"us.

oh forget it.

stuff to do before 10pm :

1. finish this post

2. print hema's EI

3. load let's kill hitler + other music onto my iPod

4. pack bag

5. edit photos.

6. talk to jiamin about tmr's rehearsal...oh i give up.

you know, it's really annoying to sort stuff out and get things ready when there'a heckload of people around you asking you stupid questions and just being unknowingly annoying.

goodnight, i'll see you all tmr.

i don't want school.

halfway out of the dark.

penguins, bluefin tuna, anchovies and barracuda.

free milo for anyone who can guess what that's alluding to.

just stayed at home and went around being moody again. oh well. did a bit of econs project, still waiting for the rest to get in contact..and chem assignment q2. not sure how to do q3...jordan's got my worksheet 4. cow.

and i filled in page one of ppv notes. oh, productivity. most of the day was just playing iPad and com and sleeping a little. i don't have nice photos to post :(

my brother's taking 2 hours to eat again. he has skill..and he just makes my mum damn annoyed and wastes her time. i think today, she was trying to get him to do work, and the whole day, he hasn't even finished learning 10+ words for tingxie.

that's just sad. being unproductive at a young age.

i'm worried that i'll be even more unproductive next year. i mean, being in hostel and all...will i even be able to get work done?

probably not.

oh never mind. i'll think of something..

i hope.

at least i've got tuition tmr. that's something to do.

okay, i'm going crazy...looking forwards to chinese tuition. zzz.

still need to think of video ideas for the advocacy project.

i'm off to watch top gear now :D

let's kill hitler.

went out just now, to 313 somerset to eat lunch. there's a jap buffet restaurant at B3 which is really not bad. for a buffet with sashimi, $16.80 is a bargain..you hardly ever find that nowadays.

and then we went to find my shoe...which at that point i was impossibly high due to all the random music playing in all the malls. and i saw a bunch of NUSHers in school uni doing something on the streets, probably the cip that they were talking about. but i don't know them..and they don't know me apparently. sad.

and then we came back and watched doctor who. finally it's out..and my brain just overloaded. having a slight headache now :(

well, at least all the sadness is over. i was avidly depressed from friday night to this morning...stupid hormones.

and my phone is completely out of battery and somewhere. need to go find it.

no school tmr! gosh.

and no school on tuesday also.

tday reheasal on wednesday after sports day, and then tday on thursday...and i'm going back to see if we can all meet up and have lunch or something. we should.

man utd v arsenal tonight...no prizes for guessing who i'm rooting for.

rory, go put hitler in the cupboard.

distractions.

distractions from the sadness that's ruling my life right now.

i need to do something. but since i'm classifying this time as holidays, i shall put off doing work and not feel guilty about it.

can't wait for the dec hols. where i can finally go get a job and earn some money to buy a dslr. so that my photos get better. right now i'm editing photos taken with a dslr though, and they're rubbish. don't think i'm even going to post them..

when the raw material is not good, the end product is not going to be good, no matter how much you edit it.

what is with these mood swings!

i give up..it's like yesterday, i was just constantly bouncing from sad to happy within a matter of minutes. terrible.

i need someone to talk to. like, someone to pour my heart out to.

had tuition in the morning, and it was kinda boring, just chinese paper spam as usual. turns out the teacher's birthday is TODAY. scary. coincidence...or not.

if not, she's probably someone sent to spy on me and she used that lie to gain my rapport and trust.

i'm waiting for my family to get home so we can eat dinner. starving, but whatever. eating alone sucks.

forget it, i'm off. sorry for infecting you with all the sadness.

gosh i need a girlfriend.

yowza! an escape pod.

you have to say it for it to have an effect. the word doesn't look nice aesthetically.

i kinda feel high and tired and a little sad at the same time.

high : tmr is friday friday and i just beat man utd 4-0 in pes, and then came back from 2-0 down to draw 2-2 in another match.

tired : eyes are dead and body is physically gone from all this exhaustion. the tests and stuff..

sad : i feel like i've been a bad person today.

forget it, no time to think too much. must go finish econs! and then chinese test tmr...i heard it's very very bad. just write rubbish la heck xD

and steve jobs has resigned as apple CEO. ahh sad. but he'll still be on the board of directors lol. scam. at least he'll still be there..we know apple won't die.

speaking of apple, i now have bullet fast internet because we got a time capsule! go google it. and because my dad's awesome, the hard disk's called tardis :D

and our wi-fi network is called I'm The Doctor. oh, awesomeness.

now, who's the other cool guy with the network called Judoon. a fellow whovian in the vicinity!

okay, enough of the doctor who. time for econs.

are you the doctor?

just woke up. and now i'm tumblr-ing and blogging to wake up.

