mesmerising.

So we just got out of hostel. Just dropped jookee off and now going back to the east to drop Dion home and return the electric guitar to Yin Zhi.

Damn, I gotta get myself one of those.

The performance turned out okay, I think. I guess it's quite reasonable for a first time. But I still feel frustrated and mad at myself.

I still can't control my emotions. I can do it well when I'm in the hostel, considering I haven't gotten really really mad like even once this semester.
But it's in situations like this when it matters. I mean, I can't be so freaking rash and unreasonable. Now I realise I was annoyed for the wrong reasons and its merely my bloody ego in the way. And also, I can't seem to accept it when things go wrong. But I've been dealing with that fine all year. Ish. Why?

and there's the matter of figuring out what I really want. Maybe I'll just leave high school like that, I don't know.

bye.