storm brewing.

crazy, crazy, crazy day today.

and open house tmr.

i'm waking up at 745. don't know when to go though..

anyway, school was okay. slept through english, had lunch and stoned through math. found out i made a whole lot of nonsense integration errors in my assignment 5. luckily jiawei pointed them out..lifesaver.

and the sky is currently getting lit up with lightning like every few seconds. it's scary but it's been that way for a couple of hours and still no storm.

and it doesn't help that i'm listening to two steps to hell.

came up and slept until 2, then went down to help krystin with the noticeboard. it was only me, her and joan...so we got it done. it's simple, yet brilliant. and then basically hung about in the art room and the audi. and it was...

i don't know. some of it was good, but.

it's probably just me.

cip briefing is done. then we went to the audi again because png needed to shoot for the concert so jiamin taught him..and then daryl read hunger games while i opened my com and played pes for an hour..

and then we went out. to vivo, to eat kfc because dion has $20 worth of vouchers. album link here. i'm lazy to go steal all the photos..

https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.3180822712544.2133103.1024956442&type=1

and then came back and did late night cooking! eggs and pasta haha.

yes the quality is incredibly crappy since it's from my phone. and i keep shaking. and the elbows are really upside down.

off to sleep now, goodnight.

chemistry.

no, not that chemistry. the chemistry when we're playing football.

it was fun, even with 7-8 people.

because everyone went out so in the end it was me dion jordan jookee junwei yufong zheyu huang punitha. but then jordan got injured like 5 mins into the thing :/

and jookee's foot died at the end again but i think it's fine now. thank goodness.

i know i haven't posted in like forever. well, the week has been busy...with stuff. a lot a lot of work. but it's finally over.

and open house on saturday...

and next week there's med chem test and chem quiz oh goodness.

i hate school.

but right now i'm more focused on trying to get the cip details sorted out. argh why is no one replying -.-

oh yawen did.

mmm i love sleep.

i can't blog naturally anymore :(

is it possible to miss someone even though you've decided you don't love them that way?

a week ahead.

this is what i do all the time. procrastinate and waste my weekend away.

work done so far : 5 AP MCQ questions. lol.

very, very fail.

work that needs to be done tmr morning : chem mind map + math revision.

given that loo was revising for the entire day and he's better than me in math, i have every right to be scared..

but still, who the hell puts two tests right after another -.-

actually it makes no difference..

as you can see from the (crappy) pictures, went out just now. but i basically slept the whole day so no work done..anyway was with andreea junwei daryl fiona jiamin dion png rong at tamira's concert. that's andreea's sister by the way..and paya lebar methodist girls school has a hacker guzheng ensemble. if that word's even appropriate.

was mostly trying to hook dion up with tamira anyway. super funny.

and then we proceeded to eat prata. the guy screwed up the counting..i hope he really wasn't trying to scam me. how can 10 + 1.20 + 1.40 + 1.40 + 2.50 = 27.60?

cow.

he didn't manage to scam me. but while i was paying png and rong went off because he had to go home and she had to go back to hostel..

then we went to andreea's house and played village. which went well. with 6 people and then jiamin randomly touching my knees when my eyes are closed because he wanted to change the music..

goodnight.

two people looking for different things.

movies.

tonight, i rewatched pirates of the carribbean and finished gi joe..and now i'm super tired and feel like sleeping. it is 2.

and listening to two steps from hell. goodness me.

cross country was apparently only around 4km..scammers. but i completely died at the last bit -.-

went to pool at pomo for an hour just now, then took 175 back to school...which took around 70 minutes. and we all slept..albeit uncomfortably.

yes, i have no shoes to wear for tmr. fml.

homework to do : study math.

and chem mindmap,

sleepy. mmm. bye.

no shoes.

left them in hostel..forgot i brought an extra pair. -facepalms-

anyway, photos from thursday :D

with adrian before leaving (:

the smile of jordan.

and yawen :D

so sad there was no the hobbit trailer though..

and...hema? at popeye's.

me and cheeseng (:

holy heck the tickets are taller than jean.