i like to think of blogging as a form of therapy, and a form of expression. sometimes, from tumblr, i learn a lot about my inner self, about what i love and what i don't love.

blogging helps me let out my steam after a bad day, and to share interesting thoughts and random occurrences with you. if you've been reading this regularly, i want to thank you, because it makes me feel loved.

but i will still continue this even when no one continues to read it. but i hope, that day will never come.

okay, enough philosophy. on to today :D

english was me in the com lab (previous post) being distracted, and then went to the netball court to shoot some balls with andreea and audrey. we all failed epicly, there's never a trend..

math was fun because i finally got whatever he was trying to teach us, and then behind us ji went crazy and laughed non-stop for 20minutes. and hardik stole boon chong's phone and called me, making my phone in the middle of the class, and sent me disturbing messages.

played soccer after chinese! so awesome, after so long. it was an epic match, as usual. they removed the fencing at the side, but somehow it's much more fun, mostly because we now have more control, and it's more skill than luck. so epic stuff happens. but we managed to win 7-6! i scored 2...and jordan also scored 2 haha that hacker. the first goal..from long range..just, brilliant. brilliant. it went high, and dipped and curled into the corner.

(actually i'm just saying he's brilliant because he told me to. but then again....now go study physics!)

right now i'm off to eat dinner, which is nasi lemak (same as lunch), but still awesome.

and then study physics.

we all detest studying. but we love learning.

it's english now.

and i've just finished doing the assignment...waiting for the others to finish. actually i could have finished within half an hour but i got distracted. heh.

and ji stole my ipod :( so i'm super bored now. there isn't anything to do, anyway. except chem assignment. forget it, that's too no life.

not now, not now.

like a skyscraper ~


cows. yahoo fails. mooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooobye

bury me in satin.

hello. it is the end of an extremely weird day.

it is tuesday, so it's one day closer to saturday :D

you should already know why i'm looking forward to saturday.

i need to get a job.

if i do get a job, during the holidays i'm hoping i can work for at least 2 weeks..

because i'm in malaysia for the other 3. and the other 1 is buffer.

haha. buffers.

my chem assignment 3 is still half done. i'll do it tmr.

and i'm skipping math elearning completely.

should go study physics, physics is very important.

but no, i need to finish econs first.

what is this. i take 3h to finish a zuowen and 3h to finish econs.

while slacking.

the wedding of river song.

camera choices.

hello, it's elearning day.

and i have just woke up. it is about 1030 now. and one of my mum's friends is here. we all don't really like her that much because she's kinda noisy. and now they're playing some video and talking a lot.

i'm very tempted to blast doctor who music to jam them back. i'm sure the com's way louder that the iPad.

okay, let's list all the stuffs to do for today!

it really amazes me that loo chee wee, li lina, jason yeo, li da sent us emails at 3am. it's like they were all together out drinking or something.

for those of you who don't know, those are all teachers lol.

right, stuff to do!

1. look at the link for physics.

2.math elearning : newton rhapson method (what the hell is that o.o)

3. PPV : chapter 3 T.T

4. Bio...which is just a lot of memorizing again. i think.

5. econs. 2 essay outlines..

and i have tuition today at 1-3.

okay, the woman's really getting annoying now.

crimson. eleven. delight. the smell of dust after rain.

it's not how time passes, it's how you use the time.

you see, i've been slacking out a lot, and watched some doctor who, and it's still 8:14.

i will go edit photos tonight. been putting it off...and since tmr elearning, no need to do work tonight :D

anyway, i want a break. today had math gct chem quiz geog test. thank goodness it's over.

left with phy test on wed. and chinese test on friday..

yes, i didn't post for saturday and sunday. there are times where i need to take a break. and when i'm feeling so bad so i don't want to inflict you with my sadness and despair. you're probably sick of it by now.

let's go bagpacking through europe..and eat ham.

i have run out of things to say. okay, i shall recap today.

hold on, today's quite boring. well, we gathered around random tables to "study". just end up talking about random stuff in the end..geog test is still rubbish. half the time i have no idea what i'm writing but i just continue writing because there's virtually no time..i started the last paragraph at like 3 minutes left..

lunch was dismal, again. after this, i am going to do the espace canteen survey. give up on our canteen food already..

except waffles.

and i didn't bring money today..forgot to take from my mum. i owe ji $2.50, yx 80cents.

haha it's yx's birthday today, yes. sad birthday with so many tests..

and then we were saying he should gay dion instead because i and jordan are both not of age yet, and he doesn't swing towards ji. oh, you should have seen the stuff lee was doing to jiamin on the bus and at the bus stop and at the mrt station..

somehow i suspect someone hacked my Facebook and unfriended everyone..oh, and Facebook is capitalised because it's auto and i can't be bothered to change it.

right now hema's on fb chat with me trying to explain some random argument he didn't want to earlier. which isn't really an argument.