.....they got hungry.

group shot! yes weiren is a complete woman haha.

right. a proper friday post next. since i'm up at 1:41 and there's nothing to do (actually there's a lot to do but screw that lol)

the journey is just beginning.

on the bus now on the way to macritchie for cross country. We're the last bus, and there's a jam, so we will not make it there on time.

went to watch hunger games last night with around 20 other people. I'll do a picture post tonight, Weiren just uploaded the photos..

I have to say, it was quite good. For a movie. Now I completely can't wait for avengers..

Long time since I've watched a movie in that respect, I think. Anyway, we got back around 1220, and then ended up talking until 3+..

Had to sleep on foo's bed because he knocked out on mine...and then some up at 6 to blinding light.

And now I'm here.

waiting for dion to shower..

going to go watch hunger games soon.

the week is over. well, kind of..

disappointed at myself for being useless.

and my specs are fixed, at least.

and relieved it's over.

but worried about the next one.

calamity before the storm.

up at 204.

just finished studying chem..and jiamin's still going. he's sitting on my bed now trying to decipher stereoisomerism. the rest of us gave up about half an hour ago.

i need to sleep. or else i'll collapse tmr.

come on. just this bit to go.

drive by.

episode 22 is...

yeah.

speechless, afterwards.

well, today has been busy. and then at night, no work done at all.

but still, fun. guess i'll really have to study tmr :(

right. i'm going to switch to phone internet. gimme a sec.

give me a sec. there, it looks better.

phone internet for the win.

i haven't said for the win in a long, long time.

slept through chem this morning, which i felt really bad for. well before chem i was kinda annoyed because the projector screwed up and basically assembly died. because apparently, one of the pins in the VGA connector was pushed in..cows

people destroying the stuff all the time. jeez.

i said jeez.

then i went back up and crashed for 2h. woke up at 1254 and then ran down for math...and then went to robotics lab to help yawen and weiren do a video workshop for them. ended up having to film something, which we ran out of time. but i'm quite proud of it, even though it may be under par. i'm not much of a video person. as in, i enjoy it very much, and i respect the people behind it, but i'm not that good at it.

dinner was...just talking and complaining about the spaghetti haha. and then had math remedial. basically 8 people crammed onto one bench. skill.

sleepy..urgh. we left the laundry in the machine so had to go down and get it at midnight. it is now one. goodnight.

at world's end.

i've definitely already used that title before.

feeling extremely dead and unhappy right now. no idea why.

i think i'll go watch potc again. that'll cheer me up.

went to school in the morning to cover SMPF with jm. then we realised none of us had our media shirts and he couldn't even unlock his wardrobe, so he stole dion's pants and we decided to do "casual saturday". and we were all dying throughout because it was rather crap..and he slept at 530 that joker

shooting in raw means that an 8GB sd card is suddenly 200+ shots only..and i had to video as well because the video camera didn't arrive until 9.

blerhghu.

then came home and slept until dinner.

now my dad's raging. grrrr whatever bye.

forgotten.

also, i forgot to mention that i saw a roslyn lookalike.

that is all.

and i used up 2 of yx's SD cards. heh.

and don't go to labrador park for a bbq.

1. damn wulu you have to walk for miles

2. there's no lights so you have to cook by phone light probably

but there are friendly fishing enthusiasts!

chan weiren is high.

at musing's end.

it's supposed to be a good short film. but i haven't watched it.

tiring day today. went out with yx to take photos..we went to chinatown, little india, arab street, labrador park and marina bay. definitely going back to marina again though..

but now i want to sleep. because it's 2 and i have to be in school at 8 for SMPF.

and there's loads of stuff to sort.

and i need to pack. and i need to hug my camera to thank it for being so awesome today.

and i love using a tripod even though i'm nonsense at it.

and there's a lot of work to be done but screw that.

and i just made myself a pizza, and ate that, plus a slice of swiss roll and two sausage buns.

gosh i'm greedy.

nights (:

the more people you love, the weaker you are.

but the happier you will be.

caravan catash.

1: Who did you last say "i love you" to?

i....i don't know.

2: Do you regret it?
3: Have you ever been depressed?

i don't know what is defined as being depressed. probably not, i suppose. depression is rather serious and if it gets to the really bad stage it can really kill.

4: Do you like dinosaurs?

my childhood.

5: Are you insecure?

yes.

6: What is your relationship status?

7: How do you want to die?

i don't.

8: What did you last eat?

a pineapple tart.

9: Have you played any sports?

i suppose. most. soccer, frisbee, badminton, tennis. anything.

10: Do you have an attitude?

everyone does.

11: Do you like someone?
12: What is your real name?

my real name is hidden.

13: Have you ever read a book?

Yes.

14: Do you hate anyone at the moment?

only myself.

15: Do you miss someone?

/.

16: Twirl or cut your spaghetti?

twirl it using my fork and then cut it with my teeth.

17: Do you tan a lot? over the summer?

most of the time i'm quite black/brown.

18: Have any pets?

nope.

19: How exactly are you feeling?

a confused sort of calm, but butterflies inside still.

20: Ever eaten food in a car while someone or yourself is driving:

countless times.

21: Good driver?

the last time i tried, i couldn't keep in lane.

22: Are you scared of spiders?

yes. a little i guess. but not that scared.

23: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?

yes.

24: Do you regret anything from your past?

the past is just memories. yes, i do.

25: What are your plans for this weekend?

go to school to take photos for SMPF, then try and consolidate my work and my feelings. then, i'll play frisbee and come to school for intercluster soccer.

26: Do you want to have kids?

mind's wavering. right now it's 20% yes.

27: Do you type fast?

relatively fast, i like to think.

28: Do you have piercings?

no.

29: Want anymore?
30: Can you spell well?

i like to think so as well, yes.

31: Do you miss anyone from your past?

oh, everyone.

32: What are you craving right now?

sleep.

33: Ever been to a bonfire party?

no. well, if campfires count (no), then yes.

34: Ever had a silly band?

don't get this.

35: Have you ever been on a horse?

no.

36: Have you ever broken someones heart?

not that i know of.

37: Have you ever been cheated on?

i've never been with anyone, so don't think that's possible. heh.

38: Are you thinking of someone right now?

screw you. go away. stupid question. you can't just ask are you thinking of someone right now. it screws my brain up.

39: Would you live with someone without marrying them?

uhuh.

40: What should you be doing?

homework.

41: Whats irritating you right now?

refer to 40.

42: Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurts?

yes. have you?

43: Does somebody love you?

i guess so. i mean, my family and my friends.

44: What is your favorite colour?

changes from day to day.

45: Have you ever changed clothes in a car?

yes. it was easier when i was smaller..

46: Milk chocolate or white chocolate?

milk.

47: Do you have trust issues?

sometimes. but generally i'm quite open. sometimes too open.

48: Best friends name?
49: 2nd best friends name?
50: 3rd best friends name?

the above is all irrelevant because i do not rank my friends. and i refuse to do it. so there.

51: Who was the last person you cried in front of?

52: Do you give out second chances too easily?

yes.

53: Is it easier to forgive or forget?

forgive.

54: What was your childhood nickname?
55: Favorite food?

cheese fishcake? lolol.

60: Do you believe everything happens for a reason??

no..it happens because it happens.

61: Did you have a dream last night?

don't think so.

62: Have you ever been out of state?

Yes.

63: Do you play the wii?

Yes.

64: Are you listening to music right now?

Yes. How To Save a Life - The Fray.

65: Do you like chinese food?

I like all food :D

66: Who are you texting right now?

no one :(

67: Are you afraid of the dark?

i am afraid of what might be in the dark...namely, weeping angels.

68: Is cheating ever okay?

for the minor stuff, i guess.

69: Are you mean?

taylor swift is.

70: Can you keep white shoes clean?

they turn pink.

71: What year has been your best?

2011.

72: Do you believe in true love?

definitely.

73: Favorite weather?

depends on the mood.

74: Do you like the snow?

yes, because we don't get it at all.

75: Does it snow a lot where you live?
76: Do you like the outside?

yeah, fresh air is good.

77: Do you wanna get married?

yes.

78: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?

that has never happened. but i don't really like the concept of it. i'd prefer names.

79: Are you hungry?

no.

80: What makes you happy?

good food, friends, laughter.

81: Would you change your name?

never. i love it. and i love my parents for it.

82: Ever been to Alaska?
83: Ever been to Hawaii?