forget it, i am going to do some stuffs and then sleep early..

goodbye, goodnight, all the rocks in the world.

i should keep my big mouth shut.

but then i'm incapable of holding in my emotions. as the past 15 years, and a few hundred days have shown.

if there's like injustice, or i feel that someone's being a cow, i just have to say it out. but that's not good because i know i'm not being a good person as well.

i'm sorry for just now, i just randomly crash into conversations that i'm not involved in.

today started bad. like bad bad. first i ran out of the house late and then i dropped my bottle. it kinda split open when it hit the floor and the water just gushed out. i nearly swore..but i think i was in shock. then when i was crossing the road realised i forgot my jacket -.- so i've been wearing adrian's for the whole day. i need a jacket nowadays, i keep feeling cold. that means i'm still sick..

of course i'm still sick, i'm still coughing.

and why is the weather so freaking hot? i'm sweating non-stop now.

come to think of it, i still don't know who reads this. it's scary, i'm just pouring out all my thoughts to all of you.

oh yes, they are mostly negative thoughts. it's just that i am more reflective and 自暴自弃 when i'm alone. that reminds me, got another zuowen to write -.-

and five thousand tests/quizzes to study for.

i am talking to hema on fb chat lol.

math was okay, but i was pissed at the start because they didn't write the stupid question properly..waste my time -.-

cos(4x^2) go write as cos(2x)^2...we all thought it's like cos^2(2x).

cows.

mooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

and then evo bio. i just used the method of not listening and then copy notes afterwards..some of it is common sense. don't like the math, though.

enough math, please.

and then we went to eat lunch. pasta with mashed potato..and waffle. i'm eternally hungry sometimes, not at all sometimes. it's weird.

and there's that attachment program to CERN! what the hell..how did they manage to get that. but, the thing is like for phy honours students, and they're only going to pick 10 people. and then application form's super intense...forget it, i'm going back to kuching anyway. ah, food. but i bet i'll start missing you guys after just a week there.

that reminds me, i need to get a bow tie. a red one, preferably.

chinese was rubbish, because we were writing that stupid zuowen about...teenagers being 跑腿 for loansharks...society screwing up again. ultimately, we're all a little responsible.

played cards, ate free food, then went media. somehow we were planning cip, and then i just get annoyed at the year 2s. i mean, you don't just show up for cca 30mins late all the time and then just ask what time you are going to be released. do something, for goodness' sake.

actually, mostly i'm just frustrated with myself. it's like, i want to help, i want to take up a leadership role so that i feel i've accomplished something, but it's just so..difficult. there's like lack of positions, and i can't get people to do stuff. no one listens to me lol. believe me, i've tried.

and then went home early because my cough prevents me from soccering. went back with jireh, david and a couple of other year 3s. it was very random, we were talking about how the year 3s are very scandalous, and they have like a lot of couples, and then diamonds, and then their econs teacher, and then they were spamming lame geeky organic chem jokes lol. my organic chem is shot to hell..but seriously! they were representing love triangles with cyclopropanes...what the heck. more organic chem next year.

and we talked a lot about school. and jireh lives in pasir ris too so i got company heh. so awesome.

jireh and david are media juniors who i think are rather awesome, by the way.

goodnight, it's time to go to sleep.

and avoid another outburst of emotions.

okay that made no sense.

you're the tardis.

time and relative dimension in space. yes, that's it. names are funny. it's me. i'm the tardis.

no you're not! you're a bitey mad lady! the tardis is up and about in a big blue box

yes, that's me. a type-40 tardis. i was already a museum piece when you stole me. the first time you touched my console you said,

i said, you were the most beautiful thing i'd ever known.

and then you stole me. and i stole you.

my dad is not 宽容。

well, yes. he always bitches with my mum over little things.

as you probably already know.

oh well.

i am going to turn out the argument now. so that i hear nothing.

it's not working.

and now petr cech's injured. what balls. the premier league is falling apart, there's no decent soccer nowadays. and there isn't even f1 to care about. the next race is spa, i think. 26-28 august.

nothing much stressful tmr, except...english summative compre test which is we can't study for, so no point. and i think we're writing zuowen...forget it i give up.

and math assignment's due. halfway out of the dark.

we're really lagging behind for math. but somehow i get the feeling our chem is super fast. and phy. it's like week 8 and we're 1/3 through the last set of notes for the semester. i think.

and then someone is going to prove me wrong and say there's 4 topics.

i find physics quite interesting and fun, but i'm just not good at it. and i love chem more rawr.

i have no idea where that came from.

oh good, my dad finished eating. which means the pointless argument has ended.

can't even soccer or netball tmr, because i'm still sick and coughing. and my head still feels weird. i think this is super long i've gone without soccer..well, i'll probably start sometime next week. next friday i think o.o

which is my birthday.