-shakes head-

84: Do you watch the news?

i read it online. virgo.

85: What's your zodiac sign?
86: Do you like subway?

yes. but no pickles or jalapeño please.

87: Do you talk like your friends?

i think i'm starting to.

88: Have you ever seen someone you knew and purposely avoided them?

.....yeah.

89: Do you have a friend of the opposite gender who you can act your complete self around?

(:

100: Who was the last person of the opposite gender you talked to?

talked. that would be jingmin. or my sister actually..

101: Do you feel good?

i feel tired and messed up.

102: Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?

define deep.

103: Can you count to one million?

no, because i can't be bothered to.

104: Are your finger nails painted at the moment?

nah.

105: Favorite number?

96.

106: If you could pick two people your own age or younger to be stuck on a stranded island with, who would it be?

i can't decide.

107: Are you a hunter?

...what?

108: Tall or short?

tall, i suppose.

109: Favorite subject in school?

right now it's probably math. i know, crazy.

110: What 5 people do you trust the most?

jingmin, jiamin, jordan, edwin and....my mum. haha.

111: Who do you think has amazing hair?

karen gillan.

112: Parents divorced?

i hope that never happens.

113: What city do you live in?
114: Where were you born?

both Singapore.

115: Recliner or couch?

bed.

116: What two people do you miss talking to?

117: Who will you be with this weekend?

jiamin, then my family, then everyone.

118: City or country?

like jean, who i stole this from.

city now, and country later in life.

119: Water or soda?

water.

120: Was this a waste of my time?

i hope you find it good reading.

episode 21 of mirai nikki.

actually jookee told me about it beforehand but i was sort of like, okay...then i saw it haha.

it has been a long time since i posted. well, i've been busy(having fun) and there are times where i didn't feel like posting. but now i'm back.

went to weiren's house to bbq on monday. swam also, quite fun. unfortunately i couldn't stay over..and i didn't go on the 2nd day because i only got the message at around 430 but anyway i overslept big time until 12 anyway.

so yes i'm too tired to do a picture post and tell you what happened so here's the album link instead.

https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.10150749407682033.465852.742032032&type=1

have fun. i need to rush the dcc poster out and email it out for printing by tonight. and it is currently 1:19. i just finished doing a lot of math...destroyed my sister's foolscap by doing honours journal on series + assignment 4.

oh it just started raining.

it rains a lot a lot at night nowadays.

bleh. i'm tired. better go.

goodnight.

things to do :

1. chem assignment 3.

2. chem mindmap.

3. apply for late return on thursday.

4. charge camera battery.

5. check why the hell are my contacts not syncing with iCloud.

6. do some quizzes for you guys here because i realise fiona posted new ones and i shall steal.

7. make sure i stop talking so much nonsense.

8. media club tioman proposal.

9. math hons practice qns.

10. med chem pre lab?

gosh why am i doing 8 now. i should be doing the poster. cya.

waiting outside the lines.

and playing draw something.

addictive.

yes i woke up at 1. for the first time in many years. see, that's what sleeping at 3 for 2 days straight does to you.

need to do work...my holidays are really packed with events now lolol. lee yi xuan hurry up go buy your 70-300 lah.

just finished clearing around 20 people on draw something hahaha so fun! addictive more like. reached home at around 12 last night..crashed out on the bus again and nearly missed the stop. amazingly my batt lasted until i was in the lift, then i pulled it out to call my parents to unlock the door and the phone just died.

oh yesh, need to update software as well..

goals for today :

1. dc arp poster

2. finish editing.

3. update all software.

4. sleep more.

time to go, lunch now :D

do it because you love it, not because you have to.

come here.

today was...strange.

i don't know. my emotions are...strange.

currently in the room with daryl and jordan talking. there's gonna be a fire drill later apparently.

just had math today, then went to the tv room to play village..then went out for lunch with fiona daryl loo and hema, to subway. $6 for ham..worth it i guess.

okay what am i thinking.

then had to rush back and go to ssef, which was kinda non eventful...except that they got merit and andreea was being a crazy woman by gushing over their poster. ended up in macs, then we decided to come back, and went to the 5th floor tv room to watch family guy.

then came back and crashed..and now i'm awake at 8:30.

cows.

it's true, inside i'm such a mess. i've barely spoken 4 sentences to you this week.

goodbye.

timeless love.

right. it is now 5 and just after pe. there is match on and it's supposed to start now and i hear no whistle.

my roommate is on the bench. well, i have to say it's a friendly so there's as many substitutions as you want.

i keep thinking it's thursday. because we have timetable swap so today is thursday's lessons. and yay it's wednesday that means that the food won't suck that badly :D

i hate thursday dinner. it's always nonsense then i don't feel like eating.

i want ice cream.

oh, hotel california is one of the all time greats.

had chem quiz in the morning, which was manageable and quite easy compared to the previous one..and then spent the rest of chem sleeping. and then remonstrating with people because THEY DIDN'T KNOW WHO WAS TONY STARK.

yawen started it..then in physics she drew this on the physics in class that we all got 1/15 hahaha. join the 1 club!

slept through the rest of physics, pe killed me off. i feel kinda refreshed now, but tired. tired all the same. and i'm worried about dcarp. we keep having conflicting ideas i want to kill someone.

supposed to talk tonight anyway.

and i still need to vacuum. and do laundry. and eat my pau lololol.

bye.

there's an angel in her mind.

amy, close your eyes. keep them shut. if you open your eyes for more than a second the angel will escape and you will die.

the eyes are the windows of the soul.

dismal abysmal.

i was sad, and then you guys made me high. well, it's just the laughter i guess.

and now i'm feeling kinda screwed. like, mixed emotions.

and i should really sleep.

it's worse okay. i'd rather feel completely sad or completely happy.

okay i don't know what i'm talking about anymore.

music. i need music.

can't find appropriate music.

okay i'm trying to deafen myself now.

not sure if that's even a word.

this blog is pointless. it's just a moment of my depressiveness which i don't show in real life. i'm fine normally, then when i come here i just feel sad and a need to complain.

delete.

passion eruption.

sounds like an ice cream sundae.

i want one.

just got back from playing netball/handball and showered. yay there's intercluster soccer coming up. sigh. still need time to sort out my life and my photos...go away jiamin.

going to a concert on the 24th of march, and another one on the 2nd of april. still need to buy tickets lol. or else i'll just sneak in and bring my own chair hahaha

sleepy. tired.

today was...good, in a way. i guess it's because i set myself up to try and be more happy. still talking too much nonsense though.

chem was okay..just that i learnt 2 things

1. daryl keeps saying shree should die

2. yawen thinks moses should be run over by a truck.

and then me and weiren went to 509 to stare at jiamin and make him feel uncomfortable haha.

went back to crash, had math, which was as usual (demoralizing), but lee chan lye started telling us his life story again...from money to fermat's last theorem to penang road signs to americans to life.

in the end he even forgot the main point of the story lol.

and then went to shoot group photos for ccas. journalism's president was missing, so that one's a gone case. table tennis was quite okay, just that the year ones are...scary. and i forgot to save in RAW wtf wtf how could i

and rong seemed..preoccupied.

i don't know. we hardly talk anymore.

and then went to audi to watch weiren/yawen perform and train AV people. most of the time we were just slacking around. and then yawen taught me how to play i'm yours. feel like getting into guitar again..but it'll probably just collapse again.

and now i'm just listening to adele, again because i don't know what to listen to.

okay, i'm gonna go get some work done now, bye :D

be happy.

satisfied.

it's been a weird day, but i'm strangely satisfied.

yes, it's about to turn 2. but i'm still awake.

that may be a mistake.

dion's sitting beside me. i guess he gave me a free life, so it's fine.

jordan went to sleep early. smart move.

i was studying chem anyway, and doing the worksheet 2C cos i missed out..

now we're talking about tnt.

i want to go to sleep. oh yes arsenal 2-1 liverpool. the highlights were epic.

tired now. goodnight.

i'm happy.

it's okay to make mistakes.

we all grow from mistakes.

i know you're worried that if you make just one little mistake, it could result in something very bad for the team. but sometimes, you just have to go for it. you have to believe that you can do something, to fight for what you want, to do what you love. and you grow from the mistakes.

i still haven't learned that yet.

have faith, in yourself.