right, i'm off now to settle some random stuff and pack my bag with chem worksheets, because the wall aka jordan png wants them.

goodnight.

don't be too hard on everyone else. or yourself.

cream cheese waffles.

oh, the ever endless quest to seek approval and attention from the world.

i realise i can't be contented with what i have. and that school is a quest to get knowledge, but in the end we will forget everything, and just go for that piece of paper which will give us money.

i'm still sick, if you don't know.

last night and this morning my throat was acting up, and i felt weak all over.

and then at around 10 it turned into my nose running away from me. used a gazillion packs of tissue. and then on the way home i was cold, so i wrapped myself in the jacket. and then after a while i realized i was sweating. terrible.

so i came home and slept. and here i am, after eating dinner.

still not sure if i'm going to school tmr.

i shouldn't, just go there and spread germs.

but i'll miss phy and chem...heck. health's more important.

and being able to sleep a whole day, and do stuff. now that's going to be awesome.

apparently i need to plan for positives, according to my dad.

okay, i'm coming to infect you with all my germs. which means that i need to go study physics now.

goodbye.

that's unedited btw. i'm not sure which one was the better shot...okay not this one. it's unfocused.

must learn to snap.

oh, so awesome.

11 more days.

well, 11 + the number of days it takes for the thing to leak out.

i feel really sick.

like, my throat is acting up. i feel weak and burning hot all over. my head is kinda weird. and it's just wrong...everything's wrong.

urgh.

maybe i wore my jacket too much today. most of the time the temperature's okay, but i like to wear it. it's so comfy and nice to sleep in. and i feel secure inside it.

it's like, i feel better in long pants, but sometimes it's just too hot.

ppv test killed us all today, slept through physics, and didn't listen at all in bio. the usual.

and the econs we went to IRAS. at novena..random tax thing...and they had cool chairs and a meeting room, and free food! tuna, egg mayo sandwiches and some swiss rolls.

but very little, so we have to ration xD

okay, it's not that bad..

but hema is such a cow. he took like 4 sandwiches lol.

and halfway through eating fiona freaked out, and went, "dion's allergic to peanuts!" and ran to dion. the swiss roll had peanuts, and dion ate those..so yeah.

turns out he's not allergic after all. phew.

and then we split to come home.

dion and fiona went to dhoby, circle line to pl...me boon chong jonathan hardik went to bishan, circle line to pl...turns out dion arrived about 3 mins earlier than us but he went in the wrong direction. like, he took the east-west line the wrong direction..so he was at kallang when we called him.

i like silence today, somehow.

i mean, i can only hear the sound of my typing, and somehow that's calming. dunno why o.o

ahh, no work due tmr but we gotta write some zuowen...burn

oh, my Facebook account is down.

for a few minutes, or so they say.

i still feel sick. and lazy to edit the photos..but i'm sure i won't ever touch them if i don't do it.

heck, i'll go edit the english presentation, send my photos to jiamin, and go to sleep.

waiting for the magic doctor to come and save me.

ahhhh don't do that!

seriously, don't. i hope i can sleep tonight...blasted charlie.

of course, i have ppv to study so i can't stay. this doesn't really count as a post, does it.

enjoy those pictures, looks better in high-res though. and i still haven't sorted today's.

bye.

hello, universe.

in a really shout, high sort of way. not the mundane way.

because i'm feeling quite high now.

this sentence was typed half an hour after the last one.

don't worry, this one wasn't.

maybe i should start using flickr. haha. never mind, i'll stick with tumblr for now. time to spam jiamin's email..

we're supposed to send in photos for shadow and light, you see.

but mine isn't really shadow and light at all.

uploading now to Facebook and tumblr.

I should really go to sleep.

today was uneventful. did the speech and suibi in the morning, and then struggled through ppv in the afternoon. finally gave up, because i was pissed with myself mostly. my lip hurts like crazy due to the ulcer there. think it'll be worse tmr. so if you see me tmr, try not to punch me please. you can punch me somewhere else, just not there.

it feels so good to have a dslr in my hand. i am definitely going to get one soon. right now, i feel as if dion's is mine haha xD

chelsea drew with stoke :( i blame the referee.

don't we all.

tomorrow should be okay. i hope.

after tuesday, everything will be a little easier. wait, no. chem quiz on thursday..

and physics..when is phy? o.o

but we're having a holiday compared to those cramming for prelim o's. jiayou, people! it'll soon be over and you can do it, because you are brilliant. really, you are.

twelve days and an hour more to let's kill hitler.

is this how time really passes? really really slowly, and in the correct order.

trust me. i'm the doctor.

went to school today for the DSA tea session thingy. there goes my sleep.

it was kinda dismal, but fun in a way. because it was like DSA camp all over again, except it's like more boring. and the sun was ruining our shots in the morning..

and every student leader was supposed to be attached to a family. by like halfway through, they all lost their families xD

and we didn't get any food from the hall :(

not even the green drink.

i brought home 3 packs of nasi lemak though. and 3 apples. in exchange for a box of lasagna. but ji says it's super yummy so that makes me feel happy that i've brightened someone else's day and i'm proud of my mum.

ended at 12, came home with ianfoooooo (:

it's nice to talk to him, but he's damn sad la, house still being painted so he can't go home and sleep.

on the other hand, my house is fine so i came home, ate lunch and then crashed for 5h.

yes, i am so totally going to be up tonight.

riots are ending (i hope), and the premier league season's starting! interesting.

and some UFO sightings in the UK have been released to the public...see, i told you aliens are out there. it's a big big universe.

and this is just heartwarming story. some people out there are brilliant, just brilliant. i can't describe it, so read it here.

i'll have to check if the link works, it always screws up.

got some awesome photos to edit, which i'll upload later. but it won't be nice here, so check my tumblr :D

right, i am now going to relieve myself of some guilt because i didn't help in the URA presentation at all.

what about all those friends, all those friends you used to have?

they've all got someone else now.

time to, say goodnight.

however stupidly, i watched flesh and stone in school today during break. so i'm probably not gonna get much sleep x.x

just got back from the recital and ate a little dinner. ended at 845, and we spammed food. there was awesome food ahhh it was totally worth staying :D chicken pies and egg tarts. lovely.

came back with dion, some people (ahem) ditched us for 188, so we had to come back with hema lol. then we got off at lavender, my dad picked us. but then he made a wrong turn and so we went one whole big round. and dion was freaking out at my dad's driving. get used to it, he's very aggressive xD

oh no. my sister has gastric flu.

and i'm going to school tmr..for photo duty. sorta. because they suddenly want 5 thousand photographers. and i'm using dion's cam. hopefully the battery doesn't die..

that reminds me, still have to decide which bag to bring...

how come there's a tea session to welcome the new DSA recruits this year! we didn't have that time...scammers.

today started out quite badly, because like all the things weren't going smoothly. and i had a weird headache from like during bio to after chinese..so it's like 10-130. so it's like, can't think at all. evolution bio is stupid, the pracs are all dumb and typing stuff into a computer program. it's all complicated formulas! you can't do that, this is nature, you're trying to force nature to adhere to your formulas...get a life.

english was good though, i spammed examples into my essay. thank goodness the new questions were easier..

and then watched doctor who, which i've already mentioned.

cca was kinda interesting. we went around taking photos about shadow, and light, which was annoying at first because there were no shadows, and i didn't bring my cam. but jiamin lent me his cam so i went around randomly and walked into andreea, who gave me flowers. and then i did an awesome shot with the flash, and one more awesome shot with the flowers on the track. but it's super tiring, have to like lie down on the track in the hot sun while trying to not make the flowers float away and manually focusing the thing.

whoosh. long sentence.

i'll need to sleep soon, waking up at 7 tmr. or earlier...

okay, maybe later. around 730?

let's have a good night's sleep.

going to imm tmr to buy shoe after the thing ends tmr, that's convenient. for all of you who don't know, my shoe is falling apart.

jiamin send me the photos! i want full-res tyvm (:

i also want to thank hema, for all the random errands he's done for me.

but you still owe me $5 heh.

the impossible astronaut will rise from the deep and strike the time lord dead.

windows all broken.

i failed, i can't go on a hiatus lol. blogging is my life.

well, part of it anyway.

right now i'm disappointed because i'm tired/there's no nice food/my siblings are just being so @!##@!@#! again.

oh well. tmr's screwed for some people. for me it's only english + chinese.

i think for junwei it's english + chinese + bio + chem o. gg.

good luck, everyone. if we get through these few weeks it'll be good. sense of satisfaction.

like a skyscraper ~

we had clifton soh for physics today, so that was good. his analogies are damn good, and his jokes are just so...epic. and he says them with a straight face! it's super funny xD

forget it, i'm off to eat dinner. and then later have to do up econs and the forum letter..

this is real, this is me.

i'm exactly where i'm supposed to be now.

reblog to express, not to impress.

hair always looks much better after a shower.

it's true, you know. well, it depends. sometimes if you get it wrong it just looks terrible.

i'm going to cut it off soon. well, about 80% of it. it's really annoying the heck out of me.

thank goodness i managed to get tuition postponed. because stuff left to do tonight is like :

1. study bio (haven't started)

2. go and get my hair cut

3. forum letter. super overdue

impossible, with tuition around.

but now it feels like i wasted the whole of yesterday doing the zuowen on singapore's 优雅社会. ah, screw that. it's out of point anyway.

and i can't cycle my bicycle because apparently someone borrowed it. so i'll have to cycle my mum's. things are just falling OUT of place now..

went to school in the morning for geog, which wasn't really a lesson to be honest. reached at 7, so i did phy assignment, and then it turns out we didn't do the CBD presentation after all -.-

because we had to cut short the lesson as she didn't really book the room. well, who's complaining..anyway felix and chenglei didn't show up..felix has skill, halfway through the lesson i check my email and he posted on the class group to apologise lol.

and then the lesson is like 40% talking to rong, 30% listening to her and taking random notes, 20% of watching hardik maple all the way through the lesson beside me..shameless, that guy.

went clementi mall for lunch. and hardik threatened to stalk me home to get to my sister. the usual, he always has some other hidden agenda.

i am going to be taking a hiatus, i think. my posts are just not good enough, and everytime i blog, i just feel like such a bad person. I'm currently at 9946 emails (another random fact), so it is going to hit 10000 soon and i'm excited! crazy.

who knew august could be such a screwed up month.

so many things to do, so many emotions to deal with.

sometimes i don't understand people. LONDON, what is wrong with you? for the select few of you who think it's okay to go around destroying your own city and ruining people's lives just because you're unhappy at something, that's not the way to go, okay. i thought better of you. and it is just stupid to burn your own city down when you're pissed. it's like you don't like which brand of grapes your mum bought, so you thrash your house. and the entire block.

what?

better connections get you an advantage over everyone else.

this is especially true if you're trying to do up a geography presentation for tmr, and msn, fb chat and google docs is jamming. so basically i can't get in touch with everyone.

and i'm sure we're all pissed.

going early anyway. will reach school at around 7.

still don't know what to wear. oh well. why do i care. like it matters anyway. it's like like there's anything they can do to us lol.

okay, if i can get hold of a bow tie, i'll show up in the doctor's outfit.

kidding.

my posts are becoming various one-liners added up. but there's really nothing to post about...like someone just sucked all the thoughts out of me. that's how i feel now. empty and tired.

spent the whole day doing one zuowen which i'm pretty sure is out of point. so basically wasted the entire day. tmr going to school for geog..goodness.

okay it won't be that bad. yx, adrian and dion going early also. at least we can study geog..

wait. i mean bio.

i think we'll end up playing cards.

scrap this, i am going to watch doctor who. goodnight.

16 more days to let's kill hitler.

goodbye leadworth, hello everywhere.

sometimes, i really don't know what to post.

i just get all edgy and fired up. people can be annoying, but i find i'm the one who annoys myself the most. all the negative feelings just crop out, when i'm supposed to be happy.

guess i'm not going OBS after all. have to cover convo. that means can go to malaysia earlier..means got dslr to play with! and driving, and awesome food.

and there are 2 weddings to attend! i like weddings, because

1. food

2. happiness

3. dancing (depends)

ahaha. spoilers.

we're too young to understand love. it's just the feelings going insane in a blender. so i think i'll just attempt to ignore everything. still unsure, especially after today.

and my bottle broke! the strap broke in the afternoon, and then at night, a crack in time and space appeared on the bottom. annoying...now i have to get a new one.

oh yes, we went to daryl lee's house today because it was his birthday on 4th august, and he wanted to organise a sort of party-ish thing. so we stopped at queensway, stalled and bought him a present, and then mainly bballed, bmt-ed, ate food, ate more food, and made him find the present. super fun but tiring day. and worth every second of it (:

why is his house so windy ahh i want. i mean downstairs, beside the pool there. it's so nice i think i'll just sit there the whole time if i live there.

and the security guard hates our guts. heh. okay that was a lame pun.

my hair is really annoying me, i should go cut it.

introduction to spot fixing and wireless printers.

A- Age:
15. 16 in ~17 days.

B - Bed size:
super-single. it's so comfortable i just feel like rolling into it xD

C - Chinese Food Dish:
it's either the roast duck or the random salad with melon and prawns. or anything with raw fish heh.

D - Dentist name:
-skip-

E - Early Bird or Night Owl?
those sound like songs.

it's better being the early bird, because you can get so much more done! but i find being the night owl is the easier option. less torturous.

F - Favorite color:
red, maybe. it's always red/blue/purple/black.

G - Gold or Silver:
Silver. gold's too cliche..and not nice. on the other hand, silver is cool and undervalued.

H - Height:
1.8-ish.

I - Ink as in tattoos you have:

tattoos aren't cool.


J - Job title:

DOCTOR :D

no, kidding. student.


K - Kitchen Meal or Restaurant?

if you're paying, of course restaurant ;D

but sometimes a home cooked meal is better. there's more...friendliness and warmth.


L - Living arrangements:
in my mum's house.

M - Month of birth:

this month.


N - Nicknames:
don't have any actually...well they like to call me pinny..

you. don't do that xD

O - On time or late:

somewhere in the middle.


P - Pet Peeve:
when someone just keeps insisting you're wrong, over and over again. and he or she does so super forcefully until they just go super loud and it's just super maddening.

Q - Quote from a movie:

i'll have to get back to you on that one. heh.


R - Right or left handed:

i right with the right side!

S - Siblings:

Lim Yu, 12

Lim Jing, 9


T - Time you wake up:

today it was 8:30.

and 9:30

and 9:45

and 2:14

and 2:59

and 3:35


U - Urgent thing on your to do list:

cut nails. and hair. it's driving me insane.


V - Vegetable you dislike:
celery.

W - Wishing for:

love.


X - X-rays you've had:

one of my toe. but it wasn't broken, which is good.


Y - Yummy food you make:

oh, lasagna :D

and apple pie once, brownies loads of times..and a lot of other pasta stuff.


Z - Zoo Favorite:

you mean animals? flamingos.

Craig : has anyone ever told you that you're a bit weird?

The Doctor : they never really stop.

dance and never stop.

still slightly punch-drunk from waking up about 20mins ago.

yes, this is what happens when you sleep at 3 and exercise in the morning. you just die in the afternoon. and there's a bottle of red wine on my table. 2008 cabernet merlot from australia.

forget it, i'm annoyed again.

gotta report at 715 tmr, which isn't much since most of the time i'm there at 710. but still, the concert's going to be a disaster. technically, there wasn't even a proper rehearsal.

oh, give me a break, you're always hammering on about everything. you and everyone else. and me. actually i think i'm more demanding of myself. recipe for disaster.

i'll just leave you this picture because i feel guilty for not saying anything more. and there's really nothing i can bring out anymore. may stop blogging for a while. just, a while.

oh, and had this really weird dream about pirates of the caribbean and custard creams and some phy lab on the 6th floor. brain going crazy again ~

first of all, we do the news.

there's been a 1% fare increase in the public transport...facepalm. are you serious? again. and it's like to suan us, only 1%. but actually it adds up to quite a lot. the fare for adults is already very ex actually..

and some guy has been jailed for 2 years for stealing $2. right....this is just so..

forget it, can't find the words to describe it. i get all my news from yahoo btw, it's just so awesome.

a swedish guy built a nuclear reactor in his kitchen using a gas cooker, and the tech companies are all buying patents now..waste of billions of dollars which can be used to help africa.

i'm really really mentally and physically exhausted now. can't even remember what happened today. and i still got tuition homework to settle before i crash. terrible.

the workload nowadays is complete balls. and then i have to worry about like my english advocacy thing also, and all the events coming up.

what did we do today. oh yes, we did stuff. stuff that i can't remember. we were helping justin to do his SC exco application thing...which is basically just a bunch of words which the teachers won't probably read. and then i forgot the rest of the conversation.

got released from bio early, which was good. but then didn't want to do chinese, so just spent that 1h walking around randomly and blasting songs through our (screwed)speakers. running out of music.

played soccer, had media where we did photosharing. quite fun, because i feel happy when they clap. it's like i've accomplished something at last. and roslyn gave us colour pencils! random much. and i got awesome colours...purple and red.

thank goodness i don't have to worry about what shirt to wear on monday. it's just default to media shirt since i'm doing AV...gosh, everything's gonna screw up.

who the heck is max lim?

some guy who wants to friend me on Facebook.

oh well, bye. i need to go do stuff and sleep.

rest well.

or hello, as people used to say.

tired. slackish.

will probably start work at 9, at this rate. the most pressing work right now is chinese lol. which i don't want to do at all, as i've mentioned about a million times already. no motivation at all.

oh, and happy birthday to daryl lee :D that awesome half-korean dude who is brilliant at soccer and whose hobby is to insult hema as much as possible in the weirdest way you can think of.

that's a good description, right?

i'll probably just go eat chocolate frogs again. well, they're just frogs..made of chocolate. but nice.

today was quite...satisfying. learnt quite a bit in physics, and then managed to finish chem prac by spamming mrs chong with questions. she's damn nice haha. and someone -ahem- poured corrosive stuff down the sink and contaminated like 0.000324432% of Singapore's water supply haha. it'll definitely get into the newater.

speaking of chem, here's our awesome project work plan :D

-will post once i get the thing from jordan, check back later please-

but the rained ruined everything today. i mean, it was pe and we were supposed to do frisbee, but then it just comes and pours. and it killed our mood, because we didn't do anything so she just released us early. then everyone goes back to class and attempts to play cards to liven up the mood, and failed. everyone was just so sad..i blame the rain.

or maybe it's just me. and it rained until like 4 +...and basically everything just made me feel sad and lonely and disappointed in myself because i can't do anything well at all. i can't even make a decent video, dammit. and i waste all my time trying to do stuff, but in the end i just fail.

i hate yahoo sometimes. is it so difficult to ask for consistent mail service? the server always gives me bullshit.

right. now i might have left an sd card which i'm supposed to pass to dion somewhere. i don't know where it is. sorry, i just can't do stuff. you shouldn't ask me to do anything because i'll just fail and ruin your life.

a mysterious summons, you think i'm just going to go?

i'm going to have to rush this post, because i've got tuition in ten minutes. reached home at around 520 just now, and then ate dinner (i know, mealtimes are becoming more and more irregular by day), and slept from 620-730. about an hour. hugely satisfying, but when i woke up, felt bad.

probably because of the fact that the bed wasn't cold at first. i mean, you want to get into a cold bed, because this country's warm. but the bed's like radiating heat outwards, because my sis has been sleeping on it for the past 2h. and now she's still on it.

sometimes i'm just sick of school, and doing work. and going back to school during holidays for geog, what? i think tmr's going to be bad. chem prac will probably screw up.

i hate chinese..don't want to do the paper. and it's been rotting there for over a week. current homework :

1. econs insight

2. math assignment

3. chem assignment (will get tmr)

4. chinese paper

5. geog assignment

6. geog presentation

and i tried doing math last night. can't even do 1a lol, fail.

okay, it's 7:55 now. better go.

the floor's hot lava.

that bittersweet feeling.

it's like initially i'm happy because today went kinda well. and there isn't really any homework. well, apart from chinese and all the assignments for which i'm not bothering.

but then i had to go and lose to chelsea on penalties and get knocked out of the fa cup in my second match. and i lost because i can't control the keeper because i don't know how T.T

so he just stands there. and the ball went between his legs like twice..

sad. and the whole team is so sluggish now. it's like, no energy.

today was busy. like, quite hectic. in the morning had to rush up to class because they want to take the photo for the friendship patchwork project, and then i was like, again? and the moment i walked in had to go find mr syed to borrow a tripod..super last minute.

and then the usual barrage of lessons and sleep. physics, math, ppv (brain died again), bio and econs. was writing mostly stuff i concocted in my mind for econs test to be honest. nothing much to say, it's like can't find the points in the extract!

i need chocolate.

oh and someone hacked my Facebook and typed something. not really hacked i guess, because it is logged in eternally on my itouch, and i've been lending it out a lot today so that people can play sushi. like, it's a game where you make sushi. for penguins. cool right.

okay so the penguin only appears like once in a blue moon. but still, it's cool.

I NEED TO WATCH DOCTOR WHO SO BAD I FEEL LIKE I'M GOING TO DIE WITHOUT IT AHH. BUT STILL HAVE TO WAIT UNTIL LIKE 28TH AUGUST @#!#@!

like a birthday present. there's an OBS briefing tmr (again), so that's when i'll see if it clashes with my returning to malaysia for multiple weddings and convocation.

thank goodness yx brought his com today. turns out cg plays need for speed too. haven't touched it for so long, but it's still awesome. i'll start replaying it next year.

closure is good. spoke to loo after ppv, and we both laughed and agreed that : "we both need anger management therapy." oh, and all of you who ate the cake on friday, pay up. it's $2.30.

i'm still about 10 bucks short. can't remember who ate. oh well, shall go around chasing people for money tmr..

it's amazing how lousy my internet is. i consider 20kb/s a fast download speed now..fail fail fail.

let's all go watch power rangers. it's amazingly retarded. storyline's all the same...first they fight, and then they fail, and then they defeat the bad guy, and the bad guy becomes big, so they copy him, and they hit him with a sword and some guns, and destroy half the city in the process. and there's mega explosions in the background.

haha, talking to dion and boon chong on the train is fun. our conversations are super random.

i shall go now, to get some chocolate and read the subject specialisation slides. and then i'll attempt math assignment.

and i'll see you in the morning.

impossible choice.

oh, the need to study for econs.

except don't really know what to study. think i'll go memo some definitions and worksheet 1 answers, and then crash.

regretting having taken it now.

and i need to cut nails.

today was slackish.. and i still hated it. always hate mondays.

didn't have chinese, because wujiong was sick, and then math was just test, then released early. geog was basically self lesson, just do all the reading summaries and then can go already.

so the only real lesson we had was chem. and then the chinese opera thing. and the national day rehearsal. it's so messy backstage...i give up.

and then went home alone. slept from outram to bedok or something like that, and then slept even more. ah, sleep is good.

going to sleep more soon.

my internet is complete rubbish right now. i think it's like 0.5kb/s or something.

shall go, my posts are very short nowadays.

probably because i'm just sad and brooding all the time.